This is my fave song to listen to when I'm down and no song will ever top it. Eda has gotten me into starting every morning dancing and being thankful and I put this song on and my days have become noticeably better. Every single word relates to me and my life. "..Regrets collect like old friends Here to relive your darkest moments I can see no way, I can see no way And all of the ghouls come out to play And every demon wants his pound of flesh But I like to keep some things to myself I like to keep my issues strong It's always darkest before the dawn And I've been a fool and I've been blind I can never leave the past behind I can see no way, I can see no way I'm always dragging that horse around Our love is pastured such a mournful sound Tonight I'm gonna bury that horse in the ground So I like to keep my issues strong But it's always darkest before the dawn.." "..And it's hard to dance with a devil on your back So shake him off, oh whoa 'Cause I am done with my graceless heart So tonight I'm gonna cut it out and then restart 'Cause I like to keep my issues strong It's always darkest before the dawn.."
Shit. In the ER because mom is sick. We don't know if the hernia is recurring or what. I've never ridden in n ambulance before. Feel like i'm going to lose it. I can't even get my hands to stop shaking I don't know what to do
I sat on my neighbor's driveway yesterday last night after I got off work and just listened to this song for like fifteen minutes. It was calming:
When I'm sad or down or w/e I put on really sad songs and wallow in my misery. Everyone tells me to put on happy, upbeat songs instead but I just get irritated. Like sorry I'm not happy and I just want to sit here and cry!!
I also use this song in the weirdest way to make me happy. It's just so upbeat and perfect: so basically that and slide on repeat and I'm content.
Billie Marten's debut from last year has helped me a lot lately. One of the most soothing albums I've heard.
Sigh. Mom is being admitted. Things don't look terrible but I've never felt more drained. Ill be going home overnight so maybe I can relax. I hope I have a xanax (or twelve)
I usually gravitate to sad music for comfort, but I just recently got into MisterWives and find their songs fun and empowering.
I listen to a bunch of shit when I'm down. Real aggressive street rap gets my motivation going. Sad emo music allows me to wallow a bit which can be nice. Extreme metal gets some of my inner rage out. All good stuff