Mental Health Thread • Page 397

I couldn't agree more. Not even a week after I lost Hendrix, I found Rae and Marley. They are the only two things in this world that got me through that hard time and still get me through it.

 

Ahhhhh I just became a dog dad for the first time about 3/4 weeks ago and I already can’t imagine life without her

one of the best things I ever did and I hope in time you appreciate the memories without it hurting the way it does

 

Its just a humongous life change and out of nowhere. I can't believe last week I took my boys to the pet store to get the 6yo (bucky) a new collar because he chewed up the old one. Just another average boring day. We got treats. I went to work. 16 hours later we find out its over.

I read up a lot about the cancer he got.

They don't know where it comes from. It's impossible to detect because there aren't that many outward symptoms. Once its there, there's nothing you can do and death is within a week. It effects golden retrievers, German shepharfs more so (he is neither). And its usually older dogs (which he wasn't yet).

It feels like Grover was given this exact expiration date as soon as he was born. "You will live an amazing, loving life, see 20+ states, eat all the fun foods, you will almost never be sick, but you're not making it to 10yo".

The helplessness actually makes me feel a little better but also more just mad about it.

 

Yo! Who just got blindsided by another horrible wave of depression?! This guy. Fucking love it.

 

I’m sorry to hear that - anything you can pinpoint that triggered it?

 

Giving up alcohol again, at least for a while, because it is 100% correlated with me waking up mid-panic attack. And the hangxiety and guilt I feel the entire morning after, even if I didn't get drunk. It's just not worth it. But it's a habit, and it's going to be difficult when I visit friends in Pittsburgh this week.

 

You got this. Talk to your friends ahead of time if you can, I’m sure they’d be completely understanding.

 

Thanks man. I'm sure no one will even mention it if I order a diet coke or something. They're good people. It's more of a self-control issue on my part.

 

I took a whole year off drinking back in ‘21 and getting started is the hardest part. Once I got used to not drinking in social situations it was a breeze. Never been a big drinker at home/alone. You got this dawg!

 

I have no idea. It just came out of nowhere. It's a huge bummer.

I'm never going to do anything with my life at this rate.

 

Thank you! It's 100% a ritual. Like, I set aside Friday nights exclusively for drinks and watching movies, so I just need to find a healthy way to replace that part of the ritual.

 

Just find something else to drink to replace it in the ritual! A coworker of mine are working together to cut back on soda/energy drinks and have been repping Liquid Death pretty hard lol

 

liquid death mango has been doing wonders for me on that front.

 

Yeah I am a fan of diet sodas (specifically clear ones to avoid the kind of kidney stones I had), but I've been doing Crystal Light lately as a treat. Lots of water throughout the day.

 

I'm sorry for you loss :(

I had a dog growing up that was with my family for around 11 years. I was 19 at the time and the scene of her death caused PTSD. Despite living with that, I eventually was able to look at pictures of her and think of fond memories. I still cry, but its mostly a joyous cry. With time, your memories will eventually warm your heart, rather than break it.

 

Really not doing well right now. I've been sober since I got home from my Pittsburgh trip and that's a good thing, but I feel so torn between married life and my friends who aren't settled down. And the addictions they have and how tempting that substance abuse is to me. I'm not even torn -- I know what I want -- but I feel guilty for making mistakes or feeling tempted in the first place.

I'm dumb as hell, can't drive, I'm afraid to leave the house (and therefore struggle to see local friends), and constantly oscillate between feeling like I have too much or too little on my plate. I don't know what to do to level out. I'm tired of constantly feeling guilt and shame to the point of not wanting to be around. Sometimes there's a reason for those feelings, but other times, they're just there. I'm supposed to be planning to have a family soon, but what if I pass this on? Even ignoring the things I can't control, what if I can't keep myself together enough to me a parent?

Sorry. Spiraling.

 

Just wanted everyone to know I’m fine. I’ve had the stomach bug/food poisoning from hell. Been sick since last Thursday.

I lost 10 lbs because I have been too afraid to eat much and anything I do eat just goes right through me.

I’m soooo hungry lol

 

Finally got my ADHD/BED diagnosis from my current provider today after months of struggling and trying med combos that don’t work. I was finally prescribed Vyvanse. Get to the pharmacy and my prescription is over $320. The pharmacist was like let’s add your insurance and said “no wait. That’s with insurance. I’m so sorry.” Tried multiple online coupons and nothing.

Feeling defeated again despite knowing it will mostly be resolved tomorrow.

 

I posted this on another thread, but thought it might help here too:

real talk…this app is changing my life right now. It’s motivation to better myself and incredibly wholesome. My wife does it too and got me onto it. You make your own daily goals and your animal gets points to go on adventures and gets new clothes and foods to feed it. It can befriend other animals and randomly chill with them. So much to do in it and it’s all really helpful to me.

 

Aha my depression and anxiety has returned like a mother fucker. Back to meds and therapy I go

 

My wife was using that app for awhile! I’m using habitica which is basically an 8bit rpg about doing your daily tasks!

Getting my medication was a mess, but luckily my provider spent all of Thursday calling every pharmacy to find the lowest price for me. Couldn’t afford vyvanse, but did start Concerta yesterday.

Didn’t notice anything major yesterday, but today wow. I cleaned mopped my first floor, dusted, cleaned the kitchen, did eight loads of laundry, mowed the grass, raked leaves, and did a homework assignment. I don’t remember the last time I could complete…anything.

 

Just spiraling right now. Stressed to the max about money. Debts are out of control and I'm drowning in fees. Next few months are going to be rough af for the time as I do my best to keep my head above the water.

 

Yo, guess who else got prescribed Vyvanse?!

 

I hope it works for you!

My insurance is trash and they had to switch me to Concerta. It's been four days of taking the medication, but I don't really notice much with it. Definitely going to need a higher dosage.

 

Yeah, I took Concerta when I was much much younger. I hope it works for you too.

I hate playing these guessing games with my brain chemistry. I wish I could just like spit in a cup or have them extract some of my brain through my nose and test it and they could tell EXACTLY which meds would work best for me.