Mental Health Thread • Page 9

Sorry for the OT post but where did you find that adorable avatar?

I'm really sorry to hear that. Feel free to talk about it if you want to. There's also an advice thread in the prestigious forum if you don't want to discuss it publicly. Take care of yourself.

Yeah I pretty much am like this. But I've tried to have more interests/hobbies over the past few years with video games, keeping up with TV shows/ youtube channels/ podcasts. And more recently, I've been trying to get back into reading. The only thing I've been lazy about, and that's hurt me as a result, is lack of exercise. I need to improve on that.

 

Aw, I'm glad you've found some things to get into! I need to, but I feel like I'm just so tired all the time. By the time I'm home from work I can barely muster the energy for my classes, let alone do anything else. I feel very unmotivated, especially with my classes since I already have a degree. Hoping once my classes are done I'll feel like I have a life. I think I like being a loner shut-in when it's my choice. When it's not my choice and I can't do anything because this town sucks and is like perpetual high school, and because other things eat up all my time, then I start getting sad.

 

I've actually met a ton of people through volunteering. I try so hard not to be a shut-in but it's just soooo easy to do.

 

I just want to say I love you all and can relate to everything you're all saying. It sucks a lot but everything will work out. As I always say, no good story happens without a struggle.

 

I'm not working this summer so I'm going to try and do more things. I might not have to do summer classes so my schedule will be wide open. I want to volunteer at the domestic violence shelter, pick up Spanish again, and catch up on books. If I don't make myself do things I'll end up lying in bed all day watching movies and playing the Sims. Which I'll probably do too, but hopefully it's not all I do.

 

i've honestly started to think that some people are just better than others, and there's nothing that the 'lesser' people can do to change that. i wouldn't hesitate to say i'm inferior to a bunch of people i know. wonder if any of you ever felt like this. i'll probably find a therapist this week, but even then i wonder if it would be any help.

 

I find it totally impossible to have a conversation about my mental health without sobbing. Even if it's something small, like last night my mom told me to let her know if I wanted to see a therapist or anything so she could help pay. Burst into tears.

 

it's one of the Neko Atsume wallpapers that came with the new update. But someone on tumblr put it up, so i just cropped it.

 

I've been feeling like that for a long time. I'm trying to stay busy with job-hunting, going back to school, and trying to clean up my books to read pile, but that nagging feeling remains.

 

I am diagnosed with being on the schizophrenia/bi polar/schizoaffective spectrum. The medication I have to take to quell hallucinations often makes me feel and/or seem like I have an emotional disconnect from life, but I don't know what my alternatives are after going through so many of the most recent antipsychotics and anti depressants. *shrug*

 

I'm struggling with feeling numb. I try to tell myself that numb is better than being depressed or manic but it's hard because sometimes I just want to feel SOMETHING.

 

I'm afraid school might actually kill me. I'm about to lose a family member and I can't even take the time to see her between the anxiety it's giving me and how much I have to get done. I feel like a piece of shit for that and I'm having trouble finding solutions.

 

My mom gave me a mega pep talk today (I cried, obv.) which made me officially decide to start looking for a therapist.

 

I'm really sorry to hear this. Have you tried asking for extensions for any of your schoolwork?

 

Every time I talk to my mom, I always end up feeling worse than I was before. I really think that if I move out, things might be better, but due to lack of finances, that's not possible right now.

 

I feel you. My mom treats me like absolute shit.

 

Very sorry to hear this. Like someone else said, have you asked for any extensions? I was in a somewhat similiar situation and I explained it to my teachers and 2 or 3 out of five understood and gave me the extension I needed.

 

She's mostly aggravated that I haven't found a job yet and thinks me going back to school is wasting time because I might not get into the career program I want.

 

Finally realized that my Borderline Personality Disorder and depression are getting in the way of everything I want to do in a way that makes it impossible to grow as a person until I figure out a way to take control. All I had to do was burn the bridges of the person I love the most, who has the exact same problems I do and has the same tendencies for erratic self destruction. It's a goddamn cycle and I can't let it perpetuate anymore.

 

If you don't feel comfortable replying, I won't take offense. Can you explain BPD to me? I have read articles but I still don't fully understand it.

 

She's lucky I don't live near by. We would have words....

 

I mean, an easy and someone reductive way to put it in the way that I experience it is that my emotions feel constantly in flux and out of control. I'm constantly in an erratic state of emotion and that causes issues, as I can be intensely happy but have that switch on me in an instant. I feel like I have no control of how I feel. If I'm angry, it just spirals outward in an unhealthy and intense way. It's kind of hard to explain without just linking you to a website on mental health. I'm still coming to terms with what it means myself. It's very confusing and vague. I'm sorry if I can't help much. Here's a medical link. It's really the only way I can find a coherent way to show it. To feel it is just one big mess.

 

Aw, thank you! My therapist says she has never had a patient who was treated as poorly as me. My mom is ace at emotional abuse lol

 

Late to the party but I'm also an isolator. It sucks but it feels so much easier to just stay at home and not find activities that force me to socialize. It takes so much out of me. Stupid introvert-ness!

 

Thank you for sharing with me. I hope things get better for you because that sounds really awful. I will definitely read this article when I get home!