Mental Health Thread • Page 496

Really not doing great right now, feeling incredibly hopeless in the face of fascism and war. Fuck Israel. Fuck Trump and anyone enabling this government.

 

I feel you. I dont even know what it feels like to be patriotic anymore. Everything I see on tv and social media just makes me feel hopeless being an American and in general. Think Im going away for a little.

 

Has anyone ever gone on vacation and then gotten back to realize they had no idea how they were keeping on until then and now everything seems like too much? I can’t stop crying and I don’t know what to do about it

 

A little over three years ago I went out of town for my older brother’s bachelor party. I was doing alright at the time, not great but not horrible. Well my brother is a lawyer and I had to spend 4 days with his lawyer friends and his other very successful well adjusted friends and when I got back I realized how hollow and empty my life was and I fell off the deep end big time

 

Do you ever feel like so much of a burden to the people around you that you don't deserve anything good and that their lives would change for the better without you?

 

All the time. It will pass and you’re amazing.

 

A little while ago I decided to see if anyone I knew would be interested in a book club. Since I have zero friends and I’m trying really hard to make some and failing, I thought reaching out to people I already knew but just kinda drifted apart from would bring me better luck. Everyone just said no or ignored me. And now I log on to FB for the first time in awhile and am scrolling through and see multiple of those people are now in a book club. lol feels great!! Like I get that they kept in touch with each other more but I also had tried to stay close with them but I’m the odd one out without kids so they have play dates with their kids and stuff so obviously I’m not gonna be invited. And that’s totally understandable and I get having kids changes everything. But it just sucks that apparently my idea was a good one, they just don’t want me there. And it sucks more bc we never had a falling out and there’s no reason. If I was a bad friend to them or something I’d get it but I wasn’t. I just am completely defeated and am giving up on ever finding anyone, friend or otherwise. Just gotta get used to be completely alone I guess bc I’ve been trying so hard for so long and just can’t take the disappointment again right now.

 

brains are notorious for lying to people. It always lies to us. Its job is to keep us alive, not to keep us happy. Any thought your brain is telling you now, just knows that it’s not 100% accurate