Really fucking depressed and have had unnerving dreams like four nights in a row. I just feel like shit in so many ways.
Another self-immolation that is not going to leave my brain for weeks. This is why I've desperately tried to stop paying attention to the news. I know that's not good. My brain sincerely just cannot do it right now.
you guys ever feel like everything good that’s going to happen to you has already happened and you’re never going to find your footing and start progressing again
After burning it all down and having to start over so many times I’m just fucking tired and spent and afraid if I start making progress it’s just a matter of time til I get in my own way again
Had a good week. Best in literally years. Today made me feel like shit and like I'm sliding backwards again. I really fucking hate it when I'm this close to the other side. I don't want to be this person.
Maybe someone can explain to me: what's the purpose of continuing on? I don't want to die, I'm actually quite fearful of death, but I don't understand what compels someone to go on. What do you get out of it? I don't have any hopes, dreams or aspirations. I don't get it.
A student asked me life’s purpose in the beginning of the school year. I told him everyone doesn’t have the same purpose, we make it ourselves. My purpose is to be the best teacher (and soon father) I can be. His is to be an awesome basketball player and a good role model for his little sister. If there is a purpose everyone is given, we would feel powerless and not in control. If you come up with nothing, make it something small but that means something to you. Idk…just my thoughts.
One of my best friends just told me he relapsed after 8 years and is going to rehab today. It was only a month or so and he seems to be doing alright but I never thought he would. Just kinda messing with me right now.
Work has been really pissing me off lately. They don’t care about you and made it a clear point today. I am so stressed and overwhelmed my brain can’t function. I get close to having a mental breakdown or even outburst at work to where I have to excuse myself. I’m making steps to look for a new job
i hope this thread is okay with some positive mental health news. i feel kinda guilty posting this. i got laid off from the company i'd been working for for my entire adult life the week before christmas. i've spent the last 4 months applying for hundreds of jobs, interviewing for countless positions, and fielding hundreds of rejection notices. today i'm set have a final interview with a company that is offering half of what i was making in my previous role. but i just got off a call with another company who i thought i had no shot with and they offered me the position! i'll be making more than i did in my previous role and i'm in absolute shock. i was completely resigned to having to make some serious life changes to accomodate my new living situation and now it's the complete opposite. holy shit
This is incredible and please do NOT feel like you can't post positive stuff in here. Positives and negatives are all a part of mental health. Congratulations!
I used mostly LinkedIn when I was job searching. Took almost 9 months to find the right one and actually get a response