Mental Health Thread • Page 502

So happy for you Shak, congrats on finally getting out of the job hunt! You more than earned it and will do great

 

Thank you. It took embarrassingly too long I feel but it’s done.

 

Let’s gooooo @Shakriel!! Congratulations I hope the new gig is great

 

There was a shooting in my town, it was only a matter of time. I’m so fucking done. I used to work where it happened in high school.

 

Man. been a while since i started a new job and i'm feeling overwhelmed and anxious as hell. even had a panic attack tonight just contemplating things lol.

i should settle in, but am freaked for the moment.

 

I was at a job for ~7 years. I left June 2024 and around August 2024 I had the WORST regret over leaving. I felt sick every day over it and so stressed out (no one’s fault but my own)

a year + later it’s the best decision I ever made. Those first few months at a new job can be so tough but hang in there!

 

Thanks for this. Just never been great with change and seeing the expectations for 30/60/90 days had me freaking a little. nothing impossible just surprised so much so soon haha.

 

Without getting into details that some psycho could find by searching for me online, I just need to say it makes me fucking sick to see Hegseth spouting off about "dudes in dresses" and climate change and not being able to publicly say my piece on the horrific rise in extremism in this country without having to worry about my employer terminating me because a bunch of nazis and bots mobilized online to make sure I can't feed my family. I feel like I am rotting from the inside-out

 

I have done so much work in the past six months to become a healthier person mentally. A lot of therapy, new treatments, a bit of exercise, a full time job that keeps my brain occupied and I think I've gotten a lot better. Trying to be more considerate and understanding of others.

But then I take one look at what's going on in our country and the world and I start unraveling. I feel so trapped by this awful country. I don't want to go back to who I was and I don't want to suffer here.

 

I feel you on that. I think any rational human being would have some level of similar feelings towards the state of our country. Things are really fucked and scary right now. Unfortunately I've found the best thing for my mental health is to try to not think about what I can't control and try to live my life as normal as I can for now. Wish I had better advice than that, it's a sad situation. Happy to hear you've made improvements in your mental health journey otherwise though!

 

I want to be a better person and make a bigger effort in life. I cut everyone off during my last relationship. Finally texted 4 old friends that I totally blew off a long time ago to apologize for being such a piece of shit. Two of them were friendly but I could tell they don't really want to reconnect, another I had a really good talk with but he lives 3 hours away now, and another i am actually going to hang out with again

 

Really proud of you for doing this.

 

Thanks! I was never the popular kid growing up but I always had a solid tight knit group of friends who constantly hung out together and I miss that a lot. The first two who didn't really seem to want to connect were my best friends from 3rd and 6th grade respectively until our mid 20s so that really hurts, but it's my own doing for losing touch for so long. They ended up married and basically were just like "we're kinda just boring, busy parents now" and left it at that haha. Oh well.

 

I suck at confrontation and ghosted my therapist that I've had for like 6 years, but she started to slowly become a radicalized trump supporter. I've complained about it here. Anyway, while part of me is glad I haven't had to confront the ghosting, she literally hasn't even checked in to see if I'm okay?? Like I could've literally died or self harmed or something and she hasn't even inquired. And I'd seen her weekly for like six years!!

 

That is pretty weird. Maybe you’re just one of multiple and she took the hint lol. Can’t imagine going open about her increasingly radical conservative political ideology with her clientele of therapy attending Portlandians was anything but a career miscalculation

 

I feel like everything I've been doing over the past like 5 years has just ended in failure. maybe I need goals that I can accomplish easier instead of dreaming of the best most unlikely outcome

I hate getting old. this is what they always said getting old was

 

Genuinely worried about what the US will become after October 18th.

 

What's happening on the 18th?

 

There's a bunch of No Kings protests around the country and there has been talk of violence from right wing communities towards the protesters. There's just so much anger and hate building in this country that I'm worried it's all going to come to a head in the worst possible way on that day especially with ICE around.

 

what the fuck am I doing man

 

Talking with my psych about anxiety medication this week. I was on Wellbutrin since May but forgot to get the prescription last visit because the receptionist was out of office when my appointment was over. No idea if that's what's causing all of my flare ups recently but I'm going to get this shit under control even though the thought of going on Zoloft or something terrifies me.

 

Has anybody else had the instance where in their late 30’s, even having one drink at all tanks your mental? I am not a big drinker, maybe one or two a month. But I find when I do it just makes me feel dogshit mentally and I ruminate on dark thoughts more.

anyone else dealt with this?

 

Yes, I have definitely come to the realization - quite abruptly - that alcohol just isn’t serving me in any real way lately.

 

yeah it’s such a bummer because I do love like a good craft beer socially or a nice cocktail on a night out but it’s just becoming not worth it with how it’s affecting me

 

I’ve been drinking way more recently than I have in an extremely long time because I’ve been hanging out with people and doing things that revolve around drinking lately and it’s not great. I don’t feel right at all.