It's alright. I'll abstain from this conversation. Not a fair thing to bring up and I'm not even personally involved. So not my place either. Sorry.
"People", that was only me. I'm not "looking down" on you for saying that. I'm allowed to have a different opinion about the block feature because of how it works. It's not a personal attack, it's something I've said before on here. Don't use that to say you're being looked down upon. If I wanted to, I would call you out directly.
and im allowed to feel a certain way about that given the reason im using it being extremely personal and for my own well being. go ahead and call me out i'll just leave the site again
Whoopsie... I stirred the pot. So.. uh. How about that mental health huh guys? Can be a real tough cookie sometimes.
Whatever it is, I hope you're able to resolve it sooner rather than later and keep yourself on the straight and narrow.
I'm not calling you out, I just wanted to clarify that I'm not looking down on you (or anyone else for that matter, since it's clear you're not the only person who uses it). I just know I was the only one in the chat thread that had that opinion and am of the minority on here, so it's why I replied. I wanted to clarify that it is not personal. If it was personal, I would have replied to you there, but I know that's not fair on you so I wouldn't do that, and it would be a shitty thing to do anyway. I am not belittling people for using the block feature, I just find it useless because of the way it functions and the platform it runs on (a message board) as opposed to how it works on things like facebook and twitter.
Soooo to get this back on track, I think we all need a group hug. Even support groups get dramatic sometimes, so it's okay. *hug*
Keep on keeping on, Jake. I know we don't talk really ever, but from your posts it seems like you've come a long way. Don't stop now, you're doing well man. Keep your head up.
thanks a ton to you and everyone else, I was just in a mood last night/this morning. appreciate the love, all is good again
Welp, following up on this post. I felt reasonably well this morning and didn't end up going in (again), which now looks like a huge mistake. There should be a place that only takes clients after like 4 pm, so I can go through the first half of the day and get bummed enough to actually make an effort to get help.
I find that when I go to a counselor, I feel fine when I'm there and it's hard to talk about my problems because I'm not feeling them at the time, but I'm definitely feeling them a few hours later. I really need to get that bullet journal habit going again. Haven't done it in a couple of weeks and I think it'll help with those issues.
Sometimes I think I should see a counselor, but then I remember that will require me to sit and talk with someone about my problems which is basically my worst nightmare soooo..... Talking with people is hard enough, but talking about personal things (even though I know they are there to help) just sounds like hell for me. I need like an online counselor because typing is much easier than face to face and plus they can't see me while I cry (I despise crying in front of people so much). As soon as I feel myself about to cry, I completely shut down to stop myself.
One of the worst things about being really depressed is feeling the need to actually talk about it with someone you feel close and comfortable enough with to talk to about it in the hopes that simply communicating with them like that will possibly improve your mood but then having that person(s) not respond or reciprocate and then you feel like an asshole who just wants to complain to other people and waste their time so you feel the need/desire to isolate yourself and everything just gets worse. Or maybe I just think that because it's what is happening to me right now
The complete 180s always make me feel like there's something that's even more wrong with me than I originally thought.
Starting to think I should start taking meds but I'm afraid of abusing them. Has anyone had to deal with that temptation?
The first two weeks were hell PSA to everyone in this thread on antidepressants...do NOT pull a Maddy and just stop taking them. It is bad bad bad.