Vent Your Frustrations • Page 67

my biggest frustration is how to network my music online. idk how to internet right. shits confusing af to me. also i wish every one would give the respect they want

 

I gotta rant about this shit bc it's driving me nuts and I can't deal with it anymore. I hate posting stuff like this bc, as I've mentioned in other threads, I'm overly paranoid people I know are gonna read my shit and know it's me bc my family spied on me during my teen years but I got nowhere else to vent so idc. My mom is very into psychics and that kinda shit. Fine, w/e you do what ya want. But they have all encouraged her on these fucking delusions and I can't handle it anymore. She's been going on about this specific thing she INSISTS is going to happen for 3 years now. She talks about it to me every damn day. She knows I don't believe it at all bc it is based on NOTHING and NO FACTS but she still talks about it to me constantly. I try not to be mean bc she says she's afraid everyone thinks she's crazy, but it kinda is crazy. Like she is selling shit and clearing out her house bc she thinks she is moving to a different country. Based on literally nothing. I kinda went off on her about how it is absolutely crazy to do that. You have nothing lined up. Stop!! But she just gets mad at me and says I need to "trust the angels and spirit". I don't even know what to do about it but I've basically just stopped and let her do her shit bc she's a damn adult and I can't keep stressing out over her ruining her life when she won't listen to reason. I'm so mad at those damn "friends" of hers for encouraging this shit. And this isn't even the weirdest stuff I have to deal with.

 

My anxiety is high right now because my paycheck isn’t what it should be so I know they effed up again somewhere. It’s really hard to wait until later to get it to see where the mess up was. More anxious because I can’t do anything about it until Monday

 

I feel like I'm cursed to only make boring friends. Their idea of hanging out is me going to their house and watching TV by myself while they clean and do laundry. Or they say hey you wanna do something? And you say yeah, they pick you up and turns out "do something" means go grocery shopping with them. Um I don't enjoy grocery shopping for myself and I don't really wanna do it with you. If I wanna sit on my couch alone and watch TV I can do it at my own damn house and cuddle my cute dog. Then they get mad when I start asking them what the plans are before I agree to hang out. Like sorry but I'd rather be bored at my own place....

 

I usually don't turn to online forums to vent but since I don't see my therapist over the summer (for another month) I don't really know where else to turn. I've been working as a journalist here and there for the last year and sometimes my paycheck just isn't enough. I've got two weeks until my next payment and I'm already completely broke. Also, I've borrowed quite a lot of money from my brother to pay rent and he needs it back soon. My next paycheck is a lot bigger than I normally get, but it feels so far away. Last week I could handle it but this week it feels like a catastrophe again. I can't help feeling like a failure and I'm paranoid that my friends see me that way too. My therapist always says "The catastrophe is not always waiting around the corner" and I need to learn to think that way, but it's hard sometimes.

I just want some stability in my life which I haven't had the last year. And I don't want to feel like I'm falling behind my friends in every aspect of life, but foremost in careers and relationships.

 

I whine about this all the time but I hate feeling so tired all the time. I'm eating well. I try to be in bed by 9:00pm. I exercise daily. My levels are fine. But I'm so miserably tired all the time. Like legit at any point of the day today I could have just put my head down and fallen asleep wherever I was. It's legit miserable.

 

I feel like this but whenever I want to sleep I can’t for some reason. I hope it gets better for you!

 

Yeah I'm constantly tired too. I only sleep 6 hours though, so maybe that's it

 

I’m feeling this big time right now. I hope things start looking up for you!

 

Yes I will be legit miserably exhausted all day and cant wait to sleep, but when it's time to sleep I cant. Being super tired triggers my migraines so it sux. I was hoping it was my bloodwork so if I was anemic or something I could just adjust my diet, but my levels being fine was both relieving and frustrating. I'm wondering if working out in the evenings and the endorphins keep me up or something, but I am so not a morning person like I cannot exercise before work I have tried!

 

I'm also tired all the time. It might be job related. I work evenings and sometimes the night shift doesn't show up so I have to stay even later, so I don't get home until like 1am. I also can't eat a proper meal at work because it's super busy there is no time to sit and eat. I get home and I can't sleep, and I also can't wake up at a decent hour. It's probably also stress related because my job stresses me out so much, worrying if I'm going to be by myself, or if I get made to stay late because of a call off. (They can't staff properly. They'll know a week in advance that they need coverage for a shift, but wait to find the coverage last min, then by that time everyone else is already covering elsewhere then they asking you to do a double.). It's at the point where by bf is seriously worried about my health.

 

hearing people complain about the "Tipping system" with bartenders and servers. Cant believe how many people hate how there are some people out there scraping to make 20-40k a year...but dont care about the thousands of other jobs out there where people make 500k for not doing that much more to help/improve our society (wall street exec, bank etc). It's like they want EVERY job to be a minium wage mcdonalds job.

 

I know some people that make 7 figures and don't even work 40 hours a week. It's crazy.

 

My friend is a waitress and works 20-25hrs a week and makes more than me with a college degree working 40 hrs a week and I'm jealous af but at the same time idk if I could handle the instability/ dependency on tips and I'm not as charismatic and blonde lol so I'd never make that much on tips lbr

 

I don’t sleep and it’s a problem. I am wide awake right now at 4am and it’s like this all the time. I sleep out of obligation

 

It is very unstable. All it takes is a two week stretch of people not going to your bar and bam... you made 100 in two weeks.

 

Yeah places here are pretty busy except winter which it turns into a ghost town and that would be so hard with the holidays. I need stability! I tried waitressing for one day and they kept telling me to smile and I knew it wasn't for me haha

 

Banks

 

Mosquito bites

 

grrrrrr nothing makes me more pissed then when im at a bar and i play songs on the jukebox and some bartender with a remote skips, literally, ALL OF THEM! Like what the hell man that was $5!! These weren't obnoxious songs either...and i AM a bartender so i know not to 'ruin the bar with nonstop creed'... but this woman didn't even LISTEN to the songs i played, just "skip..skip..skip...skip...skip" and then back to bar soundtrack. If that's the case, turn the jukebox off!

As a bartender that's always my rule. If the jukebox is on...then let it ride. If you decided to install a jukebox...hey let it ride. Do NOT be a music nazi. As long as it's not vulgar metal or hip hop during peak dinner hours....or something truly silly on repeat... then i say it's all good

 

I wanna give up. I legit feel like my body is falling apart. These migraines are one thing. I have to try and be as healthy as possible and feel like I'm navigating a mine field with my choices so I dont trigger one which is super fun. And now my cramps have been getting worse. Not as bad as pre-bc but steadily worse each month. I had to cancel my dr appt cause of work stuff and she cant fit me in until like october now. I'm so done. I feel like I'm healthier than I've ever been and it doesnt even matter cause my body is like nope screw you!!

 

Each day I get more and more irritated with my job. This past week has been so unorganized and understaffed. They don’t plan things right and do things at the last sec/min despite knowing in advanced of shortage they don’t bother to do anything about it. Can’t get anything done properly because of it. Makes me miss my last job even tho there was so much bs there too but at least my last job id be making about $4 more an hour

 

I'm driving a far distance with an agency car and the gas card didnt work and i almost had a meltdown like omg what if the card is defective or something what will I doooo?? I guess I could pay and they'd reimburse later but things are already so tight! I was freaking out total anxiety meltdown and then I went to a different gas station and it worked lol

 

Aw yay

 

Lol I'm surprised it worked out. My life usually doesnt! That has never happened to me with a gas card and I am across the state and was like ahhh what if I get stranded and its 100 degrees I will DIE!!