Mental Health Thread • Page 379

That’s so fucked. People are terrible. But I bet the wedding goes smoothly and you’ll have a great fucking day!!!

 

I am so, so sorry. That’s a horrible way to experience what should be a joyous part of your celebration. The only thing truly ugly about that situation was their small, dark little souls that chose to feed on your happiness because something in their own lives has clearly left an empty space they feel the need to fill with resentment and anger. The things they had to say were mere projections. I hope you have an amazing wedding day and leave that negativity behind you in the dust where it belongs.

 

Hi Aaron

Sorry to hear that happened to you, I hope you all still could enjoy some of your evening, or was it totally ruined? Also, did you see my responses to your last message to me? Thanks.

 

That’s terrible :(

 

even during times of sobriety I’ve been pretty horrible about my money, which stems from being even worse when I’m using and spending everything I have the minute I have enough, but I’ve come up with a solution to really help me hold myself accountable and keep my money in order. I’m making cash tips every shift I work which can also not be a great thing in the context of drug use but using this system really helps mitigate that, I can always lie about how much I make any given shift and take whatever amount I want to go use, but it still feels good to be this organized and actually be making enough to make ends meet and then some which also has never really been in the case mostly due to my horrible spending habits but also just the cost of living back in Philly being ridiculous.

 

I’ll fly up there and kick some ass I swear to fucking god man

 

I am not doing well and sometimes I wonder if I would even still be alive if my parents hadn't raised me on a fear of Hell

Don't worry I'm not in danger or anything, just been feeling down lately.

 

I don’t reach out a lot on this thread because I worry about not being helpful but I’m drunk and fuck it. I’ve been there, I’ve had many moments where the buts are the only reasons I have to keep going. My parents raised me with a fear of hell and I don’t even believe in it anymore but I’m still here. The reasons are there even if you can’t see them now. I want you to still be here now. I hope that helps. That old Spider-Man avatar was dope btw

 

Thanks a lot I really appreciate it, that truly means a lot to me to hear. Haha thanks! Maybe I'll bring it out of retirement sometime now that Halloweens over

 

I’m not telling you how to live your life, I just terrorized Woodland CA my whole 5th year of life in a Spider-Man costume. Game respect game.

 

thank you for all the kind responses. our wedding day was legitimately perfect. perfect family, perfect friends, perfect food, and people danced. we both looked fantastic. couldn't ask for anything better.

that being said, I have self-control issues and couldn't say no to all the drinks and shots people were buying me. I effectively ruined our wedding night and I feel horrible about it -- it might be the worst thing I've ever done. she's being very understanding about it after we talked the next day but I will be working very hard for a very long time to try and make up for it.

we're also sick (not COVID) on our honeymoon and while it hasn't ruined it or anything, it's definitely put a damper on things. had to stay in Wednesday and move our breakfast reservation to tomorrow. we're masking up anytime we're indoors... not sure what else we can do about it. tomorrow's our last day, so I'm praying our noses stop running. send good vibes friends

 

@ItsJoe sorry friend, I may have but as noted I'm on my honeymoon - give me a couple of days and I will absolutely get back to you on Saturday friend

 

Hi Aaron, I hope you're both have an amazing time. Thank you :).

 

thank you!

 

My anxiety is so bad. I wake up either immediately stressing or the stress literally is what wakes me up. I just had to work thru some nausea due to anxiety. It's the weekend. I'm not even in an anxious situation today. People often tell me to find a new job/career and yeah my job causes me tons of stress but honestly even if I took out my job, if there's nothing for me to stress about my brain will create something. It'll imagine hypothetical scenarios or what if's until im stressed out. I hate it. I don't know how to relax.

 

It's been real bad recently. Being alone is tough. Constantly feeling like I'm not good enough for anyone or anything. Social media makes it all so much worse. Seeing so many younger people happy and talented and I'm just so envious of others.

 

The weather has got incredibly grim and we're already running on minimal sunlight at the moment in the UK (it's only November ffs), and it's hit me like a train this year.

Trying to deal with it with exercising more and using a SAD lamp whilst working, but everything feels like a slog to get through and I'm feeling constantly down.

November sucks!

 

Been in this apartment for about a month now. It’s kinda nice having my own place without having to worry about other people but the loneliness is a new thing. My daughter stays here when I’m not working a late shift and when she’s not here, I just feel so lonely. I can’t make myself watch TV or do anything else, I spend more time in bed on my phone.

Plus, the weight of the world is just exhausting me, I’m tired of being scared of tomorrow.

 

2 weeks off my SSRI:

 

the crippling sense of loneliness I’ve felt my entire life is starting to creep in more often now that I’ve gotten into my own groove and routine living on my own and working

 

I would not do well living on my own.

 

I thrive on being around friends and family as much as possible

 

I did the living alone thing for a good 8 months before my brother and I found the place we are in now. Being alone was good and bad for me. I could totally do it again but I'd rather not to be honest.

 

I’ve been living on my own for 7 months now and it has destroyed my mental health. Probably going to be moving back home when my lease is up. It will be a little embarrassing but hey at least I’ll save money and want to die less

 

Living alone for two years fucked me up so much, I don’t think you should be embarrassed. It’s perfectly valid especially in the world now.