Mental Health Thread • Page 402

I struggle with the fact that my late mother would get rid of my belongings even sentimental items of mine behind my back. She’d intentionally do this when I wasn’t home or gone for a day or two. Her excuse was calling me a hoarder and a junk collector and how I didn’t need these items. She had no respect for me growing up. Not only that but she would go through my personal stuff without asking during this time too. I never had any privacy. It hurts to think about how I’ll never see these sentimental items again, but at the same time I think about people who lost everything in fires- people who didn’t get a chance to save anything.
I hear stories about people who had items that went missing and someone it randomly shows up out of nowhere in the strangest spot. I always hope that something like this will happen with one of those items

 

Just been dealing with flared up anxiety and depression for like 4 months now. Fucking sucks after going about a year feeling better. But I know it’ll improve. It already is but not as quickly as I’d like. I have this conundrum where things happen that I feel like I should be excited or happy about and when I don’t feel that joy that I expected, I just feel down and disappointed. Like I’m about to have summer off from work and instead of feeling thrilled, my brain goes into nervous mode and I begin to think that its going to be awful rather than relaxing even though I know that’s not true! I once read that anxiety is never practical but it’s always convincing and damn if that isn’t true. It’s like having two brains. One of them is saying “relax, you got this” and the other brain is saying “haha no you don’t”

 

That’s really awful, everyone should be able to get the care they need. I hope you can find something that accepts your insurance

 

Feeling this very much lately.

 

Just feel like I'm coming apart lately. my depression is absolutely fucking me. today so far i just feel like i'm constantly on the edge of a panic attack and the relentless feeling is not fun.

 

Hugs.

 

I feel like we need a virtual group hug.

 

Got prescribed Lexapro for treating my anxiety a month ago and still haven't tried it. I have heard many mixed things about SSRI's and especially Lexapro. But work has been so hard lately that I am really considering trying it. I'm just scared of it further damaging my emotional state or the plethora of potential side effects. My anxiety when spiked, often leads me feeling like I don't recognize myself or feel like I normally do. I guess theres just a fear that any medication would further that feeling even if it helps in other ways.

 

Here to say medication helps me.

 

Big same. The relief you feel when you find one is worth the journey getting there.

 

I am not suicidal, but I want to die. I am overwhelmed with so much shit due to my mom passing away last month. My brain is over it.

 

I'm so sorry for your loss. My mother passed in December. I have no advice, it's an impossible weight to be carrying. I hope you can heal in time

 

Right there with ya. Still dealing with this nonsense since Dec. just a bunch of legal/documentation bs

 

Been caught in a spiral the last few days. Exhausted emotionally and physically. There is so much to do and I don’t have the time or energy to do it. Every job I’m in ends up just being another dead end shit show ran by middle aged privileged children and capitalistic sycophants. My kids are vibrant and energetic but I barely have the energy to keep up and feel guilty for getting frustrated with them and wishing I could just have a day or two alone. Ready for this weekend and to wake up feeling a little more myself sooner rather than later

 

Work can have such a negative impact on your mental state. I had to entirely switch careers to get the change I needed

 

So update on the psychiatrist situation, I had my first meeting with a new one and she was amazing. I was so happy about that, still am.

Apparently my last psych was giving me too much of a medication, like supposedly double of what the fda suggests so I was very right about him being bad.

 

I got into this job as an opportunity to get into a new field and while I am gaining experience towards something better in the future, it just amazes me of how once you start dealing with corporate types they always seems to be the same type of shit people. Like it’s cool their values are different than mine, but being disrespectful and entitled is a big no for me

 

So I called the psych dept at my med clinic. They asked a few questions, now I have to wait two weeks for a phone appt (ridiculous) with an “intake therapist” that will ask me questions in detail. I also have to fill out a questionnaire in which according to the bad reviews on google they’ll ask questions based off the questionnaire. And this person isn’t even an actual therapist. I just want to start off by getting help with my anxiety. And adhd. I need baby steps. I’m not ready to go into detail about other stuff

 

I went through the same thing where I went. I had to wait a month for an in person intake. In my experience, that person needs to know as much as possible so they can then refer to the appropriate people. For me, it got me in with a therapist and a doc of some sort for meds.

 

Life moves fast.

I’m 99% sure my rent will be going up at least $400 a month starting next June so I’ve casually mentioned to my parents and some friends that I may start looking at buying a house or condo instead.

There is no warming up to this possibility, it’s just immediately everyone 24/7 sending me links and asking questions. I’m mentally exhausted answering questions and pretending to look at links and commenting on things everyone sends me. Hell, I just got back from looking at a house and told I need to make a decision on if I want to put an offer in within the next three hours because it will go that fast. I’ll be passing on this house but goddamn it went from “yeah I might buy who knows” to now downloading apps and talking to realtors and getting loan approvals in a matter of a few days.

 

I didn’t know it was going to be this complicated just to see a psychiatrist. I know other people whose gp gives them their anxiety meds. I do know for a proper adhd eval, I need to see a psych. It’s hard enough that I have to do a phone intake appt (which is with a social worker) and I really hate talking on the phone- gives me anxiety. It was the toe a video appt which would be worse for me.

 

My PCP gave me meds at first, but after several changes, they were not working. It was a pain in the ass, but that in person I take led me to getting the right meds. Don’t give up.

 

Following up: I’m an only son (but have step-sisters that came along late middle school) so my mom demanded she come along to the house I looked at on Friday.

My mom and I have a great relationship but it’s never been one where we discuss feelings or serious things. If you ever want to know what your parents think of you or think of you in certain situations, bring them along to an open house. Nothing bad or irritating was said but I found it highly amusing to hear my mom say things to the realtor about me that she would never say to me directly. Honestly couldn’t tell if she was at times trying to get the realtor to like me or if she thought I was barely capable of getting dressed in the morning with some of her comments lol.

The most amusing one was when we were discussing the layout of the kitchen and the placement of the fridge in the wall and my mom goes, “well he doesn’t have a lot of stuff in his fridge anyway so even if this isn’t a full-size fridge that’s fine, he doesn’t really need all that space anyway”.

I haven’t lived with my mom for almost 15 years. She has seen been in my apartment (which I have lived in for 11 years) for a total of 45 seconds, none of which was her looking in the fridge, so I was completely baffled at what makes her think this

I’ve always tried to think of life as a sitcom and my god that half hour house viewing felt it was ripped straight from a sitcom with everything she said.

 

I have my phone appt with this “intake therapist (associate social worker)” tomorrow. I was wondering if anyone had any experience with this. Like do they find the right psychiatrist for you. Or are they about simple therapy without medication? The appt reminder said they work under a licensed clinical social worker. I’m not sure how any of this works.

 

For me, I spoke to mine about my depression and anxiety and how it makes me feel/act. Answered a bunch of question. At the end, they referred me to a therapist for therapy and a nurse of some sort that prescribed the meds.