I've always thought about how much pain someone has to be in to hang themselves instead of ODing or something. Artist's can have the darkest demons which is why their art can touch so many people. This is right below how devastating losing Elliot Smith was for me. This is going to stay with me for a while. I'm blowing up this thread, I just don't know who else to talk to about it. I can't wrap my brain around it. I'm not really into their stuff anymore kind of like I'm not into Incubus anymore but Chester was something special and he has a special place in my heart.