This has been such an awful week. I wish I woke up out of dream this morning instead of the reality of today.
I used to really hate talking about school and why I haven't graduated yet but lately I've been finding more people get it than I thought. I've told a couple people at work recently about how I had to drop all my classes I was in last winter and how I feel like I'm not in a good place mentally right now to be in school, and they were both really understanding and expressed similar feelings. It was really comforting.
Being open about mental health is so much better than keeping it in. There's still a stigma attached to discussing mental health issues, which is sad when so much of the population is affected by it. I felt a lot of embarrassment about my depression, but being ashamed just makes you feel worse about yourself. I'm glad to hear that you've been opening up to people recently, it honestly makes a big difference!
I basically had a breakdown and stopped going to school in the middle of the semester. Dropped out in 2012 and haven't taken classes since. I'm really considering going back, but I'm terrified that I'll overload myself and have the same problem. I feel you. I felt ashamed for failing for so long.
Was invited to something by someone at work and felt really nervous about having to sit in a social setting with people I don't know. Turns out I couldn't make it. Then I kept overthinking the text I'd have to send the person to decline. Seems like it worked out well. Crisis (in my head) avoided. Funny thing is, I wouldn't be nervous at all about this situation if I knew someone in the group. I feel so much more comfortable when there's at least one person I know well.
I literally do not know how to handle group text messages (especially academic based). I don't know what to say, I never have any responses, and they just send my anxiety through the roof. Im already having such a hard time and it's only four weeks into the semester. I feel ready to give up.
I used to have a group message with an old group project in college. They'd do group texts after we graduated and I had no idea what they were referencing in their lil inside jokes and it made me anxious so I never responded and they prob think I'm dead or something lol --- Today sucked. Reflecting back, I was bad at my job today and they didn't deserve that. Gonna try to chill out and do better next time.
I've been having those days where it feels like I'm no help to my work at all a lot more lately and it sucks so much. like tomorrow I think I might talk to my boss about how I've been feeling lately at work and how I can fix some things.
Just one of those days where I stay on the couch all day and cry because I feel like a giant loser who will never have friends hooray!
Doing that thing where I think about what I should've done/said and mentally torturing myself with it. I wish I would've handled a meeting better. I was told i did good but I should've advocated more. Hate being shy and anxious.
Thanks! I hope so. I just didn't like what this person was saying and I wish I would've called her out but I didnt. It's not even that I was afraid to, but sometimes it takes me a while of reflection to realize how I feel about something or to understand why it rubbed me the wrong way and by that point the moment is gone.
Does anyone have any good tips for motivating yourself? I've had a really hard week, and a lot of that has come from me feeling too depressed and anxious to do homework or even go to class at times.
I start simple and I promise myself rewards. Got a bunch of homework to do? Find the simplest, easiest assignment and start with that. When you're done, treat yourself. I'm going to be doing this later with a work project I've put off for a week that was technically due Friday but the PM is on vacation so here I am. Probably going to go to the Lego store once I'm done with the project. I also get some relief from my anxiety once I've started working on something I've been putting off.
I'm very, very sorry you feel that way. Everyone deserves friends. But you know that you have me (and, I'm sure, others on here) to talk to when things go bad! Don't forget that.
this was me till like spring of 2015. if you ever need someone to talk/vent to feel free to hit me up.
My anxiety has really taken a toll on me the past few weeks. It's depressing the shit out of me. I really have no idea what to do.
I'm really sorry to hear that. I know the feeling. I don't have any friends either. I haven't hung out with anyone outside my family since I was 20. I am currently 28. I know where you are coming from. But you can talk to us when shit gets too heavy.
Today I got on a thought tangent about how I let anxiety hold me back and I tend to stay inside and lie around in bed all day when I'm not working. Then I started thinking about how one day I'll be old and have no choice but to sit around because it'll be harder to be active, and I'll regret how I spent these years. I'll prob wish I could still be active and hate current me for not doing more, just like how now I kinda resent younger me for not doing more. Now I still feel anxious and also guilty. What a productive Sunday afternoon.
I worry sometimes about not being productive, but like what am I going to do take up a hobby like knitting or woodworking that feels like I'm supposed to do, nah we all know that ain't gonna happen
I try to learn new skills but I'm not very ambitious or good at sticking with things. I've taken up Spanish again so we'll see. But the other day my coworkers were listing all the things they're involved in outside of work and I was like omg!! I'd hate that. I def need some chill alone time in my life, but I prob have too much of it lol. I've been meaning to volunteer so maybe I should finally apply somewhere.