Mental Health Thread • Page 473

Sobriety feels completely impossible right now and I don't know how to get through the X number of years we'll still be alive for

 

Yeaaaaaaah not feeling hopeful today

 

Not a fun day to be alone. At least in 2016 I had someone to commiserate and “get through it” with. Now I’m just alone and it’s incredibly hard not to let myself spiral out right now

 

Really unwell today

 

It's like i went straight past depression and straight into despair. I knew today would be hard, but everyone in my office is laughing and cheerful and acting like it's an average day. I try to tell myself that most people don't really pay attention and they just want lower costs and change and they have no idea of what they done. Surely people aren't this terrible, right? I just really want to be with my dog and cat. Having a really hard time coping.

 

My one friend I’ve made in this city came in today happy saying that he hopes Trump does even half of what he says. Feeling really alone right now.

 

HOW. Literally HOW did we fail as a country. We’re going backwards. I want to cry. We’re doomed. Ive never been more afraid of the future than ever.

Edit: the fact that brainless maga thinks cost of everything will go down when things will go up. The fact that they think they’re “saving babies” and women but really they’re harming women and children. The fact that they think trans women are “out to harm their daughters” but really the real predators are the cis men siting next to them in church. Slowly gonna remove people from my social media that’s a maga cult member

 

Might need to dip out for a while. I am upset and empathetic and angry for all of you, for my wife, for our child. I am really struggling with the comments about everyone being dead in the next 10 years and how unbelievably fucked/doomed we are, because how can I possibly reconcile those possibilities with having a child in February? I need to search for slivers of hope, because I need to stay alive for my family's sake.

Feeling for all of you, sending love and wishing you the best. I'll be back at some point.

 

Side note, and apologies if this is an inappropriate use of the thread, but if anyone here is in the Buffalo area and would be open to get coffee/a beer/go to a show/record store let me know. My friends all live 6+ hours away. My only real support system/social life here is my partner and I can’t keep putting that all on her.

 

see you in 3 hours pal

 

God, just drive faster

 

It has been one rough week and a half. In that span I found out my uncle is dying, my gf and I broke up, and then this election couldn’t have gone worse. I’m functioning ok but I really need to make an appointment to see someone, this is too much at once. I can feel it starting to get overwhelming.

 

very thankful that i have therapy tomorrow.

however, i recognize the grim irony (coincidence?) that my therapist (a black woman) will be helping me (a white guy) navigate this.

she's a former activist / organizer, though, so i think it'll help.

 

On top of the shit I’ve been dealing with from my workplace, if to all, most of them are maga trump followers. I over heard this lady work with tell another co worker she’s happy he won. What’s heartbreaking is that not only her and her husband are poc immigrants, but they have a daughter! I also happen to work with all women so it makes it sad. I work in healthcare. We have patients who are lbgtq. I just can’t wrap my head around the fact that my co workers secretly hate these people

 

Trying to stay positive but it's so hard. I tell myself I'm not giving trump and his supporters the power over me to make bad decisions for myself. I wanted so much to try my best and exercise and eat great and show only I could have power over me. But my body was riddled with anxiety and I had a pit in my stomach. It feels like how I felt before getting on meds. I'll try again tomorrow.

 

At some point yesterday, my frustration and fear gave way to drive, especially with regards to raising a boy in this climate. If I can pick up the right values without my parents instilling a lot of them in me, I can definitely raise him to know right from wrong. If we're in a war against right-wing ghouls who want to indoctrinate kids via the internet, maybe I'm meant to be in the situation I'm in to help combat that.

 

This definitely happened for me as well. I'm sorry you felt like you had to step away and I know part of that was my doomer post (and I know we're both valid in feeling however we need to feel about what's going on) but I'm glad to see you feel that fire to do what's best.

 

Yeah, that wasn't directed at you specifically (I'm seeing it a lot of places and rightfully so), I just wasn't (and am still not really) in the headspace to think that way, but I am glad that I'm feeling better sooner than expected.

 

Oh yeah I didn't feel called out and I did also understand your feeling for sure, we were just in different places

 

I don’t have kids but this is where I’m at this morning. Yesterday was a day to be angry and numb and now I feel motivated to turn that anger into something productive.

 

I had to start therapy in 2020 when my partner of 4 years became extremely radicalized during the pandemic to a degree that I did not know that person anymore and had to cut them out of my life. There were no warning signs, he was a Bernie supporter previously. In addition to some of the deeply gross and self-interested behavior I saw on a day-to-day basis, just going to the grocery store or driving. I really began to believe people were bad and not to be trusted and it absolutely fucked my worldview.

I cannot continue to believe that people are bad. Are they self-interested? Yes. Are they too easily persuaded by the media? Yes. I do not, and cannot, believe that everyone who voted for trump is a bad person. A large % of his vote was not the ultra-MAGA yadda yadda, but people who endured hardship due to inflation that was global in scale and think that change may actually come because groceries were cheaper 4 years ago.

I have to keep believing there is hope even though this whole feels sickening, especially as a woman. I live in Delaware and my plan for the next several years is to get as involved as I can in Pennsylvania. As easy as it would be to give up, that's what they want and I can't be idle and complain about the result. I can sit sit here and say fuck unity and I'm not talking to these people, etc. And a lot of them are lost causes, sure. but what else can we do but try idk.

 

Yeah, the whole "cutting off everyone I know who voted for Trump" thing is understandable, but not practical for all (myself included considering both my parents voted for him, which I probably knew deep down and shouldn't have asked but I did anyways, and considering the year we had and the increased role they're going to play in our lives next year...). I know they are not hateful and honestly do not like the man at all, but they are Christians, and nothing will ever convince them to vote pro-choice. Beyond that, I think a lot of people felt the effects of inflation over the past four years and even if his solution is a shitty one/incorrect, Trump promised a lot of people a return to prices during his first term while the Dems basically said "ACTUALLY, inflation is down" and offered nothing beyond that.

I agree that most people are self-centered, especially if they're isolated/rural/not online constantly exposing themselves to the struggles of others. It's disappointing, frustrating, and upsetting, but I don't think cutting them out of my life improves the situation for anyone, tbh. Sorry, rambling, thinking out loud.

 

For my own sanity I have to cut these people out no matter how close they are to me, but I also am someone in a place of privilege where I can do that and have little repercussions. How many of my friends and loved ones are going to be persecuted because of this new regime that easily could have avoid if people just educated themselves and had a heart is really tearing me apart.

Seeing all the young men saying "your body, my rights" to women all over the country today makes me want to scream. I will always fight for injustice but I no longer at this point feel like I can fight it from within this system which is so deeply corrupted and broken. Trying to figure out plans to make sure my family and my friends are safe.

 

I’ll give a pass to people if they voted for him the first time because people make mistakes and grow, and view points change. But for a 3rd time… no thanks. It’s ok to be republican, but a maga is a different story in my book. You don’t have to support the candidate of the political party you affiliate with.
They can never answer the question “when was America great and for who”. Because America has never been great. I consider myself moderate as I agree and disagree with view points on both sides. Trump is a rapist, insurrectionist, 34 count felon, wannabe dictator etc. the fact that that means nothing to maga while they chanted “lock her up” to Hilary and called her a criminal… but turn a blind eye on their cult leader speaks volumes imo. especially if people that worked for him have spoken on how dangerous he is.