Vent Your Frustrations • Page 76

Getting frustrated with how things have been at work the past few weeks. People slacking off and I’m stuck doing most of the work. Certain persons sit down and take extra long breaks while I’m running around wondering where they are. Also getting asked when I’m done with break like it’s a huge deal yet there’s not much going on and persons been sitting down most of the time anyway. Then making excuses for not getting something done. Like no this keeps happening throughout the shift. Please step up and do your job

 

I have a dentist appointment this week and I feel like they're just going to lecture me for not flossing. And I'll be honest I'm impressed that I even have time and energy to like be a human being everyday let alone floss

 

I hit the limit on Spotify today. I didn't even know that was a thing which is why I am so frustrated. I understand having a limit on the amount of songs you download offline, but why must there be a limit for libraries?! It seems that all of the internet agrees, but I don't think Spotify wants to fix this.

 

Flossing is genuinely hard! For whatever reason I just can't seem to make it a habit out of it. My dentist always makes me feel dumb about it, but I guess I'm can't be the only one. Ha!

 

I was doing really well with it a few years ago, like I actually kept it up for a few months until I went on a vacation and didn't floss and then never picked the habit back up again

 

I always floss right before I go in thinking it will hide the months of poor dental care and then get shocked when they see past me

 

Hey, at least you were able to do it for a while! My all-time record is probably flossing two days in a row.

 

Same. If I get everything out from in between my teeth and I don't have a cavity how do they know? At least it means they are good at their job, I guess.

 

I am missing Portland ME so so much, this past semester I started going to school a town over but I came home a lot (my classes are online) due to chronic illness and appointments. Even when I was in my school's town, I hardly went into Portland even though I get to ride the bus for free. I love Maine though, and I really want to go into Portland more next semester. It's probably my favorite place I've been to and I'm so lucky I get to go to school right next to it. Still, this is me venting because I miss Portland a lot and I'm going to have to be stuck in my hometown for over a month and this past semester wasn't what I hoped it would be. I really hope my meds work so well I won't have to come back as often.

 

I would move to Portland ME in an instant if my industry was there, bioinformatics.

 

I really need a new laptop for work but I can’t afford one. Mine is so old and slow. It takes forever to turn on, it locks up constantly, and now the internal battery is dead. I accidentally bumped the plug and it came unplugged and instantly turned off. Lost everything I was working on of course!!

 

I am an okay parallel parker but I am not confident in my abilities and its really annoying because my building is a non-smoking building so everybody goes outside and stands in front of the parking spots and watches me parallel which is not fun and nerve-wracking and then I screw up and I wish they would go away!!

 

I just found one of my dream jobs in Portland and I really want it, and I also think I'm very qualified, but I'm worried my mental and physical health won't be straightened out enough by next semester to handle a job on top of classes. I guess it's worth a shot though. I'll email the employer my cover letter and see what happens.

 

I went to buy a nice jacket for my dad for Xmas and it ended up being “women’s”. Pretty sure I was in the men’s clothing section. The jacket is black Columbia rain jacket so it’s very unisex looking in terms of style. Now I have to exchange it to see if they have a men’s one. The problem is I’ve looked all sorts of other stores that sell Columbia (or others) and haven’t found what I’m looking for so it will be irritating if they don’t have the men’s. Just when I thought I was halfway thru with Xmas shopping.

 

Watching my friends kid cause her other had a crisis. She said it was for thirty minutes. It's been two hours. I am exhausted. Not from watching him but like from life lol. I wanted to pretty much come home from work and sleep. Welp.

 

My new upstairs neighbor sucks. My last ones had a dog that I could hear running around a lot but that could be tuned out. They are blasting music so loud the bass is making things like ring. Like I know it's a Saturday night but who lives in an apartment and puts things on full blast?? And it never sounds like a party cause u can't hear ppl talking it's like they just hang out blasting music at ridic levels. I'm sick and just want to sleeeep. Even when there used to be a bar downstairs that would play music it wasn't this loud. Even if I pulled a Mr Heckles and banged on the ceiling I think they're too loud to even hear it and and I'm not about to go upstairs all snotty and sick and dead uggh.

For whatever reason it annoys me even more that they don't listen to full songs. They change them all in the middle.

 

Hate it when someone cancels plans last min because of “money” yet they spending money on something else

 

I was supposed to get full time at my work but something happened in the system and my name somehow got deleted from the list. My work now tells me I have to wait a month just for the next "hiring group" and it is frustrating as heck.

the fact my hours get cut even though something not in my control screwed me over is UGH. I love my job but I just want some decent hours.

 

To make a long story short my next door neighbors son is a meth dealer/addict who has made comments to make me feel extremely unsafe in the past. He’s not a tenant here so the HOA assured me they told my neighbor that he isn’t allowed here etc
He went to jail for a while so I finally felt like I could breathe
Well he got out right around Christmas and has been here ever since. I feel scared all the time and am terrified of leaving my house (his mom straight up said ‘yeah I don’t think he would hurt you but he might like break into your house when you’re not there) I literally hide my laptop when I leave.

Basically I told my mom finally and expressed to her how unsafe I feel and she told me she’d take me tonight to get some alarms for the doors and windows and some of the door and window stops so that I can feel safe.

When she gets here we get in a really dumb fight because she’s incapable of having a calm conversation, and basically she is like fuck this and just storms off.
And I’m just completely done. Literally she is putting some dumb pointless fight above my safety and I really can’t express how hurtful that is.
Like I don’t care how mad you are, you left and now I’m still unsafe and scared. That’s fucked up. You’re supposed to be my parent.

 

Insomnia is infuriating

 

I’m so tired of people treating me like shit. I had plans with this girl @ 7, text her around 7:30 to have her say I’m going to a show with that fucking teeth smile emoji. Motherfucker, I hope you know that isn’t an apology/doesn’t mean “sorry”. I really couldnt give two shits about the plans themselves, but for someone who talks about growing and mental health and kindness blah blah blah, that shit is just especially rude and inconsiderate.

I am just so tired of being alone and frankly it’s gonna be thst way for a little while longer, hopefully I figure something out. I also really just hate waking up sad, not a good feeling at all.

On the bright side, I was about to spend wayyyy too much money on that date so I’m probably going to treat myself, something small but something I want nonetheless

 

My family was supposed to go out to eat tonight to celebrate some birthdays. It’s really rare for my whole family to get together. Anyway my mom calls me up 20 minutes before I’m supposed to leave and is like “do you have money to pay for your dnnner?” And I was like... no?! And she knows this because she’s been hounding me about when my financial aid money comes in.
And she starts huffing about how she will have to sneak me money and I’m like what why and she’s like I don’t want anyone else to know that I have to pay for you my ADULT daughters dinner, I mean it’s a little pathetic.
I was just like wow okay it’s no big deal I won’t come then. I can’t afford it so I won’t go. And of course she then starts huffing like “don’t be like this, I just don’t want anyone to know!”

Now I’ve been crying instead of getting ready anyway so I really am going to miss it all because I’m an embarrassing failure who can’t afford dinner at Cody’s roadhouse.

 

The New England Patriots.

 

You're not a failure and that's a super shitty thing for a parent to say.

 

I am a failure lmao but thanks