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Mental Health Thread • Page 351

Discussion in 'General Forum' started by AelNire, Mar 9, 2016.

  1. Kiana

    Goddamn, man child Prestigious

    Ugh I felt this way once when my car caught on fire on the highway. Someone did pull over to help but others just pulled over to take pics and video. Feels so violating. I hope you guys have a good support system and are well
     
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  2. Carmen SD

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    I have a hard time completing tasks. Some days my dishes pile up in the sink for days. Some days I’ll wash them but they sit in the dry rack for days. On my days off I’m mostly lazy and unproductive. I get tired really easy and want to nap. My self care has been lacking since covid last year. I’m just a mess and don’t know how to get out of it
     
  3. Jams

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    I hate being so shy. That plus my social anxiety just fucks so much up for me. Making friends is really really hard for me because if it. And I went to an event today and saw someone I went to school with. We weren’t really friends but we got along fine. He added me on FB awhile back and it seems like we have a lot in common so I was determined to go say hi to him but of course I chickened out and walked right by him instead. Then I saw someone who actually was a friend of mine and I haven’t seen in a few years so you would think it’d be easy for me to go say hi but nope. Avoided them too. Why am I like thissss?????? I have no friends at all and want some so bad but I’m not going to make any when I can’t even say a simple hello to people I know!
     
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  4. Carmen SD

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    I feel like a failure and feel like I’m going no where in life. I picked an “easy” route for a major while in school than I actually wanted to do because my living situation was very toxic that I needed to leave ASAP and that was the quickest way. The hard part is I don’t speak of what made it toxic and I fear if and when I do find someone, my “person” I’ll have to share that. It was a very dark time for me. Part of the reason why I never talk about my “family”. The whole thing makes me angry and everything needs an explanation. I just can’t do it. How do you open up about something so dark that you never spoke of
     
  5. sophos34

    Prestigious Supporter

    everything feels so empty
     
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  6. RyanPm40

    The Torment of Existence Supporter

    I'm feeling so lost these days. I'm just not happy. I need help but can't find the motivation to actually find me a therapist. I'm missing work when I shouldnt. I'm down to one vacation/sick day left for the month and am terrified of running out in an emergency situation. I'm overwhelmed. I just don't even know where to begin
     
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  7. Vase Full Of Rocks

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    Delta and Delta plus are freaking me out and my family. I hate all of it.
     
  8. Every time I feel hopeful or positive, we’re plunged into another lockdown. There is no end date to living like this. I don’t see a light at the end of the tunnel even though it’s probably only months away.
     
  9. Nyquist

    I must now go to the source Supporter

    So I’ve been going through the interview process since late June for what is essentially my dream job. Phone interviews, then Zoom, and then in person. They just let me know today I didn’t get it. This on top of everything with my house and our cars…I am feeling extremely defeated. I feel like there’s nothing left in the tank and I don’t think I can take much more. I’m so emotionally exhausted. I want to cry but I just don’t have anything left. I feel completely numb.
     
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  10. oldjersey

    Pro STREAMER ON TWITCH Supporter

    My heart goes out to you my friend, please understand that this nightmare will end at sometime, who knows when and where but remind yourself that this is not forever. The journey back to where you would like to be may be long or it may be much shorter than what you are expecting. I can assure you that getting through this will make you tremendously stronger and it will also make you much more grateful for the little, simple things in life.

    I've gone through a personal hell that seemed like would never end and thankfully was able to stay resilient, weather the storm and get through it. Getting through it made me enjoy all things, simple and not so simple, so much more. It gave me an amazing new perspective on life, life lessons and empathy for others who are suffering (like i'm feeling for you now) and it made me realize I am a damn strong human being.

    Do everything you can right now, remind yourself this is not a forever thing, and most importantly (in my opinion) reach out to which ever friend, family member, whoever that you can be transparent with and share how empty and hopeless you may be feeling right now. You may be doing that already, if not, find who you can to just vent and let it all out. It helps a ton.

    I'm just telling you what i think I would have liked someone to tell me when my life truly felt like hell on earth.

    I don't really know you and haven't corresponded with you much on here but I really truly am wishing the best for you and your family.
     
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  11. Nyquist

    I must now go to the source Supporter

    This…is incredibly kind. Thank you, truly. My heart is aching right now and this means a lot to me.
     
  12. seimagery

    instagram.com/thekissingglow/ Supporter

    Had a panic attack at work today. I very rarely have experienced anything like that, once on an edible, another time while falling asleep I had a hard time breathing and such. It was the worst experience of my life. Tunnel vision, couldn’t breathe, intrusive thoughts, and felt like I was disassociating. Very luckily my girlfriend brought me a Xanax but I was still freaking out. So I left work. Slightly embarrassed, mostly scared that it could happen again at any given moment.
     
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  13. oldjersey

    Pro STREAMER ON TWITCH Supporter

    You are very very welcome. You can always reach out if you just need a boost of positivity or someone to vent to. My social media is on my profile.

    One other suggestion, find some kind of routine you can start in the morning. Something like meditation, there are plenty of free apps that educate and instruct you, there are guided meditations on youtube which are tremendous and perfect for beginners.

    If meditation doesn't seem like your thing, just give yourself a few minutes to pause and write down what you are grateful for, positive affirmations, or whatever comes to mind that will put you in a positive mindset and motivate you.

    How you start your day is massively important, at any time but especially now for you, a little window of time in the morning of just sitting and taking deep breaths and getting some good energy going is super effective.


    This is reminding myself I need to start making sure I do that in the morning again.
     
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  15. oldjersey

    Pro STREAMER ON TWITCH Supporter

    Thank you Mary, I try my best. Someone told me early on in my recovery that my story is my greatest asset and I took that to heart. I really wouldn't know what to say to people going through the worst time in their life if I hadn't gone through mine and made it through. I only made it through by the support, advice, and care from others.
     
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  16. Ken Aug 11, 2021
    (Last edited: Aug 11, 2021)
    Ken

    entrusted Prestigious

    What David Choe said about Bourdain in Roadrunner reminded me of myself: “Tony hasn’t been alright for a long time. The amount that he joked about the end of his life, he’s been chasing that shit forever… He’s a fucking runner. He ran for a long time, but you’re not going to outsmart pain.”
     
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  17. TSLROCKS

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    Probably not the best advice but can you just say you woke up not feeling well and not sure you're going to make it. I'm going to try my hardest but would love to join etc.

    And then just not go and say you were too sick and wish you could've been there etc

    I hope you find peace in however you decide to handle the situation. I know it's not easy. I have very similar dynamics with some family members and I've just ducked them using once excuse or another just to be kind but this is unfortunately the new normal for the time being
     
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  18. LightWithoutHeat

    I'm Forever Yours

    Tell them the truth.

    You are going to have to come to terms with your differing beliefs at some point. The longer you wait the more difficult it is going to be.
     
  19. We’re going to hit 200 days in cumulative lockdown starting from last year next week and I am at breaking point
     
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  20. djwildefire

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    I've been doing better overall since starting a new med last spring, but the last couple weeks have been really hard. I'm working on finding a new way to generate income and put myself on a new career path, and I feel so anxious and overwhelmed. In response, I've been avoiding doing a lot of the steps I need to take and spending a lot of time in bed. I've constantly been feeling like my stomach is in knots and super low energy. I'm scared that I'm backsliding.
     
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  21. Driving2theBusStation Aug 15, 2021
    (Last edited: Aug 20, 2021)
    Driving2theBusStation

    Regular

    If you seem to start developing a rare, potentially life-threatening side effect to your medications that requires tapering off to prevent getting worse, and if you've been taking it for several years and the weaning process is described as long, unpleasant and complicated in the articles you read about it, what would you do? Who do you contact to get the best results possible? Your clinic (what can they do)? Physician? Mental hospital? Hospital hospital?
     
  22. Carmen SD

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    Im a pretty private person. I try not to talk about things such as family because I didn’t feel like I grew on up in one. I hate when people ask questions about family because I don’t want to be put in the position of talking about things. Growing up was traumatizing for me. My mother was verbally and mentally abusive toward me and i didn’t realize it until later in life. She would never hear me out when I try to explain something to her , she’d just tell me to stop and to be quiet and stop talking. I was constantly blamed for things I didn’t do and got yelled at all the time. When i went to point something out she would get mad and then it goes back to her not hearing me out. Among other things being toxic, I cried daily for years. I have pillow cases that are stained with mascara from crying all the time. I had thoughts of suicide, for a long time, but didn’t know an easy way out because I couldn’t swallow pills. There was one main factor that caused most of this. This factor causes me so much anxiety still today. I couldn’t wait until I graduated college so I could live in the dorms. That didn’t happen the way I wanted and I was devastated. I had to endure the toxicity for who knows how long. It left permanent scars and I have so much anger when I think about it. I don’t know how I’ll ever be able to open up about the details to someone. I’m terrified to get into another relationship because I have to open up with detail. I could never open up to my ex because his response to some things were uncalled for and it didn’t make me feel ready. He also didn’t respect it. I’ve never opened up to someone before about my past and I don’t know how to do it. Idk if I’ll even meet someone that can accept me and understand me for who I am. I just don’t feel it. I don’t feel like it will happen. My feelings are im going to die alone, suffering with my medical problems and have to do it all alone.
     
  23. angrycandy

    I’m drama in these khaki towns Supporter

    today was hard
     
  24. Carmen SD

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    Yesterday was a mess. Today was a mess. Friday is going to be a mess. I wish I had someone to talk to about my stressful work days
     
  25. sophos34

    Prestigious Supporter

    talked with my therapist today about how even though pretty much all of my trauma has been entirely self inflicted through my addiction its still trauma and a lot of my emotions and what im going through now is just as much about recovering from trauma as it is about recovering from addiction. i never really felt valid in saying i suffer from trauma because it is largely self inflicted and im way more worried about the trauma ive caused other people, which has been a lot, but she pointed out at the end of the day its still trauma and its shit i have to deal with.
     
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