Mental Health Thread • Page 359

Being single can really suck. I have no one to help with dishes, laundry, cooking, and even cleaning etc. It’s all me. It’s so overwhelming. I’m easily tired so I can’t do everything myself. There’s no one to cook while I do laundry at the communal laundry room or vise versa, etc. Most days I want someone to vent to but I have no one. If I get really sick who’s is going to drive me to the doctor? No one.

 

Multiply this by being a single dad and you have me. I try to keep a routine that includes social time and do have venting outlets, not sure if you have close friends nearby or can call anyone regularly but that helps a lot. It is hard though, I understand. You’ll meet someone eventually and if you’re like me I always miss parts of being single while I’m in a relationship so I really try to focus on the things I like about it.

 

I don’t have many friends. Tbh I don’t think I’ll meet anyone any time soon. Maybe not even at all. Not as long as I’m stuck in the crappy town I live in. And moving is easier said than done. I’ve tried the apps for years and no luck. As I’ve gotten older there are less and less guys that I find interesting on the apps. I sit in my tiny apartment most of the time being bored with no one to do anything with. It’s really depressing

 

Anyone have experience with OCD? Slowly realizing that I maybe have been exhibiting symptoms of it my entire life and they've recently become intrusive.

 

For me, Not in the way people think. Although I do think I’m undiagnosed adhd and perhaps bipolar

 

ive been clean for over four months now. i never thought id be able to say those words again. 22 months ago i lost my year clean and its been one nightmare after another with very little clean time in there, usually only resulting from extended rehab stays. last summer/fall i got about 3 months but fell off harder than i ever had before and came closer to death than i really realized. i thought for sure i was once again doomed and couldn't get my footing again. it was extremely rough in december and january and i really did not think i was going to get through it. today i can confidently say that the desire to use has completely left me. it took a lot to get to this point and theres no guarantees it'll last but for now, i finally feel like i can breathe. like there isnt this thing weighing me down and ruining my life from the inside out. im actually.... me again. and that's a whole other can of worms i have to face in the coming months but for once im ready for it.

 

i dont have OCD per se but addiction is thought to be a compulsion disorder in a lot of ways so i guess some of my symptoms cross over and fall under the umbrella of OCD. i did two TMS therapy protocols for 6 weeks, one for depression and one used for OCD and it has definitely helped in controlling my more compulsive behaviors that lead me to addiction

 

That makes sense, I'm glad you've found some alleviation! I'm struggling more with unwanted thoughts at this point.

Congrats on over four months clean!

 

Yeah fun huh

 

So fun!

 

trust me i know all too well about intrusive thoughts that you cant control or quiet down. ive done some EMDR work with my therapist as well to help control that which has helped, if you have any trauma even if relatively small that could be something to consider as well. a good therapist in general could point you in the right direction of how to treat some of your symptoms.

 

I really think I have adhd but my addiction issues in the past would make it hard to get anything for it.

 

Ugh this can be so complicated but not impossible if you find a good provider. Idk what your resources are, but if there is a provider who specializes in addiction they may help. Even in my old podunk town we had a med prescriber who worked within an outpatient treatment center and helped a lot of ppl with addiction issues out with meds. As you may know already it's super common for those with addiction issues to unknowingly be self medicating for adhd. I've seen people with addiction make complete turn arounds once they get an adhd diagnosis and get properly treated for it. Seriously like it opens an entire world for them as they get that "wtf this has been the problem the entire time?!" Moment. But yeah with the stigma and all it can be hard and discouraging so I def don't wanna make it seem like some easy miracle solution. I hope you're able to figure something out!

 

thank you! Right now I just see my PCP who knows of my addiction issues and doesn’t want to prescribe me anything. I’ll seek out some sort of specialist in addiction issues. I appreciate the insight.

 

I also feel like I have adhd. I also know I have depression and anxiety. Idk how to go about trying to get an official diagnosis and meds because I don’t want to seem drug seeking. Although meds won’t help my depression

 

What makes you think it’s ADHD specifically? I’ve read symptom lists and noticed a decent number of behaviors I see in myself, but I’ve always assumed it was just similar problems caused by my anxiety. Asking out of personal curiosity, not to second guess or anything.

 

Those w/ PTSD, it might be time to start getting hyped

 

Called out of work again today. Can’t even tell them the truth, that the combination of my dying mother, the state of the world, and my ever present anxiety has me suffering to a degree where I just can’t be bothered to come deliver shitty food today. And yet there’s that feeling of guilt. I have missed a decent amount of days lately. I don’t know if it’s my religious upbringing, or the fangs of capitalism destroying my spirit, but it’s hard for me to even relax after calling out. I want to believe things will get better, but it’s felt like for the last few years that something that was once present in my conscious reality has left to never return. Like nothing will ever be the same, and the good in life is just gone.

 

Person behind the desk: “who are you here to see?”
Me: “I have my first appointment with Kevin today.”
Person: “ok, he’s probably still with a client”
*talking fish head from Spongebob saying “45 minutes later”*
Another worker: “someone said you’re here to see Kevin?”
Me: “yep”
Him: “he doesn’t work here anymore.”
Me, confused: “I talked to him on the phone on Tuesday.
Him: “he walked out yesterday.”

Sorry, I’m just in disbelief lol

 

Dodged a bullet there tbh, a therapist that walks out leaving their patients high and dry is extremely unprofessional

 

not the point of your post but lmao how oblivious or not in the loop is that first worker you talked to lol.

 

probably different for mental health workers but in my industry (service) someone walking out might not get around for a few days but that’s probably because it happens all the time in my field lol

 

Sorry to hear that happened. The fact that the worker didn’t even know he didn’t work there anymore shows how poor communication is going on. And I’m not sure they’re scheduling system, but usually you book under a certain doctor, therefore they should have known to update the schedule and notify patients.

 

I really wish people wouldn’t say you could talk to them about anything, any time when they don’t actually want you to. It feels like shit and is sooooo embarrassing. I know they’re trying to be nice but actually, it makes things worse because you feel ashamed of your emotions.

For me, when I do try to talk to someone, it almost feels like I’m verbally attacking someone. I’m just talking to a friend or acquaintance about life stuff and I mention the miserable poverty I have to live in simply because of the way I was born. A decent amount of sympathy would do. They mostly have pretty good lives but don’t know how to understand the kind of situations you’re in so they look at you like a three-headed dragon and contemplate what they could possibly say. At the end of the day, they don’t really, actually care because if they did, they would be just as outraged that someone they’re friends with has to live like that.

It’s really hard to find people that care about you, even if you think you’re good friends. I just wish it wasn’t, it’s such a lonely friggin world. I’m lucky I have a therapist but there’s only so much nodding they can do because they feel so bad for you. Unfortunately, a lot of people lack compassion and empathy for anyone in a different situation than themselves.

 

This. It’s irritating when people say “I’m here to talk if you want”, and when you hit them up they get annoyed and tell you to “let it go” or whatever. It feels terrible to be shut out when someone says they’ll be there for you. We all go through hard times. And then people wonder why other people are closed off and don’t want to talk about stuff