Mental Health Thread • Page 399

luv 2 b 53 hours and counting without my extremely basic mental health meds (lexapro) because my fucking pharmacy no longer fills scripts on site because they laid a bunch of people off to save money. thanks Walgreens great country we have here. zappity zap zap zap hope they have it when they open in 12 hours! zap zap

 

hey folks! sending good wishes to all!
I'm kinda struggling today. It's kind of a stupid thing, maybe, or complex. Don't really want to get into it, but part of it is me missing out on a concert of one of my fave bands. That's the stupid part, but it brings up complicated issues of my life now and what my life might or should be in the future. I'm kinda half in mourning and half in crisis...oh, or make that thirds and add anxiety. I've calmed down a bit since this morning, but I'm still just struggling to like find will to keep going...something needs to change, whether it be just something inside me or something external. but i'm also deathly afraid of certain possible changes. Hoping I can somehow get to peace.

 

Past two weeks at work have been INSANE, truly non-stop because of the end of the semester, I've been so stressed and exhausted at the end of each day. Now I'm coming up on a four-day weekend, but instead of primarily feeling relief, I'm feeling guilt for not having as much to do and for just wanting to lay around.

 

You deserve the break and rest!

 

Yes! Burnout happens for a reason. Let yourself rest and then be productive if you feel up to it later

 

Thank you! I agree! Just gotta get my brain to accept that.

Just wanna sit on my porch and listen to records and drink and smoke a million cigarettes even though I absolutely shouldnt

 

I feel this to my core, Aaron!

I hope you are getting the rest you need and please don’t feel guilty over self care.

 

Thanks everyone! The guilt is compounded by how nice it is outside today, feels like I waste to stay inside but that's what I feel like doing and I gotta remind myself there will be plenty more nice days to come.

 

ahhh, i definitely know that feeling of wanting to take advantage of nice weather but really just wanting to stay in. yes, there will be other days. i also tell myself this.

so um, don't want to go into details but i was very much humbled today. i actually feel pretty sad and stressed about it. i did get a moment of mood boost, but i think the humility is overpowering it to actually appreciate it as much. does that make sense? yeah, i'm just kinda bummed, i guess, is another way to say it.

 

Been having just an all around awful time lately. Being single usually doesn't bother me too much but this year it's like a switch flipped in my brain and I'm basically tying my entire self-worth to the fact that I'm still single. I guess I just didn't think I'd be 32 and still alone. Idk I just feel like everyone around me has always had such an easy time finding people who are interested in them but that has never been the case for me, hence why I've still never even been on a single date. And I'm really insecure about it and idk when I turned 32 I just felt like I hit this point where no one is going to be able to look past that for some reason. Doesn't help that certain people love to tease me about it and make me feel even worse. Just been feeling like there must be something really wrong with me and I'm just undesirable and unlovable or something. Not a great feeling at all.

 

Not sure why I’m posting here. Maybe part of me wants a pity party? But, my mom died today. I just got home and ate my first meal of the day. And now I’m going to bed. Tomorrow begins many hard phone calls and decisions.

Fuck. I’m very tired.

 

I’m so sorry for your loss, that’s hard no matter what not. Wishing you and your family the best right now. Stay strong.

 

Oh Jesus, Greg, I’m so damn sorry. You’re a good person and I hate that you’re going through this. My heart goes out to you. Get some rest, friend; at least as much as you can.

 

Hey man I’m really sorry to read this. As someone who’s still dealing with the fallout of a death of a parent…it’s a lot. Though if you ever want to talk pm me.

 

Thinking of you @Greg

 

Thank you.

Thank you. I got around 6 hours of sleep. I’ll settle for that for now.

Thank you. Yea, sadly, this is not the first time I’ve dealt with the loss of a parent. Although, I am far better equipped to deal with it now than I was at 12.

Thank you.

 

@Greg I'm so sorry to hear this, please feel free to PM me if you ever need someone to just vent to. I know we don't communicate much on this site but I lost my dad a few years ago and I know what helped me a little bit early on after it happened.

 

Echoing everyone's sentiments itt. Can't imagine what you're going through. Please take care of yourself.

 

I’m so sorry for this - for your mom and for all those who love her that are still here, wrestling with the love they have and the absence of a person to share it with.

Keep her memory close, and those who loved her close as well. It doesn’t cover the loss, not by a damn sight. But it reminds you of the good she was, the things she cared for and the people who miss her as you do.

May her memory be a blessing.

 

I can relate. I know what I’m looking for and the dudes in my area ain’t it. It really sucks that when I’m sick I have no one to help take care of me or get shit done. I’m also tired of staying home all the time and I just want to to fun stuff.

 

Monday mornings are so bad anymore. Just instant fight or flight the moment I wake up. Need a klonopin just to function. I've made a lot of progress in the past two-three years, but I feel like I'm starting to regress in some ways.

 

Being on Lexapro has been really good in so many ways.

The only trouble I have with it is that I feel like, although my lows are not as low, my highs are not as high. It was probably unhealthy for a long period of time to live with such giant swings of mood, and I know it was not good for my wife, or my children to see me perhaps so very happy about the certain things – especially things they were not involved in – And then see me so low at other times.

But there is a part of me that misses the very high, almost orgasmic, highs of things that used to really excite me. Do not get me wrong, they are still things I very much enjoy. But they are not 11 out of 10 anymore. They are solid eight out of 10. That’s just been a shift. That’s a little hard to get used to.

 

few weeks ago, someone called me an annoying Boston Sports fan in the NHL thread.

I would like to show off an actual annoying Boston Sports fan. You won't ever find me doing this.

 

Talk to your doc about Wellbutrin or something similar. Lexapro def calmed me down but I became disinterested and unmotivated. Wellbutrin has helped keeping me motivated and social and less lethargic. Lexapro caps the ceiling on how anxious I get and Wellbutrin caps the floor on how depress I get so I’ve been in a good kind of middle zone now.

 

If I may (not to make this as horny as the General Politics thread):

Do you have sexual side effects on Wellbutrin? Mine were unbearable on Prozac but are manageable on Lexapro. That’s a very big deal for me and I don’t want to take a step backward.