Discussion in 'General Forum' started by AelNire, Mar 9, 2016.
Have you noticed any memory/recall issues from taking it long term?
do you meditate at all? I’ve struggled with pretty crippling anxiety my whole life exacerbated by the relatively recent-ish death of the parent who cultivated it and I must say honest commitment to daily meditation has changed my life in a way I always hoped therapy could and would. Obviously take the path that feels right for you and apologies if this is advice you’ve received or attempted before but it may be worth looking into if not! hope EMDR cracks something open for ya regardless
Hmm. I've always been that way to a degree, so it's hard to say to be honest. Plus I smoked a lot of weed in college so that didn't help haha.
The only thing that really stands out to me is if I'm doing something immediately after taking it, I sometimes forget things entirely. Like reading a comic for 20 minutes or watching an episode of TV while I wait for it to kick in, I'll be fully into it in the moment, but forget big pieces the next day. Otherwise, mornings are rough, but I'm fine once I have coffee flowing through me.
The book linked has a pretty good chapter on EMDR (chapter 15) although it’s in relation to trauma. It’s a pretty quick read.
8freebooks.net The Body Keeps the Score by Bessel van der Kolk M.D.pdf - Box
i have relatively recently started meditation and it helps a ton for daytime anxiety. my issue most recently was i was in a chicken or the egg loop of night time anxiety and not sleeping, where i couldn’t tell anymore if the insomnia was causing the anxiety or the other way around. for whatever reason, the more sleep specific meditation i tried didn’t really help at all
i think i was in a magnesium deficiency and i’ve started feeling a lot better the four days since i started taking a vitamin for that. hoping the therapy/EDMR/meditation can be helpful as preventative maintenance like an oil change or whatever bc these last few weeks have been ... unpleasant lol
i will say EDMR seems a bit ... intense. like, i wouldn’t say i have PTSD or am suffering from any trauma really. my mom passing away was horrible but i wouldn’t say it’s something i “tucked away” or whatever. i still want to go into it with an open mind though
Without really going into details, my mental health has taken a big dive this week. Kind of had a breaking point two nights ago and haven’t felt right since. I just feel heavy and emotional. I’ve been looking for a playlist of songs about mental health now and I’m not finding too much outside of the obvious. Anyone have something made up on Spotify or have any go to songs that help them?
I’ve always used music to self medicate, even when I didn’t know that’s what I was doing. It helps me cope. Off the top of my head, these are a couple songs I’ve listened to quite a bit that are about mental health struggles:
Field Report - Begin to Begin
the places that I’ve been and may never see again:
I won’t say “haunted”,
but I get visited
It follows me around,
wherever I go
So all things being equal,
lately I just stay at home
and listen to the refrigerator hum
and quietly hum along
and wait for it to come
begin to begin to begin to begin
I swear, dog knows it first-- I can see it in her eyes
when she seeks me out, checks in, curls up, and resigns
It’s like she heard music from the other room
that she recognized--
some theme song from a rerun on the air all the time
She don’t like it, she don’t hate it, she just knows that it’s on
and that means there won’t be conversation until the show is done
that’s when I zone out and disappear and it has begun
my darkness comes in darkness and it stays til it is done
begin to begin to begin to begin
trip and fall
I’m a bat trapped in the house
clicking for the walls
cause I don’t cry out no more--
I just tiptoe down the hall
baby, keep on sleeping
I get out the house and it’s just before last call
caramel brown bottles, Packers shit is on the wall
suck it down, check the clock, beg another round
bartender says, “Dude, your idea of fun always feels like a breakdown”
text my therapist two four six am
“hey, it’s chris, it’s been a while...it’s happening again.
I’ll take the first hour you can get me in”
begin to begin to begin to begin
Owel - Get Out Stay Out
You were not invited,
I don't know how you got in
There's a reason why that door's not open
But you stumble in like
It's a place you've been before
I don't care you weren't aware that I was home
You're a wolf wrapped in sheepskin
Just 'cause I'm not resisting
Doesn't make it right
And I would call for help, but we both know I live alone
I chased off all my neighbors
Disappear, how do I make you disappear?
There is nothing to take here
Nothing you would want
Burglar, get your feet off the furniture
Swear I won't tell a soul
That I know who you are
“Can’t Handle (Poor Decisions #3)” by Gasoline Heart is like the perfect song for helping with mental health imo especially being able to just sing along or scream it out in a car is super fun
Working on a playlist for ya!
I posted in here a while back about olanzapine and how it seemed to be helping. Well shortly after that, things took a turn for the worse and I was constantly physically exhausted. Pretty much lived in my bed and slept 16 hours a day for a week until I stopped taking it. So that was a major bust.
But I started taking lithium about a month ago, and even though I’m on a relatively low dose (600 mg), I’m noticing some positive changes in my mood. Maybe only 10-15% improved but it’s nice to at least get a little relief, and there’s room to increase the dose. I’m concerned about the side effects (some of which are pretty severe) but I was at the end of my rope and willing to try anything. And nothing too bad so far.
I’m about to get put on something. I haven’t been on medication for about a decade, but I really do need help. The peaks are a bit manic and the lows are incredibly low. I’m pretty much at the end of my rope right now as well.
I guess this feels trite and menial in comparison to what’s going on in the world right now so I apologize. Does anyone have dreams involving their ex’s? Our relationship ended over two years ago, but these dreams have been happening more frequently the past few months. Every time I have one, I feel extremely down for a long time, and I feel like I’ve been on the verge of a breakdown the past day or two. I can’t focus on anything and I feel like no one in my life wants to listen to my issues, perhaps rightfully so.
i would say the one positive thing I've learned from my (albeit elementary) therapy lately is that nothing that's bothering or in your head is menial. everything is important if its bothering you in any sort of meaningful way.
It definitely happens to me too, not as frequently as it used to but it still happens. It always puts me in a weird bittersweet mood.
Yeah it’s usually bittersweet but lately it’s been actively distressing lol but thanks folks much appreciated
It started happening to me a lot once we went into lockdowns too. Some post-dreams days are tough and almost made me think I haven't moved on in the end, but then I feel fine on others. It's kind of a whiplash. Maybe it's the starving for a relationship or... human touch? I mention that because I haven't been with anyone since. It doesn't help that we had a shared circle of friends, and I lost them in the breaking up process as well.
I keep forgetting to order my medication. I’m kind of at the point of saying fuck it. But I’ve ended up in the hospital before for withdrawal. I’m over 2020!
Whenever I’ve had dreams about my ex, they throw me for a loop and if I’m not honest with myself or my partner about how it makes me feel, it’s even worse. As @Crisp X said, it’s definitely a kind of emotional whiplash. I wish that I had better advice to give but those dreams can ruin my whole day lol
I feel you both @Crisp X @Mary V I've been trying to process a lot of this and it certainly helps to remember why things didn't work out in the first place. I've gone through a couple cycles of using dating apps and then deleting them for a few months. I definitely am just looking for some sort of human touch or connection. Thanks for the responses
I dream about my ex pretty frequently. We broke up about a year ago. You’re not alone in this! Judging by the posts in this thread, it’s completely normal. It can definitely be depressing to wake up and remember that you’re no longer together. Sometimes it causes me to ruminate on our relationship which is hard.
Not me posting in this thread yesterday and then dreaming about my ex last night... welp
I felt like I've been emotionally spiraling since Friday/Saturday, so I tried CBD for the first time last night. Interesting experience. Not sure what I was expecting specifically, but I felt more calm/regulated, and so far I've woken up this morning feeling a lot better.
Been interested in trying to use CBD regularly. Although my problem is typically lethargy/heaviness, so I worry it would exacerbate that
I’ve been listening to this song a lot lately.