Mental Health Thread • Page 405

Oh. In your brain, words are the actual people. Interesting. Complete nonsense. But that’s interesting for you.

 

I know this wasn’t the intention, but don’t bring drama from another thread in here. This thread is supposed to be a safe place.

 

Well, I didn’t bring it up. I made one dumb joke and it was okay for this thread to not be safe for me anymore. Cool.

 

My post wasn’t just directed at you.

 

I am aware. My post is questioning the timing of your post. When I was being talked about, nothing. When I reply, let’s shut it down. Whatever. I’ll leave.

 

I didn’t see the posts before you replied.

 

Its my fault actually so....

 

I didn’t mean to sound like a narc!

 

Wasn't you, believe me.

 

I was trying to defend you because of what he said after assuming you had blocked him. and then I put my fucking foot in my mouth for not even knowing what had been said prior.

So now i feel like an asshole all around. I fucked up on both sides.

 

I came across something on fb that triggered a memory of another valuable irreplaceable item my mother got rid of behind my back many years ago.

 

Accreditation reports were due today. Worked 13 hours yesterday. I am tired. But thankful for a four-day weekend, plus taking a vacation day on Wednesday. Lots of reasons to be thankful right now even if it's been tough.

 

My wife goes on a trip every year to some other state with her mom and grandma. I have the place to myself and I order pizzas she doesn’t like and marathon horror movies. But I can’t sleep and I get super anxious when she’s not home. We’re attached to the hip. At least I have my cats!

 

I can totally relate to that, dude.

 

I am in so much financial trouble right now that I don’t know what to do. My credit is going to be nonexistent. I messed up on a tax form when I got a second job and I wasn’t getting anything taken out from it, so now I owe a lot of money in taxes asap I don’t have. I didn’t know I had a copay for my psychiatrist because they never told me, so now I owe over $200 for all the times it’s added up. They will drop me as a patient if I don’t pay it and then I won’t have my meds. A birthday dinner for my brother is coming up and I have no money for a gift and a meal. I have a credit card bill with $160 due. I want a restart on life, about 20 years in the past to undo all the mistakes I’ve made. The only thing close to that is death, but I don’t want that.

 

Shit buddy that’s a bummer. Can you possibly consolidate your credit card debt? Sell anything that isn’t sentimental? Ask family for a loan?

 

I’m going to be selling some things, but I’ll see how much I’ll get. I don’t have much of value. My family won’t help if I asked. They pretty much ashamed of me and the way I turned out.

 

whip that venmo out. there are good, generous people in here that live comfortably and mutual aid rocks

 

Agreed

 

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Please don’t feel obligated. I just came here to vent.

 

All I have is my family. I have no partner, no friends. Which maybe that would be fine for some people, but honestly I am so sick of my entire family basically. I had to hang up on my brother today. I've never really told anyone this bc I feel guilt over it but I'm fucking done. If he wasn't my brother and I just met him in passing, I would hate his fucking guts. He is mean. He is bitter. He is just straight up not a nice person. He called me today and was so horrible and so mean to me, I just burst into tears and had to hang up on him. I'm supposed to see him on Friday bc I'm taking my nephews somewhere. And then we are having a family get together on Saturday. I seriously might just drop the kids off Saturday and leave. I don't even want to see him. I've been really feeling like I shouldn't have bought my house and this is just really making that feeling even stronger. I love my house and it's so cheap but I just want to move to a whole different state. I have nothing for me here. I just want to cut ties with everyone and be done. And days like today I just really wish I had someone to call and come over and just vent to and I have no one and I'm so tired of it. So many things would be so much easier if I just had an actual support system. I want to find a therapist so bad but I'm losing my insurance soon but I don't have an exact date. I don't want to start the process when I don't know what my next insurance will cover so idk what to do.

 

I know it's not the same, but we're happy to have you here and I know a number of us (myself included) would welcome you in our DMs if you ever need to vent or just want a friend to chat with. Rooting for you.

 

Thank you so much! It really means a lot! I’m so glad this thread exists bc everyone is always so kind and supportive and that’s sometimes the only support I really get so I really appreciate you and everyone’s kindness!

 

If it's any sort of consolation, I also have a shithead brother so I can relate. I haven't spoken to him in 4 years and I'm planning on keeping it that way. I can infer from what you said that going no contact might not be realistic, but I would say keeping it to an absolute minimum could be an okay compromise. Nobody should be making you feel that shitty, and especially not family.

 

Love playing "Did I really gain weight or is it body dysmorphia?" And if I have gained weight it shouldn't matter cause I'm excercising regularly and trying to make good choices so everything else shouldnt matter. But my clothes feel more snug and suddenly I look completely different to myself in the mirror