Mental Health Thread • Page 442

I'll chime in with a couple of updates. We finally got to bring our sweet boy home on Monday and he's been peeing relatively consistently, so that's great! I've been very shy about posting that anywhere because I'm still so afraid that as soon as I celebrate, something will go wrong. It's a lot of emotional stress to try and keep track of whether or not he's peeing and he still has to wear the cone while we're at work, but after three days, we're finally feeling a little better about everything. Having him around, of course, helps; he meows at us nonstop and won't leave our sides. He's very happy to be home and acting like himself, which is great.

I do think I have PTSD from the past two weeks, specifically the phone calls I got from my parents when they were each bit by the neighbor's dog, though. I know that sounds silly, but I talked to me therapist about it. I've been having pretty much nonstop dreams that the dog, which I've never even met, is loose again and attacking my parents, or my wife, or me, or our pets. Last night, I dreamt that they changed the emergency number and I couldn't get through to anyone, and at one point I called me dad and he kept screaming at me through the phone to "get the gun." Then I wake up mid-panic attack with a super rapid heartbeat. So that sucks.

 

TW: miscarriage
We lost the baby. I don’t know if I’ve ever felt this sad and numb. This is a different feeling than losing a family member. My wife is obviously devastated and she doesn’t know if she’ll emotionally recover from this.

 

Fuck, man. I am so, so, so sorry. That's devastating. Take care of yourself, and try to take care of each other as much as you can. The thread is here for you.

 

So so sorry man. Wishing you and your wife all the best in this difficult time.

 

Ah man, that tears me up a bit. Can’t really imagine what it must feel like. The world deserves more kids raised by good people, and I know you were optimistic about being a father. There probably aren’t words that’ll help right now but please be patient with yourself and know that you can drop in here whenever

 

The first part is awesome, I’m sorry it was such a tough road to get there (and one you might still be weathering for a while) but I’m happy things are looking a little brighter right now. But damn y’all went through a lot in a short amount of time. The possibility of PTSD doesn’t sound even remotely silly. How are your parents doing? If they were having similar symptoms would either of them be the type to open up to you about it?

 

@xapplexpiex i am so, so sorry. I cannot fathom that type of pain. Thinking of you and your family.

 

Very sorry to hear. I've never gone through this myself but know a few people who have including family members. Best I can offer is that the pain does go away eventually.

 

Thanks a lot man. They're hanging in there. We went out last weekend to install some security cameras (the same neighbors were letting their other dog run loose, so we wanted to make sure we got evidence in case it goes to court) and take care of their lawn. I know my mom was having nightmares and my dad confided in her that when she was bit, he felt the same way he did when my grandpa passed away. He had a heart attack while they were hunting and my dad had to run to the road and flag someone down. He felt pretty helpless. Fortunately, I found them a therapist that takes their insurance and had immediate availability, and they both really liked her, which is huge because neither of them have been in therapy before. It felt like one of the only ways I could help at the time and I'm glad it's working out for them, but I know they're concerned about never feeling safe in their home again if something isn't done with the dog.

 

so so sorry to hear this

 

We went through it in December. The intense sadness and numbness will fade a bit with time, even if it doesn’t feel like it will, but I don’t know it ever fully goes away. Very sorry to hear.

 

I’m so sorry. I don’t know what else to even say. just heartbreaking

 

My thoughts are with you. Me and my partner have dealt with this and another situation dealing with a pregnancy that left both of us in emotional ruin. I don’t have any kind of advice other than what you probably already know, time won’t make it easier but it won’t hurt so much eventually. Hang in there

 

Thank you to everyone that reached out. You’re all good people :)

 

my parents are letting me borrow their car while they’re out of town next week. for anyone who doesn’t know I wrecked my car in an accident last year and haven’t gotten behind the wheel since then; it was really traumatizing as I essentially overdosed behind the wheel and was saved by the adrenaline of a car wreck. anyway I just drove with my dad home from my softball game and I was feeling nervous and afraid I might have some PTSD from the event and a previous accident years ago under the same circumstances but I felt surprisingly calm and at home behind the wheel. I used to love driving around as a form of meditation and it has sucked not being able to especially when I could’ve really used those meditative drives. So next week when I have a car for a few days unsupervised I’m going to do exactly what I’m supposed to do and take my ass to therapy and my softball game and straight back home. no intrusive thoughts are going to derail me. if I want any chance of being able to get a car soon I can’t fuck this up. my mom said don’t make me regret not putting a gps tracker on the car and I don’t plan on it.

 

Hell yeah, you got this homie. I have driven very little since I was t-boned in 2019. It's arguably been the biggest trauma of my life, but I do miss the solace driving alone provided. And I have found that when I'm driving with someone chill, like my bandmates, I feel a lot more comfortable (as opposed to being on edge with my wife or parents). I hope you get to enjoy that experience and come back into having a vehicle soon!

 

Yeah that's awesome! I have a lot of anxiety driving these days myself. Barely drove over the pandemic, and when I did, it was local. And then was out of commission recently for over a month with a sprained ankle. I love driving in short areas I'm very familiar with, but terrified of the highway, especially at night or rain when there are a ton of cars on the road. One of these days I'm gonna force myself to do the hour drive to my dad's house in MA. Never was a problem before, I took the 6 hour drive to Montreal a few years ago no problem and really enjoyed the drive.

 

Yeah, I'm shocked I ever made it to Pittsburgh and back by myself in one piece. I try to keep it to back roads and non-busy areas around town.

 

Same here with Boston. It's a stressful drive for sure because the roads are shit since the city was founded long before anyone thought to city plan for roads lol, traffic is shit and you lose GPS in the tunnels, but I would still suck it up and do it years ago. Now I just can't bring myself to at all.

 

I got like three hours of sleep last night because I was up most of the night thinking of my well-past-its-prime 8+ year relationship with someone who doesn’t even like me, and the fact that we are all full of plastic and lead and who knows what else and there is literally nothing we can do about any of it.

I need a massive change and I feel like I just don’t know how to do anything anymore.

 

for the one year I was back on the road since 2020 I noticed people have gotten so much worse at driving it became less relaxing than it used to be for me because I was always on edge about other people driving like idiots

 

@xapplexpiex I hope you and your wife are doing ok. We lost our first pregnancy as well and it was very hard on my wife. Please take care of each other.

 

I just feel so inadequate compared to everyone else I know. They're all so attractive, intelligent, artistic and talented. I'm none of those things. I feel as though I have nothing of value. Nothing to offer the world and would be better off gone.

I so badly want the lives and personalities they have.

 

Got a new cat and my spirits immediately lifted despite some other hard stuff going on in my life right now. Hoping so badly she will get along with our resident cat when we officially introduce them!

 

I don't know how to stop hating everything. I've tried for so long but I just keep seeing people dying around me, my friends, my family. I see how selfish everyone is all across the world and I can't take it. I can't trust anyone. I'm so miserable. I'm just so broken.