Mental Health Thread • Page 425

It's so sad how true this is.

 

Yeah, I am. Cannabis sucks because so much of my time is spent tracking down payments, so I miss selling beer because it was COD. But, the beer industry is cratering in Michigan and the pay has just never been near what cannabis pays. There are just a ton of bad companies in cannabis though so finding the good ones is tough.

 

LTNS

 

Blast from the past! How are you doing?

 

You back??

 

It’s been a minute hasn’t it. I’m good, just dawned on me I haven’t checked in in a while. Hru?

 

I think so! Is everyone still here?

 

yeah back in 2018 I was off work for a few months and had to move back to my parents for a bit because of a cluster fuck of stuff that I did/happened in my life and while I would never want to go through all that again it was amazing being able to spend 3 months with my parents and not having to work.

 

For me, I think I might…hate people? Like I don’t…hate people generally, but also I…hate people…you know? So a few years ago I had an office job that turned into a WFH job because of the pandemic and it dealt with the public. So suddenly these awful people were calling my work phone which I had to answer in my home, and now my safe place that I previously used to escape from work was invaded and no longer felt safe or separate from work. That was awful for my mental health. Just me alone in my house with the worst people in the world in my ear every single day. I have a different job now back in my field, and I work from home again. I love it this time because I don’t deal with the public anymore. Probably the most relaxed and content I’ve ever been. I just need to be paid more and I’d also like to use this year to work on things of my own interest in my free time.

 

Just want to say that literally everything you’ve described here is exactly how I’ve always felt about myself right down to struggling my entire life to retain information no matter how hard I try to focus and reading this now has me questioning things and has sent me spiraling down a google rabbit hole about ADD symptoms and learning that depression is a side effect as well and what I guess I’m saying is

 

Hey, at least we're in the boat together

 

Ehhh...a lot of people are still here, lol. Bit of an exodus a few years back when everyone was constantly fighting over how to handle accountability issues and how to treat and speak to each other. I think there was a Discord server where some users would talk shit on the folks they disagreed with. I think the site is better without those users, personally.

 

Work from home absolutely destroyed my mental health and social life and I've been doing it since around 2016. I just need to find the right job that allows me to be around people that isn't for a horrible corporation or a terrible desk job. It really sucks playing ball in a failing system where no matter how much work you put in you're not going to be properly rewarded and respected for it, but all the people up at the top will profit off of it.

Sometimes I think about just moving away.

 

that is where im at too with my job, got moved to a lead/PM role earlier this year and im making a decent amount. just that the hours during peak time for us is brutal. im thinking im gonna stay for at least another six or so months just for the "experience", and then start searching externally for another position similar to the field im in now.

 

Yeah after awhile working from home starts to feel like you're living at work.

 

I've been WFH for 1.5 years, I completely get why it isn't for everyone, but god damn it let me tell you I am the master champion of WFH I love it and thrive in it every damn day and am so grateful the entire time

 

I work from home and the pros outweigh the cons but I wish I could go in once or twice a week just for a change of pace.

 

Like others head said its all about what you do. Just regular ass office work while WFH would sweet, but dealing with the public remotely while WFH and having every thing you do at your station measured? Nightmare.

 

Almost want to buy a journal and all it my “trauma journal” and when a trauma memory triggers I can write it down. That way when I can afford therapy I have something

 

I was in a car wreck and having to go down to part time bc I’m not released yet and won’t be for a good while. I’m having to monitor my mental health bc not working isn’t good for me.

 

Weirdest thing about quitting my job is in was expecting to feel a kind if sense of belated regret in doing that. I do feel a sense of regret, but not for quitting the job, I feel regret for keeping that shit job for so long.

 

More than I can say - I’m doing that but in the same room lol

 

My manager told me today they were contacted by another division about a new position they’re creating and that they want to talk to me about it.

She said she would allow it and said all the right things about not wanting me to leave but not going to block it if that is what I want to do (crazy that yes, that is something the company I work for will do - you also can’t apply for another internal position without letting your manager know first because they immediately get alerted when you apply, what a fucking creepy and disrespectful thing imo).

What’s weird is I’m pretty sure I don’t know anyone in the division that she said reached out so will be curious how that all came to be, but certainly nothing quite as boosting as positive as hearing other people want you to be their underpaid slave-like labor lol

Most assuring is knowing that they reached out so it’s not awkward if I would have been looking and told her I wanted to apply to something. Glad I get to skip that step if I get offered this position and want it.

 

I think I might have an anger issue? Like, not in the sense that I ever blow up on people. Actually the opposite. I'm so uncomfortable with conflict that I bottle things up until the smallest things make me see red.

 

I have to re apply for my low income energy discount. I may not qualify this time I wish they sent the notice to me before I got my raise. I still don’t make much and with everything else going up I feel worse off. Like I feel like I’m struggling more with money

Edit: yeah so there’s no way I qualify and I think 4 years ago I BARELY qualified and I was making not much over min wage. I do make $10 more than I did back then. I only got a $15 discount but it adds up! I canceled my prime video and down graded my Netflix to save me some money. I hate how you can be low income but not qualify for any type of assistance. One of the many reasons why I don’t want to keep living alone