I was able to find a therapist. Had an initial consultation this morning and was able to set up an in person session. They seem like a really good fit and I’m excited to finally take this step.
My wife and I have had Covid since Sunday and it’s our first time. I’ve been looking forward to Sad Summer Fest (The Maine and The Wonder Years) for months and I won’t be able to go on Sunday. I’m really really bummed since this is what’s gotten me some through some hard days
I went in yesterday to fill out all my new hire paper work and get a very brief tour and it is so overwhelming just to like get into the building and clock in I still have no idea where I’m supposed to park lol but whatever I’ll figure it out it’s just very very overwhelming it’s a MASSIVE hotel I like clock in and get my uniform on 2 then change and go up to 8 for the restaurant but there’s also an employee cafe on 6 and the back rooms are like a maze etc. anyway I found out my first day is Tuesday and it all just became very real and I’m freaking out
Bro it was literally straight out of one of those tik toks and I have a key card to access them in the whole building
Loving all the changes my medication is making to my body and how I now am hyper aware of how lonely I feel every second of the day.
I wish I had something that would knock me out quickly so I can sleep so my overthinking and anxiety doesn’t take over my brain
Therapy and meds have done so much for me, but like clockwork, every few weeks I'll fall into a hole where all I can think about are the poor decisions I've made, whether I'm a good partner/friend/family member, whether people actually like or want to be around me, and now that I'm seemingly becoming a parent, whether I deserve any of the good things that are happening to me. Because I don't feel like I do. I start things I don't finish, burn out easily, and fudge the truth when talking to people to keep them happy.
It’s a vicious cycle. The work never stops. Wish there was a magic solution to make it all go away, all I know is that you have to constantly keep working at it.
All of you are worthy of the good in your lives. Couldn't agree more with @popdisaster00. Meds and EMDR therapy have worked wonders for my PTSD. I never thought I'd be where I am, I don't even think I had a perception of what feeling better was. Rewiring and parsing through getting better is hard work. But damn, the good days are unbelievable.
Officially starting my zoloft journey today. hope it helps me out. Did something to my knee last week. started adding jogging to my daily exercise and kind of possibly overdid it. knee hurts but probably just needs some rest. tried two days before walking the three mile trip to get my zoloft this morning and it maybe helped a little but i was mainly in a lot of discomfort the whole walk. I should prob try an extended break from exercise but its a bit tied to my anxiety and so taking a week or so off is a bit daunting mentally.
Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing (EMDR) is a method of therapy for processing trauma. It involves processing traumatic memories while moving your eyes in a specific way, similar to exposure therapy. There's a lot to it, but that's the basics. I've done a ton of cognitive behavior therapy over the years but this is entirely different.
Wishing you the best of luck! Getting on Zoloft was a game changer for me. Side effects can be annoying but you learn to work through them.
do you wear or have you tried wearing compression sleeves? i don't run but i do power walk in the mornings, and my left knee is my always-bad knee so the pain sometimes made it hard to get through the walk and then go up and down the stairs at home after. i started wearing a compression sleeve on my knee when i walk and it has helped quite a bit. certainly doesn't fix any problems my knee might have but i have noticed quite a bit of difference in discomfort when walking/after.
I haven’t tried any compression sleeves but I did buy a cheap and simple knee brace this weekend. Due to delivery issues it didn’t come until yesterday so I haven’t had a chance to try that out yet. Might look into compression sleeves too. Why not lol
You ever sit in on a work meeting and realize you either haven't been working hard enough or are simply too dumb to know what you're actually doing? Sometimes realizing how stupid I am really makes me question everything about myself. I hate how much I require clarification of things other people understand without issue.
I routinely have no idea what people are talking about (or arguing about) on my work calls lol. I’ve learned to accept that while part of it is definitely on me, another part of it is imposter syndrome mixed with other people just doing wayyy too much. I just keep my head down and get my work done and no one complains