Mental Health Thread • Page 355

I’m so fucking broke I can’t even scrape enough change together to get a soda. I asked my parents for money yesterday, on Christmas, and they straight up ignored me. My girlfriend hasn’t worked in two weeks so she’s not getting a paycheck this week so I have no fucking idea what I’m going to do. I have to get myself to and from my TMS sessions and my IOP program, I can’t even afford to go pick up my prescriptions which I need to not go fucking insane, and all I want right now is a fucking one dollar can of soda and I can’t fucking afford it. What’s the point of being sober if this is what it’s gonna be like.

 

Your sobriety will be what’s best for you, please don’t give up. can I send you some money?

 

I feel terrible doing this but I’m in a horrible situation and not sure what else to do.

my cash app is $jakej65 if anyone wants to help, literally any little amount will help out. again I feel fucking pathetic doing this but not sure what else to do

 

You are not pathetic, you are an amazing person.

 

Do you have venmo?

 

For sure been in that spot before, happy to help

 

jake-jenkins-1, seriously I cannot stress how much this means to me I’m in tears right now

 

sorry it’s jake-Jenkins-1 not Jacob I edited my post hopefully you caught it

 

For sure gotchu. It’s not Jacob-Jenkins-22? Only asking cause my phone seems to know that one and Jacob-Jenkins-1 thumbnail doesn’t look like you

 

That’s my other one that I can’t seem to get into right now lol

 

Think it went through

 

Some weird shit happened when I switched phone numbers and I was using the 22 one for a while and now I can’t remember the password but somehow I know the password for the other one lol

 

Holy shit you are a SAINT I cannot stress enough what this means to me I promise I got you any time you need anything (when I’m in a better position to help which hopefully will be soon)

 

@sophos34 neither venmo or the cash app are available in Australia, such bullshit. Is there any other way I can help you?

 

Literally don’t give it a thought. For years I was frequently in a position relatively similar to yours and I’m lucky enough to be out like you will be soon. I’m just happy to be able to help

 

thank you so much but Cody sent plenty to get me through the next few days, it really does mean a lot to me y’all were so ready to help I can’t express enough how thankful I am

 

you are worth it! Like Cody, I’ve been in a similar situation and have friends who get messed around by late government payments; I know that a dollar makes all the difference in whether you eat or drink. I’d do anything to help people I care about. You’re not pathetic by asking for help

 

I made an appointment with my GP in a few weeks because that’s the only time open and what I can do that doesn’t conflict with work much. I have severe anxiety just thinking about it.

 

i'm completely burnt out from work. my mom and dad both have covid, dad has made a turn for the better but mom's oxygen levels have started to dip. i feel just completely mentally tired and drained and like i should take a mental health day tomorrow, but i'm getting anxiety about texting my boss that i need a day off. like should i just tough it out and keep going or take the day off

 

I’ve been feeling alright lately, finances are in a much more stable place and that little bit of help from Cody made all the difference so again I cannot say thank you enough and it goes to show how amazing this community is.


Other than that though I’ve been struggling really hard with very intense and vivid dreams of either using drugs or getting drugs or of being back in rehab and every time I have one of them I wake up feeling awful and craving like fuck. My psychiatrist is prescribing me a sleep med usually used for PTSD to hopefully help with that so we’ll see how it goes but it’s really unpredictable when I’ll have the dreams like sometimes it’s when I nap sometimes it’s when I usually sleep

 

On top of this one of the family pets had to be put to sleep 4 days before Christmas. My depression and seasonal affective disorder are destroying me and today, due to covid worries, I had to give up on a trip to London next weekend that was basically the only thing that got me through to the new year. Heartbroken, depressed, miserable. I don't know if I'm suicidal but in the back of my mind is the thought that this year is just going to go to shit too and I'm barely hanging on as it is.

Hearing about covid incessantly makes me want to hurt myself even more than I already do and my head is absolutely fried. I'm approaching absolute despair. I can't catch a break and I genuinely feel like one more setback will cause me to snap. I'm fucking drowning and waiting for the other shoe to drop. I'm just so tired of the pain I have had to endure ceaselessly for my 29 years on this earth.

 

Well, I tested positive for covid today. Mild cold symptoms last three days, but now my anxiety is freaking me out. Started to have panic attacks in August, anxiety has been bad ever since. Hoping this is the worst of it.

 

Went to the dr today for a routine check up since it’s been forever. Answered the depression and anxiety questions truthfully this time. In the past when my depression was really bad I lied on someone or all because I didn’t want to get committed to a hospital. Well nothing was said about it. I mentioned my tiredness and nothing much was done except ordered blood work and recommended exercising. Last time I tried exercising I felt worse. I felt more tired. So idk what to do

 

I can't decide if I'm on the upswing or if I'm just manic and excited because I'm entering a final spiral I won't come back from just as I always knew I would.

 

Throughout my fitness and weight loss stuff I've tried really hard to surround myself with body neutral stuff and not psych myself out or go down a self hating or disordered mindset and I've been doing pretty well, but lately I am so hard on myself for whatever I eat or don't eat and my image and whether I exercised enough or not. I think I'm going through so much change in my life lately and even tho it's hopefully positive change I think my brain is trying to regain a sense of control by getting control of my body and it's not helpful at all.