im just saying i find my cf (chronic fatigue) tough and it is hard to get by so exhausted, any kind words from here would be nice thanks :)
I relate to this feeling. I’m pretty much always exhausted. I can get by if I’m at work, but if it’s a day off I have to nap or I feel super sleepy, which makes it hard to hangout with friends. I’m pretty sure I have some undiagnosed illness that goes infected on blood tests. My gp told me to exercise and it’ll help, but I know it doesn’t work because when I tried that years ago it just made me MORE tired.
I have chronic fatigue, which has been pretty bad lately, from my Crohn’s Disease. I wish I had answers for how to combat or fix it but I don’t, just know how you’re feeling and how tough it can be.
Body dysmorphia issues are so obnoxious. Caught myself in one instance feeling devastated how my body looked in a series of photos, while in the next breath commenting my jeans were too big now and I need to size down. And I didn't even immediately connect the thoughts as being somewhat conflicting. It's so trippy truly having no concept of how I look. I'll be feeling super confident and it only takes one "bad" photo for me to spiral and see a completely different version of myself. Or it'll work the opposite way. I'll be feeling discouraged and see my body in a negative light, get a compliment on my body, and then for the next few days in the mirror I'll see this slender fit version of myself when the day before I thought I was huge (which shouldnt even matter if i am). I truly have no concept of my actual appearance. I wish I could give myself as much grace as I give others. Others appearance barely even registers on my radar but I'm hyperfixated on my own.
I have a commute to work now and I spend at least 75% of it seething with rage and the dumb fucks who believe going 5 below in the left lane is the way things should be.
I’m going to go no more than 45 as I merge and then inexplicably brake as I get closer to the highway and then look confused why people behind me honk and why no one on the highway is slowing down to let me in!!!!!
Personally I prefer to come to a dead stop on a merge lane and just sit there for 2-3 minutes waiting for a 2 mile gap between cars so I can merge.
They're right. It is brutal being miserable all the time. So I just won't deal with it anymore. Peace.
I feel like I’m missing context, or this is a concerning post. If you need help or want to talk, please PM me here. We can exchange a chat messenger info or numbers if you want faster responses. Please don’t give up. Reach out for help.
I’ll echo what the others have said. I always appreciate your posts and I’m certainly hoping that your post here doesn’t mean you’re considering making a decision that cannot be undone. I hope you’re okay.
The absolutely fucked thing about depression is how it can smack you like a brick fucking wall even when things are seemingly good. Like, better than they ever have been. I have a record coming out. I'm getting married. I finally have a job that treats me well. And a single text message from a friend who is clearly unstable now has me not eating and in bed before 6pm. There's a lot of talk about "cutting toxic people out," but it worries me when that becomes someone's reflex as opposed to working something out with someone you consider a friend. But at what point do you say, "This is only getting worse and will continue to effect my mental health in unnecessary ways until I distance myself from the root cause?" I mean, I'm now questions my worth as a partner, a friend, and a human being. Sorry for the vent. Just feeling extremely fucked right now.
I reached out to Jason and I was told they asked for their account to be deleted. So I don’t think we will get a response. But no harm in sending well wishes in case they do come back.
This is a combination of dating thread and mental health thread. I’m lowkey jealous of people I know getting engaged or married. I just don’t feel like my time will ever come. I put a lot of effort into trying to date because I can’t survive alone. I have health problems that will only get worse. Maybe won’t even be able to work one day. Then I’ll have no insurance because American sucks like that. And idk how I’ll pay for treatments. Or have anyone take care of me or take me to the doctor if needed. I’m also tired of being alone and want someone to spend time with. It’s really depressing. I can’t vent to anyone so I’m stuck here doing it and even half the time I don’t post my feels because of the backlash. It’s mentally draining having to do everything on your own, especially when you physically can’t do the most simplest tasks at times. I honestly don’t think my person lives in my area or even the same state. At minimal all I ask is for someone that doesn’t smoke, so drugs, had or wants kids. That’s in itself hard to find. Also someone in their 30s who takes dating seriously, also hard to find where I live. It’s so hard to keep going on like this.
My fiancee and I have been doing Weight Watchers, and she's lost 15 pounds, looks amazing (not that she didn't before), but I'm afraid of weighing myself and trying to use clothes as a tangible way to measure any change. I think I'm getting there, I've cut down eating out to one day a week and now average about two miles a day because of my job and the distance form the bus stop to my house. That's nothing for some people, but after two years of working from the couch and literally never exercising, it feels like a win. All that being said, I wish I could celebrate that progress (or the fact that I got bloodwork back recently and it was all good) as opposed to still losing my mind about what the end result will be, how I will look at my wedding, how I will look for my partner, and whether looking at my wedding photos/videos will trigger me for up to a week at a time. Being "a big guy" shouldn't be and isn't even a bad thing, but when you're surrounded by media that constantly comments on weight and family members that don't understand being sensitive to body image issues, it starts to feel like the singular thing that defines you. And that sucks, because I want to be more than just "a big guy." I want to be able to like me for me without catching a glimpse of myself in the mirror and having my day ruined.