Mental Health Thread • Page 490

This is so much to go through, I’m glad you’re getting better physically. It’s always frustrating to hear or read people’s stories and see where our insurance based health care system makes things so much harder.

 

I feel very blessed that I was able to take 8 weeks off in CA for both kids. That’s so fucked that you guys had to go through that. Assisting my wife and bonding with my infants was a highlight of early paternity. Not having to think about work or money in that timeframe was great.

 

I don’t talk about work on this site because of privacy and the weird chance my boss finds this site, but I’m going crazy. I got a new student today that was in my school two years ago. He got sent home everyday because of lice his family never got rid of. The school called CPS for that and him bringing cockroaches in his folders and coat because the house was infested. The family got mad at admin and put him in online school. They got in trouble with the government for truancy, so they sent him back here. I found lice on his head this morning and they sent him home. If this is going to be an every day thing, I’m going to freak out. I know it’s psychosomatic, but I can stop itching now.

 

Dude wtf is going on in that family. Sorry that's so stressful!

 

I feel really bad for that kid. Hope he gets help, sounds like a terrible living situation

 

Just wanted to add to all the new parents returning from leave to go back to work two quick things that I took away from my experience:
1. Check in on your partner constantly...even if they say they are ok, dive deeper, and make sure they are actually ok and not just being strong for you or for themselves

2. Having a new family takes a village, do not be afraid to ask for help from friends and family or turn away help to act strong if it is offered!

 

It’s actually…not uncommon for my district

 

Yeah like I'm so thankful that I haven't had to pay anything out of pocket. I'm sure that hospital stay alone would be $250k+

Just got my appointment for the neurologist... At the end of May. I want to pull my hair out.

Silver lining is at least I'm seeing PT finally next week so hopefully I can get some info on returning to work in a month.

 

I’ve got a student who has probably missed 50% of the school year. 2nd grader who doesn’t know letter sounds, is really at a pre-k level and constantly smells like weed. I feel for the kid

 

I'm so tired of everyone with everyone in entertainment being fucking horrible and there being no real consequences and abusive or hateful people getting to keep their platforms because of fucking money and famous friends.

 

I may or may not be feeling extra on edge because the baby had been very fussy for two days, I'm not used to not being able to get alone time when needed, and I'm anxious about going back to work soon.

 

I value this website more than any other online space and when it makes me feel crazy or unwelcome, it really messes with me. I guess I'm just really sensitive/irritable today.

 

Sorry for quadruple posting. Just a really tough day. I am once again feeling an intense amount of anxiety over the general state of things and bringing a child into it in addition to shame over things I did in the past and feeling like my family deserves better than me. I never know how to get out of these spirals when they start.

 

Using phone less makes me less sad

weird

 

Idk if it’s just my algorithm or what but I’ve been noticing a lot of diet culture stuff that reminds me of when I was growing up and I seriously cannot deal with this again. I haven’t recovered from the bullshit that was everywhere when I was a teen. I don’t need to see that same shit make a comeback!! Obviously there’s always been a focus on being ~thin~ but it felt like we made some progress with the body positivity movement. Now it feels like we’ve completely backpedaled and I’m seeing a lot of stuff that reminds me of the whole “nothing tastes as good as skinny feels” culture that was so prevalent when I was a teen. I’m seeing all these videos on how to “fix” being “skinny fat” and they show pictures of women as examples. But they’re just thin women who don’t have a completely flat stomach. Will women ever just be able to fucking live???? It’s all so upsetting. And all I’ve been searching for is workout videos and healthy recipes but I get this kind of bullshit instead. “You’re just making excuses, stop shoving food in your mouth and eat like me” and it’s 4 green beans and a piece of chicken smaller than my palm. It’s already so hard for me to find a balance of trying to be healthier and not go to the extreme bc I have such a bad history with disordered eating/body dysmorphia and all this bullshit is not helping. I just want to reach a point where I’m ok with my body and don’t think about it constantly and it just feels so impossible.

 

This is only tangentially related I guess, but this is how I’ve been feeling about the sudden return of the word “retarded” in the zeitgeist, as well as the seeming total backpedaling we’re witnessing in regard to things like the MeToo movement. Everything feels extremely gross and regressive right now and so much of it is being hammered home by online rightwing spaces, including the more insidious, seemingly innocuous stuff at first glance like the tradwife accounts that have been trending across TikTok for the last couple years.

I don’t know, everything you’re saying feels like the things I feel like I’m screaming into the void. It’s left me thinking I’m incredibly naive and stupid to ever believe that maybe we had a shot at being better when so many want to drag us kicking and screaming into the dark ages and I’m so sorry.

 

random good mental health post. i was laid off 3 weeks ago today for the 2nd time in 15 months. was filled with supreme dread this morning at the prospect of spending my 2nd consecutive birthday unemployed. received a job offer an hour ago. life is weird!

 

I'm going to be trying out a new therapist and I feel super guilty about leaving my current one. She's been helpful over the past few months while I deal with my physical recovery but I think I'm ready for someone to dig deeper.

I'm also weirdly nervous because I've never had a man as a therapist so it's new territory all around.

 

Anyone have any ideas on how to care again after giving up?

 

(This will all tie into mental health in a few sentences) I was working my BS retail job the other night and some older head seen my name badge and goes "Yuri?! wheres that name from?" (Yurei is a nickname a passed on ex (rip babygirl) gave me cus it means Ghost and use to tease me how id just appear without people knowing & anyone hearing me) - Yuri was just misspelled on my nametag lol)
And I said no, my name is Josh and he went "Oh I had a friend who had a son named Josh before getting older splits people apart" - I mentioned my last name and he knew my dad from his crazy days and hitchhiking to shows we all wish we couldve seen then - now like late 60s-mid 80s country/rock/metal/etc shows (80s is him meeting my Mom time tho lol) haha.

I told him well I grew up liking alt rock, darker rap (DMX, Eminem, Esham, & ICP were my intro to rap - what do you want from me?), punk rock and Juggalo music (tease me if you want (juggalo wise i mean), I met the best people i ever met through enjoying that realm) and we'd use to scrap metal and go sell old shit/clothes and stuff we dont want or whatever we found to get to shows and he was like "YEAH! WE USE TO DO THE SAME THING! Billy definitely lives on in you"
That really warmed my "I mind my business cus most ppl are on BS" heart loooool.

Edit: I mentioned my Dad calling himself a "Yippie" and the guy lit up and was like "Yeah, they were essentially Hippies that will beat your ass if you disrupt the peace" LMAOOOO
I never heard anyone else mention/explain that word before my dad lol.

Long story short it did wonders for the "I miss my Dad"-itis cus his passing day is recent.

 

My wife is pregnant again. I posted when it happened and got some awesome support from posters here, but my wife had a miscarriage last year. It was absolutely devastating and she even said many times she would constantly be anxious when she got pregnant again that it would happen again. But…she’s been so happy since she found out this time. Things have been looking up lately. But part of me is afraid to be too excited because of the fear it could be taken away from us at any moment again. We had the first ultrasound yesterday.

I also just got a notification this is my ninth year on this site. I’m glad to be in a community like this, even though I mostly lurk…and at times it can be toxic (as noted above).

 

On what? Life? A relationship?

 

I decided to take a break from therapy.

 

Went on twitter (like an idiot), and the sheer amount of idiots, edgelords and flat out racists on that platform involved across almost all discourse there massively bummed me out.

I know this isnt new, and their voices have been amplified because only idiots, edgelords and racists have blue ticks, but the amount of likes on each post and the volume of different accounts saying the most insane shit is so depressing.

What the fuck is going on.