Mental Health Thread • Page 413

boy do I not feel good about anything in my life right now! great feeling! feeling entirely disconnected from everyone and everything on an emotional level!

 

I empathize. I feel like I've been on autopilot for at least two weeks, like I'm not even actually having conversations with those around me. Just feel drained. I hope it passes for you soon, friend.

 

I think my job is burning me out from having to exert so much mental energy for 8 hours a day (plus I’ve started working 6 am shifts to make the fresh pressed juices we sell which is leading to more exhaustion). I typically only work 4 days but I’ve been giving a shift up the past few weeks to only work 3 and I still just feel completely distant from everyone and everything around me and it’s only further exacerbated by online discourse not just with Gaza but with many other things in music and entertainment where I feel a world away on certain things from everyone else. I honestly need a vacation where I can unwind and unplug but all I’ve got coming up is a family thanksgiving trip which is the complete opposite of what I need and after that with the holidays I won’t have a chance to get away until January when I’m supposed to be going to Vegas. Three months of holding on like this sounds legitimately awful

 

Same for me and it’s definitely stage one of SAD kicking in for me

 

I've been in a bit of a depression slump and let my place get a bit messy but it rly only took a few minutes to load and start my dishwasher, take out the trash and recycling, put away some laundry/start a new load, sweep, and put in a new smelly good thing. Its not a deep clean but it looks way nicer. I feel so much better and it took no time at all. Hope I remember that for next time because sometimes I get so overwhelmed I just freeze and let it keep piling.

 

Yeah I’ve been cleaning and organizing all weekend because of anxiety but it’s also making me feel better

 

Tasks can be so hard when you're depressed or anxious. We're being accredited at work this week and I can't bring myself to clean the rabbit's room (20 minutes tops) because just the thought of it is exhausting

 

My wife has major problems with parentification - she had to grow up really fast because of her parents' irresponsibility, and myself, not so much. I don't like being treated like a child any more than she says she likes feeling like a parent. I thought things were improving because we made a list of chores together that need done and I've been incorporating a lot more in my day-to-day life, but I forgot one thing and she slipped right back into Making a Thing out of it instead of just politely asking me about it. Which, maybe I'm sensitive, but it's so frustrating when you get zero praise for improving and only criticism when you slip up. And then because of the tone of the conversation, we both get defensive, we both feel frustrated, and she goes to bed while I'm left awake and angry and anxious about the way I'm feeling. I genuinely can't tell what's my fault and what isn't anymore. I feel like a big, dumb, defensive piece of shit.

On top of that, I have probably the most important workday of my life thus far tomorrow and now this is going to keep me up. Ugh. Sorry for the long post. Just had to get it out somewhere.

 

I post a lot in here about my wife and I should be more considerate because I love her to pieces and she is a good, kind-hearted person, but we all have flaws, and I just need a place to be able to get it out. It's not as bad as it seems (I obviously don't come in here to post the good stuff), but when it's bad, it can really exacerbate my poor mental health.

 

I’m always trying to do better with completing little household tasks more consistently and not letting them pile up but in a weird way I feel like at times I will let stuff pile up and eventually make a whole day out of completing all the tasks because it’s more enjoyable/seems like a bigger accomplishment that I earned? Idk. Maybe everyone thinks that way and it’s just a weird “coping” mechanism or what have you?

I also think some part of me let’s things pile up because doing 1-3 a day or every other day is FOREVER which seems exhausting vs doing all the tasks 1 day and then having “off” for 2 days or 5 or 7 days.

I also try to remember to do things during the work day so I don’t waste my free time doing them lol

 

Ugh I routinely let my condo get ridiculously messy when I work several days in a row because after work the last thing I want to do is clean and then on my day off I want to just sit around and do nothing. When I do finally pick up it takes no time at all but then it’s right back to where I started not even a week later and I’m back to square one

 

The monotony of daily adulthood really wears on me sometimes. It’s so silly. But I’m back from vacation and it’s like oh yeah I’m gonna have to do the dishes again, and I’ve gotta go grocery shopping, and I had to do a bunch of laundry. It sucks! I understand why people let things go for awhile lol

 

I've srsly considered hiring a housekeeper once a month to help out with the deep cleaning but idk it feels weird cause as a teen I used to help my mom clean houses on the weekends and it felt kinda degrading and I always wondered why they couldn't just do it themselves. Now of course I know they're not all just rich jerks, like many weren't physically able to clean due to a variety of factors. But there are small things that make my place look messier, like the baseboards get super dusty and I've legit tried every way to clean them but they're textured so it's super hard. And I would wanna clean before they came over to clean (lol) so it may be a motivator too

 

having a cat means my baseboards ALWAYS have hair all around them. I do try to vacuum that up semi-regularly

 

I’ve been struggling with motivation in work (dream job, basically) and with household chores because the world is so fucked it’s like, what’s the point? I’m really struggling to not get stuck on how pointless and futile things like work are when the world is on fire, at war, and our politicians are littered with grifters looking to become social media influencers in the political realm. How do I continue to sell products when none of it actually matters?

 

Trying to start a new hobby for my mental health but idk how people even start hobbies. I make the mistake of looking too far into it and getting too far ahead of myself so I get overwhelmed and afraid of failure and never actually try anything new. When now it's easier than ever to learn new hobbies with YouTube tutorials and online communities and stuff. I need to learn to be okay with not being good at it and just enjoying the process

 

I used to not be bothered at all by being a little older than most of my peers at work but recently it has made me feel pretty lonely. Not like I can’t relate or have good working relationships but it’s hard to not be included in things sometimes. But a building with 250 employees is I think inherently cliquey. Not to mention the two people I was closest to at work have now been promoted while I got passed up, and we now no longer hang out…

 

Because I have no one to vent to/talk about my day, I usually come on here. But I can’t always say what I want without giving too much info when it comes to my work. It’s really hard. It’s hard when I had a shitty day which has turned into every work day, yet no one to talk to. It’s not healthy to go through life alone like this never having anyone by my side. But that’s what’s in the cards for me.

Im also tired of waking up in the middle of the night all the time. I can never get a good sleep. I can’t fall asleep. And I’m tired when I wake up. I’ve tried unisom, NyQuil, gummies, seroquil (sp?)… the only thing that knocks me out fast is the NyQuil and gummies but here I am still waking up in the middle of the night

 

do you have a roommate?

 

Yeah I have been waking up in the middle of the night every night for a while now. It’s getting harder to get back to sleep. I might have to see someone about it soon.

 

I finally had to get prescribed sleep meds cause of my struggles to fall asleep and Stay asleep. I still wake up in the middle of the night but at least I fall right back asleep generally. It's helped a lot.

 

I have been suffering the last week with illness that I have concluded can only be the direct result of me treating my body like absolute dogshit in myriad ways but especially partying and not eating enough. It’s been years since I’ve eaten a regular persons amount of food daily but I will put just about anything else into my body and just deal with the terrible feelings that come with that combination and it sure feels like it’s caught up with me. I don’t need all this introspection on top of being sick i just wanna be in a hot shower for a week straight

 

Does my cat count? Lol. Otherwise no. I live alone.

 

I feel overwhelmed, all I’ve done all year is just burn bridges with people left and right. Why am I so self-destructive?

 

Have you thought about it? I know for myself having a roommate would be helpful, almost always.