Vent Your Frustrations • Page 38

Glad you're okay (...physically at least). I can't pretend like I understand you and your dad's relationship, but to me he sounds like someone whose help you shouldn't even want. Of course, that's easier said than done. He's your dad. But, man...

 

Thanks to you guys that read it. I know it was a lot. It felt good to just type it all out. My poor husband, he has the patience of a saint right now to listen to me all day everyday. All of that just barely scratches the surface. I'm sure things will get better eventually but I know my patience is so short with him. He still took me to dialysis Mon/Wed this week and will on Friday, but they are pretty quiet car rides. And it seems as though when he does talk, its just to be a prick. Other than the to/from to treatment, I havent spoken to him.

 

There's a chance I might lose my job by July. The lease is up for the building and we're being bought by another company. They've tried to ease my fears a bit by telling me the plans to move across the street to our Armada location, but it may not happen, or only some of us may go and others be let go.

I'm just so sad and scared. I'm a creature of habit. I love my job, I truly do. Most of the people I work with are incredible and I've become so close to them, more than any other coworkers I've ever had. I've never dreaded going to work, because I really do enjoy every day there. The thought of it coming to an end just really hurts, and I'm just scared shitless for my future.

 

I had a friend yesterday who kept making a racial slur to me and I repeatedly asked him to stop. He just laughed it off as me being sensitive.

I'm starting to realize my irl friends are so shitty and the only reason I hang with them is so I won't be alone getting food or sporting events.

This sucks.

 

I tend to do a lot of things alone and recently I've been starting to get teased more about it from co-workers and friends and it's a bummer.

I then do things with people and my previous post problem starts to happen so I try and be alone again.

I really need to stop letting peoples judging ways start to get to me.

 

Yeah I'll never get why people are so weird about doing things alone, like I'm not talking during the concert or movie anyway

 

Yea man that sucks. These don't sound like relationships worth keeping. It's tough to find good friends these days, I still don't really have any, outside of people who I occasionally get drinks with.

Some people care way more about things than others, and it's these people who don't care enough who end up with all the friends. All the compassionate people end up lonely or in few numbers. (Oh the irony)
I think that's why a lot of us resonate on this site. Cuz we cant find these people out irl. I say eff em! They are the weird ones not you!

 

Anyone that teases someone about doing things alone, especially things like going to a movie, is a doofus

 

I'm currently sitting alone at a bar, drinking a great beer, and waiting for a nice Currywurst to come out. Doing things alone is awesome

 

I feel extremely shitty today and knew coming to my friends party would be a bad idea. Feel completely left out and unimportant here and I just want to go home but I didnt drive to the house.

 

I need to find better concert buddies.

We agreed my bff would drive home. I woke up early so id been up longer, i have driving anxiety, and i have work early in the morning and she doesnt. I told her I'd help out if she got tired cause it's 3.5 hours and it would be late, but she said she'd be fine. Then she proceeds to get drunk and high during the show. She spends the show telling me I need to get high. Obv even if I wanted to i couldnt cause now i have to drive. She is in that stage where she started smoking recently and is obnoxious about it. She wanted me to look at the crowd to see who was lighting up and I was like SIS i wanna look at the band! Who cares who else is smoking?? Then she kept nagging me to get high cause it'd be a cool story to tell. Who would care about that story honestly?? Then she calls me patronizing and I'm like SIS I'm being dismissive cause I'm trying to WATCH THE BAND and you wont stop talking. It also makes me feel like an uptight loser when I keep insisting "no" so that's fun. Then I'm trying to drive thru the city which I'm unfamiliar with and she can't even help navigate because she's SCREAMING because she's high and thinks everything is closer than it is, which is awesome with my anxiety. Like have ur fun idc, but idk maybe not totally at my expense. She passed out the whole way home as I drove with blasting music and cold air, digging my nails into my leg to stay awake cause I wasn't even supposed to drive

The last time I went to a show before, the person I went with text their married crush the entire time .


Both times I paid for their tickets! DONE! If my friend pulls this bs at the Thursday show this weekend I am refusing to take her anywhere! I'm so annoyed.

 

Huh I was in some cranky feelings about the above cause I'm not really mad about it anymore. Sleep = cure all?

 

Bought 5 kiwi's this week. 3 of them were moldy on the inside when I cut them open. Anger ensued.

 

When you think someone has your back, but they really don't. Trust no one. No matter if they had your back before.

Once again my shift always gets screwed over. I swear it's the "worst" shift to work since it gets screwed over the most. Either you're always coming in early or staying late. AND it has less people, therefore you're working with mostly agency workers. Everyone quits that comes on that shift. Since I've been working I've seen maybe around 5 people come and go (not including the ones that got fired). Oh and it's a full moon week so everything is nuts

 

Yeah that sucks cause you can't just go return the cut up moldy fruit. It's total wasted money. Arrrgghh!

 

My entire family has serious anger management issues and I am just so done with dealing with it. My entire childhood was spent hiding in my room so I wouldn't be screamed at. Any time my dad had time off work he would work around the house and that just meant screaming and yelling and name calling and verbal abuse. Now my mom does the same damn thing. She was trying to put up a curtain (I did not know) and instead of asking me to help bc I'm taller and can reach better it is "WHY ARE YOU NOT HELPING? YOU ARE A FUCKING MORON!!! I'M SICK OF YOUR LAZY ASS!!!" It is like this every single time. So sick of being screamed at. Any time anyone raises their voice I get really upset and anxious and I don't want to have to deal with it anymore.

 

UCF is so lucky I don't live in that shithole town. I'm full blown Steve Martin from Planes right now. I want my degree and I want it right fucking now.

 

I'm sorry, I feel you I get very withdrawn when I'm yelled at because I just want to make everyone happy and always get anxious

 

I accidentally swam with my phone in my pocket and now it's destroyed and I'm an idiot that hasn't backed it up in a month.

Also the pool party was playing the new Ed Sheeran album on repeat and it was awful

 

One of the med aides I work with is the most lazy person. For one, this person doesn't fax or call for refill orders, doesn't restock the med cart with empty meds or supplies. They got mad because once again when I was working in our locked unit, I was with someone who didn't know what they're doing. I don't ever work back there and every few time I had I was with someone who didn't know what they're doing. This aid just doesn't like to help so when they actuallty have to work they get mad. They're always taking people from my wing. Like no you work don't be lazy.

 

I'm still annoyed at my friend for ditching me for a dude and you know what he isn't even all that. Like if ur gonna ditch me he better be Jesse Williams or something and not some scrub

 

MMM Jesse Williams

 

I hate that my older brother is never in the wrong. He is so quick to point out everything I'm doing wrong but if I were to ever challenge him he'd get so angry and defensive. He's one of the most emotionally inconsistent people I've ever met. One day I'll see him and we are the best of friends and it's awesome and then the very next day he's the most passive aggressive asshole. I love the dude but god damn.... I dunno if I've ever met someone so unhappy.

 

Get very tired with being seen as soft cus I make it no secret my relationship is #1 priority and truly love my girl. I'm not looking to be seen as some tough guy or w/e. But don't spit in my face when the topic comes up on some disrespectful shit like you think I'm some soft ass dude. People don't really know my life or ties to the world so it irks me, which very few really do lol.
I've never been aggressive or anything like that but no one likes being looked at as anything other than they are. Idc if I'm see as anything big or tough, but don't insult me for having my priorities straight. I'm a man with pride at the end of the day.
Your flex for facebook world is not where I operate. Your finesse for twitter is amusing to me. Your stunt for friends and coworkers isn't where I dwell. Your girl may believe your bullshit, but no one else does. Don't play yourself trying to look cool.

I don't even say this from an angle of aggression, I just don't like seeing and feeling the views and judging passed. If you got something negative to say about me just don't say it tbh, cus I struggle to not cave into spite sometimes lmao.

 

other spectrum of feels but...
its very tiring dealing with other people's nerves and paranoias masked as anything but. so much of my issues with my mother is she has legitimate issues she wont address cus she "don't trust doctors" with paranoia and borderline schizophrenia. its become almost something manifested in [passive] aggressive moments where her paranoia meets her "as your mother" and it's so exhausting have to compensate for as an older person now. it was one thing when I was 17, but now in my later 20s its like alright, cut the cord, address your issues and stop using that to aggressively guilt me cus you're in your own shit.

me and my lady have been very forthright. I see the same with my brother, his girl - my sister, and even my father and extended family in ways - if she ain't into hearing it you're lost before you ventured trying.

it's just really sad it gunna take burning a bridge in ways to cross one for her vs. the natural progression of my own life.