Mental Health Thread • Page 372

I'm sorry. When I have this much going on, it always feels like a Rubik's cube. In my situation, I remember thinking, "So I need money for a car...but I need a car to get to the job to make money to pay for the car..." and it often felt like I would never get that first side of the cube solved. Wishing you some luck soon.

 

I have 2 car payments left and once that is over, I'll be fine. But the fact someone has to point out I'm poor at the moment realllllllllllllly pisses me off. Let's just all be happy I'm actually eating. I always make sure I pay rent to my brother every 2 weeks when I get paid, then I replenish my cats food stock and cat litter. I can live off PBJ, Ramen and grilled cheese for a week no problem, but when someone who has money, goes on vacation all the time and has a lexus wants to make me feel like a loser, it really hits hard.

I also forgot to put my necklace on today that holds my grandpas ashes....so I'm feeling super guilty, sad, annoyed and pissed off about everything. I want restart to the day so bad.

 

And thank you for letting me rant @Aaron Mook

 

Haha always, it's what we're all here for. I hope the rest of your day goes by quick! Tomorrow is a new start.

 

Hi all, I wanted to share the joy I have currently been experiencing, I hope it doesn't come off as 'rubbing it in' or anything but I don't think it will.

I moved back home to NJ, to the town I grew up in nearly 3 weeks ago, an amazing new job became available through a friend and I jumped on it right away. I was worried I was hyping up home or that I may not really enjoy it as much as I used to and let me tell you, I am enjoying every single solitary second more than I ever thought I would.

I don't know if I have ever been more truly content and happy in my life, and it is amazing to say that. In acknowledging that, I am making sure I do EVERYTHING possible to make myself the best me possible. I joined the crossfit gym here right down the street from me (only thing that works for me) and I also did an initial assessment with a therapist up here, I start bi-weekly with him starting on the 20th.

The eight years I spent in Florida had a lot of ups and downs, but I always reminded myself to just get up that day and do what I was supposed to. When circumstances or singular days got really bad, I reached out to people and let them know exactly what was going on (including users on here) and that got me through that day.

All of those experiences, good, bad and horrible, made me who I am today, and I have come back to my hometown, where I have a lot of friends still and of course family and can be the person those 8 years shaped me to be. I am so proud of the person I have become and it has only become prevalent being up here in a completely new environment.

The change is remarkable compared to what I was like growing up here.

I am just so fulfilled right now and I never thought I would feel this way.

 

Hell yeah!

 

I am soooo happy to hear this Dan!

 

Fuck yea!

 

proud of you @oldjersey

 

Thank you Mikey, thank you for being a good friend.

 

It's so weird when people comment on others food in that way. Like unless you're commenting on how delicious someone's food looks, back off. I remember once I got some vegetarian fast food thing on my break and was so excited to even have the option to quickly pick up a vegetarian item in the drive thru because for most of my life I haven't had that luxury, and a coworker had to be like "you know that's not healthy though, right?" Like no, I had no idea the fried food I'm eating isn't healthy lol. And ramen is just delicious I'm not even sorry. It's just wild to me that people say stuff like that. You never know someone's financial situation or if they have food/eating disorder issues or whatever. I'm sorry you're dealing with that

 

Thank you! people suck, but yesterday I was already very emotional and didn't need someone commenting on my food. Its food. Period. I needed to eat so I wouldn't pass out...comments from someone who drives a 70k car and has a house on the cape was not needed...but sometimes rich people have zero filter and that's ok. I got a good nights sleep and got some coffee and a bagel on the way to work since I worked 3 hours of instacart last night and made $50.

 

I'm so lonely and it's just been really bothering me this week. I just have no one at all and it just sucks so bad. I've always had a hard time making friends and have never had a partner so I should be used to being alone by now but I still hate it! I just have no idea how to meet people, especially in my area. I finally called around to a few places to volunteer at (not a lot of options around here....) and most either didn't need any volunteers or didn't work with my work schedule. I finally found one place and was really excited, got there and I was the only person under the age of like 70. Which is fine and I enjoyed it but not exactly a place to make friends. It's just I spend all day, every day by myself and some company would be nice that isn't my nephews... I love them dearly but I need some people who can actually relate to me.

 

I'm sorry. My fiancee and I's only adult longterm friends have all moved across the country, so while we have a group chat to stay in touch, we've been feeling the cabin fever as well. We've been making more of an effort to do things with coworkers on the weekends, spend time with family, and I've been joining local Facebook groups for some of my interests (music, screenwriting, horror, etc.) They're not the best solutions, but they've helped. I hope something works for you soon!

It shouldn't feel so weird to try and make new friends as an adult. I lowkey asked like five different people at my new job if they'd want to get lunch or drinks sometime and literally NO ONE took my up on it. I felt like a psycho, but I guess a lot of people just don't really do things outside of work with each other here.

 

Yeah all my old friends moved or now have families so I just never see anyone anymore. So now I'm trying to think of anything to meet people but it's hard living in a rural area. I'm like 99% sure I'm the only person who lives here under the age of 60 that isn't married with children lol FB groups is a good idea, thanks for the suggestion! I might have to actually go back on there and see what I can find bc I've tried everything else I can think of. I really need to move to a better area so hopefully that'll happen soon. I think that would help a lot since there's just not really much here.

 

I feel your pain. I'm not really comfortable going out to bars post-COVID yet (nor do I have the money) and almost all of my coworkers are five years younger than me or 10 years older. Wishing you luck!

 

@oldjersey just put on your new podcast episode! so excited!!!

 

nice lil shout out to the single gals out there in the end

Great episode buddy! so glad to hear you're back home and livin' your best life!!!

 

Co-worker just asked me why I'm not eating lunch today and it took everything in my not to say "because I don't want to be made fun of for eating Ramen again this week." Instead, I said "I'm just not very hungry rn" when I'm actually fucking starving.

 

As a picky eater, I hate when people similarly put the spotlight on me for not eating with everyone else. Just enjoy your meal and let me be.

 

Its just annoying to be reminded that I had to pick car insurance over food shopping last pay day and i'm just trying to eat the food I do have to survive. I would love nothing more than a pizza or a sub or a burger right now.

This also just gives me more fuel and rage to go do a few ours of instacart after work so I can buy myself a fucking pizza and fries for dinner tonight lol.

 

I want laser treatment to address my skin concerns, but I have major anxiety just thinking about making a consult appointment and talking about said concerns. I don’t want to end up crying in the docs office. This office is in a part of the town I don’t like to drive in, anxiety. Laser is also expensive and I don’t exactly have the funds. But it’s been effecting my mental health since forever.

 

I know the feeling. I don’t have many friends. They end up moving because life happens. No partner either. I hate being lonely. Hate having no one to spend time with or do fun things and I’m just wasting away. Online dating isn’t easy where I live because most of them don’t fit my basic preferences (no kids, smoking, drugs..). I get no matches. And if I do they end up ghosting me

 

Oh yeah dating is the worsttttt. I tried online dating once and everyone in my area was like wearing a trump hat or their whole profile was “I like hunting and beer” and them posing in front of their huge truck. So my options here aren’t great either lol plus I’m very insecure about never having dated anyone before and have been made fun of about it before so I just have it in my head no one will want to date me bc of that. Very hard to unlearn those things but I’m trying!