Mental Health Thread • Page 358

Growing up is 1000% one of the worst things in life

 

so my grandfather passed away this morning. it hasnt really fully hit me but i know it will at the funeral. i am excited to go home and see my family this weekend and get a little break from work. other than that though things are as good as they could possibly be and this wont throw a wrench in my ongoing progress at all

 

Glad to see some positivity persisting through the bad news. Hope it all goes well.

 

I hate not having a SO to vent to about my day

 

about to fly back from the funeral. not really sure how to feel. my emotions have been all over the place, I’ve been snapping at people for no reason and getting very upset over nothing and causing and picking fights both IRL and online and the latter is like my absolute biggest trigger for wanting to use drugs again…not to mention going back to Philly after a trip back home has historically been a huge relapse scenario for me in the past…and I had some super intense dreams about rehab again that I haven’t been able to shake…I don’t want to use but when shit gets like this it’s hard to not sometimes no matter how simple it seems to just not use when I’m feeling like this my brain starts telling me the complete opposite. Im sure I’m gonna be fine and get thru it but in the meantime I just hate this squirrelly feeling I get when I feel like I’m just on the cusp of doing something wrong. But I’m not gonna do anything wrong just gonna cope the way I know how to cope when I get home tonight with weed and elden ring

 

So I hit my head really hard getting into a car and the first thing I think of is “oh fuck, am I going to die like bob saget?”, anyone else feel like that? Between thinking I should go to the hospital immediately and oh, should stop because I’m probably overthinking this whole thing, it’s stressful

 

I do this all the time. Anxiously going back and forth from thinking an unexpected injury/pain is nothing to wondering if I’m ignoring a fatal warning sign. When COVID was first starting I convinced myself I was dying from it every time my allergies acted up.

 

This was me a few weeks ago, convinced myself I was crazy, and turned out I went two weeks with an untreated broken elbow lol

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Actually I guess that's the exact opposite, I clearly can't read

 

I definitely understand that, during the peak of the pandemic I started getting really bad pains and went to the hospital only to realize it was just gerd. Which was a whole nother thing because apparently if someone lets reflux get bad you could get really sick so I was just eating plain chicken and rice for almost every meal lol

 

I slammed my head the other day like an hour before bed and I was in full fucking panic mode. You're not overthinking things, I just think that most of us who grew up with Bob on TV...we took his death so hard. And the older I get, the more worried about shit like this I become. Its scary af.

 

I'm just starting my mid March Allergy journey as I do every single year and yeah....Keep going back and forth "Is this my normal shit or Covid?!?!" Its annoying as hell.

 

Yeah, it’s really scary. Years and years ago (before my anxiety got a more comfortable couch), I used to just have a hard time sleeping because I was worried I wouldn’t wake up for some reason. It was so bad that I would tell my ex (we were dating at the time) “if anything happens to me, just know that I love you” more than not.


This article really calmed me down, going to be on high alert the next three hours, though lol

After Bob Saget's Death, a Q&A on Head Injuries

 

I'll have to check this out later when I get home from work. I live with my youngest brother and when we moved in I made sure he knew where all my medical info was if something bad happens, along with my "If I go missing" Folder. Can't be to careful when you're a single gal living in Worcester, MA.

 

Basically, it says that you shouldn’t sleep for three hours and look out for those symptoms. That’s really scary, it is good you have someone who can help if something happens. I always have the thought that I’m not sure anyone would even care if something happened or was happening to me.

 

I have those thoughts all the time since I've been single for 2 years. But people do care. Just know that!

 

I always wonder these days like, when someone dies, how do they find out how to pay all their bills and shit? If my parents died I don’t even know how many credit cards they have let alone how much debt and when is the electric bill due and do they have it automatically taken out of checking or charged to a card? And if I died how would they know all my bills or if I still had student loans how would they get in contact with the government to turn off payments or make them themselves?

long story short I have a “account info in case I die or go missing because I know that’s not the immediate concern or issue but eventually it will be because that’s life” and then I worry if someone breaks into my apartment while I’m alive and not missing they find that and have all my passwords and shit and I have all sorts of newly created problems lmao

 

The company would have to be given a copy of the death certificate or proof the individual passed away. The debt would essentially be cancelled unless there is a co-signer, who would then be responsible for the debt or bills.

When bills or debts aren't being payed, they'll send letters to the mailing address on file for the account. Some companies might call the number listed on the file.

 

My parents started planning for all that about 10 years ago. Anything happens to my dad or step mom, my brother and I won't have to figure out all the details cause everything is already in place. Sounds so morbid but I'm glad we won't have to worry about anything.

When my step father passed away in 2020 (not covid related....he had very advanced cancer)...within 2 weeks of diagnosis, he was gone and my mom was left with all this shit to do. I think once you hit 35-40...you should have all your things in order, especially if you have a house and kids and a wife/husband/partner, because you never know what is going to happen.

 

I'm being put on methylphenidate and I'm so excited to be treating my ADHD again. Adderall was a life changer, but I stopped it because it made me super irritatable as it wore off. My psych doc thinks I'll have a better time with this one, so fingers crossed.

I feel like it's been a huge contributer to my lack of self worth and anxiety. Constantly feeling like I'm zoning out during important work meetings or training videos, and then beating myself up about potentially falling behind. It's been really rough.

 

I need to go see an actual psychiatrist. My pcp put me on a few things for depression/anxiety but they aren’t really doing anything.

 

That was my experience with meds from my PCP as well. After meeting with my psych nurse practitioner, she ended up diagnosing me with bipolar 2. I feel like the meds helped for awhile.. but I've been really struggling lately. I need to get back into therapy badly. My therapist stopped accepting my health insurance years ago and I never looked for a new one. Fuck United Healthcare.

 

Ughh the Ritalin was definitely helping but my heart rate and blood pressure shot up to 130bpm and 140/93. And it's not even a big dose. Guessing my doctor might not want me to stay on it

 

Starting to get bad anxiety again, had some things happen and it’s been out of control. Can’t concentrate on anything. Really hate that constant feeling in my stomach. Made a therapy appointment for Monday, hopefully I can get it under control quickly.

 

Can anyone help with this?
All my life, I’ve had a ridiculous startle reflex, but it’s been getting worse. Someone could walk into a room I’m in, and I’d jump and even scream a little. If I turn the corner in a hallway and see someone, it happens too. Sometimes I leave the bathroom, walk into the living room, see my wife on the couch, and jump. I legit feel like I’m having a heart attack. I read it’s when people have anxiety, but it’s when I’m not feeling anxious too. It makes people feel bad and I keep insisting it’s a me thing.

 

I’m not sure how helpful this will be but I used to have the same issue. It still pops up from time to time. A big part of the root of it for me was feeling helpless and physically weak, which I didn’t realize until I did a small stint of kickboxing as well as jiu jitsu. Feeling like I had options in the event something was actually happening helped reduce it quite a bit for me. Your’s could be stemming from something different but hopefully this can be a start point of sorts? If you have any other questions feel free to DM me