I think we have a couple ppl here, plus me who are bipolar. 25 Things Only Someone with Bipolar Disorder Would Understand
was very close to a complete metldown, shaking, crying, feeling like im dying. gonna try and be an adult and get an appointment to go back on meds cuz I just can't keep doing this. even though I don't want, to I feel like it's meds or doing something stupid to myself. normally I can just block the shit out and get through the day semi-ok but when I can't it's fucking awful and that happens more frequently when I'm not home.
I want to apply to a new course tomorrow, I need to apply soon before the class times I want get too full. I'm terrified though, I don't want to talk to student administration but I need to so it can be set up quickly. I didn't do well at all this year due to not enjoying my course at all and multiple depressive episodes hitting me throughout the year. I've done research on the course I want to do next year and it does look like something I'd enjoy a lot more and actually learn more. I'm scared I'll fall back into depression when I get stressed with it and fail that, too. I've never been good academically but I need to get this degree to be a qualified counsellor, so I don't have a choice. Also, I feel like my dad will be disappointed when I tell him I changed into a different course, it would be "down grading" to him and ugh, it's just so much on my mind and it feels like the bad outweighs the good. I just want to make a difference in people's lives, you know? But I can't get my shit together.
that is some good shit right there for gamers, add in play your favorite game, or start a new save of a game, something with gaming, because i feel accomplished as hell when i beat a level or complete a quest for something.
I was literally coming here to post something similar. I'm in a great mood, having positive thoughts, not stressing, looking forward to things, and feeling good about myself. And it's strange, uncommon, and I wish I could feel like this all the time haha.
Yesterday I was in such an over the top good mood and talking to my friend about how a few days before that I was all bummed and just wanted to lay in bed and be sad. And I mentioned that it's crazy how fast things change and yet when I was so happy/excited yesterday, all I could think was "how long will this last before something comes along and takes this away" because I know that the downs are inevitable. And she said something like, you shouldn't worry about that because it's not like when you're sad you're like 'well I'll be happy again soon enough, its inevitable' and I thought that was a good point.
I can't even get out of bed after last night. I don't know if I've ever felt this hopeless and scared.
Really wish I didn't have meetings at work. Would remote in and avoid people entirely. This whole thing is fucked and I am in a weird numb/pissed mood.
I have a job interview in an hour. I don't know how I'm going to pretend to be cheery after last night AND my continuing laryngitis.
I called into work today and had to drag myself out of bed at 1:45 pm. I've been in such a good spot for such a long time, but last night really, really dragged me down.
Hugs to everyone here. I've been on the verge of tears all day and it's so hard to work and go through the motions when I just wanna lay in bed. I hope everyone is doing okay. at least I have the forums to visit tbh cause nobody where I live gets it. even most of the people who dislike trump here don't really understand all the ramifications and it's nice to have places to escape my head.
Yeah. People at my work seem (or at least are acting) indifferent to the whole thing. It was quiet to start out the day, which was unusual. But I definitely feel like it's affecting me more than anyone else. Want this work day to be over so I can crawl back into bed. Am definitely glad for this board today, too.
The city felt weird today when I went out. Stopped by the grocery store and at the check out I bought one of the bags of food that they donate to the local food bank. It was a small gesture but I wanted to do some sort of good in the wake of everything. Idk how to feel, I honestly feel numb. Self care is so important right now for all of us. Im always here to talk, you've all been so helpful and supportive and I'm thankful to have an outlet like this thread. Lots of love.
Felt so sick today. Couldn't eat, fighting back tears, puked a little bit ago. I need a break from the internet