The Hotelier - Goodness (May 27, 2016) Album • Page 186

Anyone in NYC wanting to go to their show next week? I have 2 tickets and I can't go because i'm an idiot and didn't realize i'd be out of town that day. I paid $39 for them but I'm happy to sell them below cost at $30.

 

I have a friend who'd probably be interested, let me know if you can't get rid of them.

 

This is on Friday right? Would consider it

 

yep yep

 

I need to convince my gf that we have to see them twice.. Going to Philly show on Wednesday also going to brand new on Saturday

 

Just realized you were the one I posted to in the bn forum.. I'm going to push to take one of the shows from you haha

 

Haha I'm super bummed I can't go to either of these but if I can help someone out on here that'd be cool

 

That's one expensive hotelier show

 

Im willing to bet my hotelier show was the most expensive lol

 

I paid $36 for the joint show with Modern Baseball.

 

Mine was 12 bucks for one ticket

 

yeah, 12 here

 

I think I will be paying 15 on Tuesday.

 

Home > Goodness

It is known.

 

Goodness=Home=INGO

 

You really prefer Goodness? I'm p surprised (unless you meant rankings, haha)

 

Also...I'm doing an interview with them next week(!!!!!!), let me know if you want answers to any questions and maybe I'll ask them

 

I thought I saw Christian on my bus today but it wasn't him.

 

one of those records does not fit with the rest....

 

I may prefer goodness

 

Are there any plans for the live stream of goodness that you put up on Facebook and periscope a few months back?

 

Goodness is definitely better

 

I still like Home significantly more after going back to it.

 

Haven't gone back to Home in a little while now, but I'd say I personally prefer Home to Goodness because I've formed a more personal connection with that album than I have with this one. However, I think there's more depth to Goodness that keeps it more refreshing to come back to, if that makes any sense.

 

I've developed immense emotional connections to both albums, for different reasons. Because of that it's hard for me, at this point, to really declare favoritism towards one or the other. Maybe current me doesn't love Goodness as much as past me loved Home, but that was a different time in my life (that I'm so glad to have behind me) and it's hard to hear that album the same as I did when it came out. The feelings I get when listening to Goodness are still very fresh, and true to who I am now. Hard to really articulate.

When Home came out I was just beginning to really actively question my gender identity, on top of all of that I was just a miserable person who felt like they were going nowhere. I was working night shift at a McDonald's, driving 40 minutes just to get there, and Home must have soundtracked those drives for a least a month straight. I was depressed, dysphoric, and angry a lot of the time and that album was cathartic as hell for all those feelings. I'm so thankful I found that album during that time.

A lot happened in the meantime– I changed jobs, came to the realization that I was transgender, came out, fought crippling dysphoria for nearly a year, I battled extreme suicidal ideation, I joined a band, went on tour, found reason to live through that, and finally decided to get on hormones and began my transition. It's been a period of extreme peaks and valleys, and it has changed me in many ways.

So now we have Goodness. In May, as I was approaching 9 months of being on hormones, the album went up for streaming. I'd listened to Piano Player a few times, Soft Animal once, and while I liked them, they didn't really impact me the way I expected them to, at least not on their own. So I went into the album expecting to be a bit underwhelmed, and maybe on first listen I was, but I could sense it was a grower. So on my next listen, I sat down with the lyrics and a pair of headphones and read along, and it just clicked. The album became another month-long soundtrack to my drives to work. I can't tell you definitively what the lyrics on this album mean, but I know what they mean to me. To me this album is about acceptance, of your own shortcomings and those of other people. It's about loving and seeing beauty in things. It's about change and life's cyclical nature. Given my interpretation of the album, it could not have come at a more crucial time in my life.

I've been struggling to accept so many things about myself– my body, my shortcomings. I've been trying to learn self-love and to find the beauty in things. I've been changing, physically and mentally. Since this album has come out I have found the strength to go out into the world as myself, finally presenting as the woman I've known myself to be. I'm exercising self-love in no longer hiding who I am, in quitting a toxic job that required me to closet myself, I am standing up for myself for what feels like the first time ever. It's allowed me to open my eyes and see the beauty in nature, and in myself, and others. My body and mind are beginning to sync up in their evolution.

This is goodness, to me: it may not be immediate or constant, and it may take some effort, but it's so rewarding when it hits you. I'm so thankful I've found it during this time.