Mental Health Thread • Page 44

I need a hug tonight. Last person I helped at work called me worthless several times and I'm probably going to get in trouble for the attitude I had with him by the end of the interaction. I find myself to be worthless enough (less so as time goes on, though). I don't need some douche I don't know saying that to me as well.

 

Simon Amstell is the greatest

 

I hate people like that so much. I'll never understand how someone could be so mean to a complete stranger, especially when said stranger is doing something to help you. Forget about that asshole.

 

Some people are just miserable and take it out on people that don't deserve it. ❤️

 

I've had a pretty rough week but the past couple of days have been looking up. I got approved for a loan to help out with my mom/the money I lost with my grant.

Then today I was remembered by a waitress at dinner, got out of class insanely early, and was recommended for a (paid!!) job on set by one of my classmates.

It all sounds kind of small and lame but I'm in such a good mood, something I haven't been able to say for a while. I'm hoping that things continue to look up from here.

 

So many good memories of my life ruined just because I feel so rotten inside.

This is bullshit. Does anyone else try to imagine what it could be like if you were living with a normal dose of anxiety/depression?

I feel so envious of people who wake up so easily and can filter out the dumb little questions and nervousness that come with it.

 

Yeah like the amount of anxiety that will prevent me from doing stupid things but not so much that I do absolutely nothing which is currently the case

 

And it's harder to explain to someone "why you just can't get up and do things", especially when said person is person who wake up easily and can filter out the dumb little questions and nervousness that come with it.

And then you feel shitty and inferior for not being able to achieve the same mindset and everything just spirals downward even more.

I honestly thought I could do it. I was 2 or 3 weeks in and I was so steady. I felt like I was finally going to at least have one month without going into an episode and that would actually be an achievment for me. I think that would've made a huge difference.

 

Regarding this. I'm a computer programmer (which btw is something you'll never hear another programmer say to another programmer) and I think it strikes a good balance between talking to people and being left the fuck alone. That said, you have to REALLY love puzzles. What are you working as atm?

 

Mulaney. I've never heard anyone say anything negative about Mulaney.

I think he and Jeselnik are tied as my favorite comedians. I love Jeselnik's delivery (I want to say same with Mitch but the only thing thry have in common is they tell really short jokes) and somewhat share his sick sense of humor.

EDIT: and also a huge fan of Tig from the 2 stand ups, 1 documentary, and random interviews I've seen. I always paint her as a comedian's comedian as I feel like her jokes are the ones that would make fellow comedians laugh so hard.

 

I do public-facing remote IT support. The problem I have is more with management and less with the job I'm doing, though. I was a computer science major for a while, but I just can't program to save my life. It's so frustrating and I feel like my brain just doesn't work that way. I do enjoy puzzles, but the actual coding portion is just not for me.

 

@lish when I think of IT support I remember the NoSleep (aka fictional horror podcast) episode I heard a while back about a stalker who kept calling the guy on his hotline at the exact same time everyday. Creepy.

Oh, cool at least the job itself is fine. Not saying toxic management is acceptable, just being optimistic haha. if you dislike algorithms you can always go frontend and design user interfaces but that's going way off the topic.

 

Might be worth looking into. I've been looking for things to expand into so I can get out of this position. I haven't been promoted in three years and I feel stuck and stagnant. That's part of the problem. I've applied for several things internally and around where I live and have had no traction. :(

 

Every year something has to happen. I want to have a break. I've lost my patience. This is not fair.

 

Mitch Hedberg was so great.

Bo Burnham is probably my favorite current comedian. His entire final bit in his latest special was a long build-up to him addressing his mental health to his audience, which I thought was really cool.

 

Mulaney & Mitch forever obv.

Anyway.
My best friend came into town this weekend for only 2 days. When she was here I literally was asking myself, "am I even happy when she's not here?" the answer is no. I only feel truly happy when she's here. So when she leaves it's like this crash of depression where I have to go back to reality and it sucks.

 

so i finished my rehab treatment for my heroin addiction and am considering continuing with therapy elsewhere now that im done. im nervous about finding someone i click with the way i clicked with my counselor at the rehab i went to

 

@stillbrazy that's awesome.i know it's dumb to ask but can't it be just him/her again?

 

Nah since he works for the place I went to for rehab he doesn't do private practice or anything so id have to pay for at least three more months of overall treatment which I don't really need and would be too expensive because it's not a cheap place, it'd be nice if I could just keep going to him though. they do have alumni group sessions for free twice a month which I'll be going to for sure, but the one on one was what really helped me so I wanna continue that as well. the rehab place has some references I'm gonna get from them for people I can go see post-treatment

 

Almost had a panic attack on the train this morning

 

I want pretty much all of these.

Products for people dealing with mental illness. by MentalHealthDesigns

 

wow. Well, I don't think anyone could blame you there.

 

Yeeeeah..I wouldn't lose any sleep over that.

 

Wow, if you don't mind me asking how did you find out