Mental Health Thread • Page 491

Yep. Finally deleted it a couple months ago and v happy for it

 

All social media bad.

 

Really struggling with my parental leave ending after tomorrow. I feel like I'm going to be missing out on so much formative time with my son. I have no idea how I'm gonna be able to get at least 6 - 6.5 hours of sleep each night, or how I'm going to focus at work.

 

Under the Biden admin I never had to wait a day for my disability benefits, now I’m starting to get it later & later now. I’m already spread very thin as it is, if they start depositing in the middle of the month again, idk what I’ll do. That’s assuming they don’t just gut ss entirely, then I’ll be homeless.

I know a perfectly normal response would be “why don’t you just work?”, it’s not that simple. It’s impossible to find remote work & I lack qualifications. Like a lot of disabled people, I was promised help finding jobs from nonprofits & then was abandoned.

Things are really rough right now, both mentally & physically for me. My anxiety’s gotten even worse. Sometimes I just sit in fear, wondering what’s going to happen to me if these evil fucks get their way.

 

Getting to the point where I know I need to start therapy again. Doc also recommended a low dose of an ssri which will be a first for me. Nervous and also curious what kind of impact it might have for me

 

starting regular therapy and a low dose of lexapro last summer has worked out very very well for me. as far as I can tell I've had no issues with lexapro.

wishing you the best

 

Appreciate it man, that’s pretty much exactly what they recommended for me too haha

 

it's just 10mg nightly for me and that was more to treat anxiety than anything. I (luckily) don't think i've ever dealt with true depression but felt like I was always on the verge of lashing out. I kinda feel more relaxed in general now.

 

im on Prozac (20mg) and the effects have been mild: increase in appetite, slight reduction in libido (not awful). Better than feeling anxious and sad lol

 

I am just constantly reminded these days that my journey to positive mental health is always going to come from multiple sources:

1. Therapy
2. Medication
3. Mindfulness / Self Improvement
4. Exercise
5. Sticking to a schedule
6. Getting off my phone
7. Being outside
8. Good Sleep
9. Diet
10. Giving myself grace and destroying negative self talk when it creeps up

I can’t just pick one or two of those. It’s gotta be all of it, and genuinely much more that I haven’t event written down.

 

I’m so tired of being a fucking addict — and all that other shit in my personal / work / relationship life.

 

I take 20mg of lexapro. It has helped. Sometimes I feel like I need a dosage increase Other times I’m ok

 

I was on 20mg of lexapro (by itself) for a couple of years and was doing much better than before it, but nowhere near as good as I am now with wellbutrin added. I only considered adding wellbutrin because I was having a particularly bad moment and a friend told me hey, no matter how much better you're doing than before if you're having moments like this still there are probably adjustments to be made that will help you feel even better. I think it's easy to fall into two traps: 1) assuming that doing better than you were unmedicated means there's no more room to get even better and 2) feeling like still having bad moments on current meds is your fault and not something your psych should be further addressing. both are very not true but debilitating ime

 

I’ve always found it fascinating how one of the symptoms of certain conditions (not gonna try and remember which ones they are and state incorrect information) are periods of chaotic spending and/or risk taking behavior.

I’ve never been officially diagnosed with anything and probably don’t actually have anything but I remember countless random ass spending sprees that had no reason to exist dating back many years (maybe once a year or once every few years, it’s very random) and I’m in the one of those moments/feelings the last few days. I know spending money on random shit won’t help and I know that NOW which is a bit of progress but idk I just don’t care? Like, I don’t even really get the satisfaction up front like I sometimes used to but idk it kind of feels like I “need” to spend money as illogical as that sounds. I’ve held out pretty good but there have been a few purchases this week that didn’t need to be made. Thankful to be in a position where (so far) it isn’t gonna cause financial issues for me but still dislike how I have these periods of time/thought.

 

I don’t have a psychiatrist and have been having a hard time getting one. I’m open to med combinations. It’s only been a few months on the 20mg dosage

 

Does anyone have experience using Loop Earplugs? I usually hear about them when concerts are brought up, and it didn't occur to me they could have other purposes. I suspect I have noise sensitivity so I'd be curious to see if they'd help me be less overwhelmed in many contexts outside. Also asking because there are so many models on their website.

 

Ive been in a good mental space for the most part recently but for some reason sleep has been like "No, you've been spoiled recently" and won't let me sleep and I am like... working to making sure any rouge negativity is seen as just that cus of exhaustion.
Need to figure out why i cant sleep, bed still feels likes a kiss from god when i do, nothing crazy in life stressing me, body just dont wanna till i lose 2-3 hours at least than im use to that had me feeling so great for weeks.

 

TW: Death, substance abuse

My dad died on Sunday. It was sudden and he was alone in his apartment. His best friend called the police for a welfare check and that was it.

I am an only child so I'm having to deal with all the arrangements. Thankfully he was a veteran so the VA is helping. His manager is a sweetheart who is going to gather his stuff for me since I don't think I can do that. Like physically or mentally.

I'm just going through it. We weren't the closest but we texted and I saw him a few times a year. I guess they're doing toxicology because of his medications and beer they found, They said there was some narcan spray he had but it's unclear why he had that. He had problems with narcotics and opioids during his whole life but he was theoretically clean from that stuff.

I'm just rambling, I don't have a purpose of posting I guess just trying to get it out. This last year and a half has been a nightmare. Really tired of this being an adult thing.

 

Really sorry to hear that

 

I use the concert ones and the sleep ones so I don't have much experience on using them for sound sensitivity, but I can say their products work for the intended purpose that I've used them for and are quality and comfortable.

They're also relatively discreet with how they fit too and they do allow for conversations to continue over the louder outside noises.

 

It’s a very tough process losing a parent. I was also dealing with my dad’s arrangements/stuff when he passed. It was a lot. You might not fully greave until all that stuff is over. I’m very sorry for your loss

 

I appreciate the good in my life at the same time I feel so exhausted and what would feel like sadness is now this numbness what has felt like at this point 6 years of bad luck continues with probably thr end of my current relationship with probably the only person that was also my close friend.

 

Dealing with a breakup, move, and unemployment/job search at the same time is so incredibly daunting. I move back to New Hampshire next weekend and it’s all really starting to sink in. I’m 32 without much money, no real career drive, and will be living at my mom’s until I can get back on my feet. I am ultimately happier in New England than I am in Buffalo and it will be really nice being closer to my friends and family but fuck this will be a tough few months. I’m not going to be ready to date again for quite a while but the thought of having to do that again is intimidating.

 

Having a child has made me the happiest I've ever been while simultaneously igniting the worst anxiety I've ever had in my life. Just a devastating, constant fear of loss or something happening to him. It's been hard to function day-to-day and I don't really know how to get past that. I've never felt so vulnerable in my life

 

Yep. Feel that.