Discussion in 'General Forum' started by AelNire, Mar 9, 2016.
Wish I could just pass out and wake up in winter
I'm so much worse when it's hot
i don't have to do any babysitting this week until Thursday, if at all, and i am so fucking relieved
but also don't think i could ever stop watching these kids. the youngest's birthday is on friday and when i asked him what he wanted, he said he just wants Sun Cups. and you bet i'm going to buy that cutie a whole case of them (and one for me too!)
I’m just glad you’re ok after yesterday.
Today is going to be a bad one for me. Woke up to a message from one of my closest friends asking if I’m busy and wanting to stop by with puppies that she just picked up. She’s been traveling through different states and eating out and I’m just not comfortable seeing her with that many unknowns, but I miss her so much and this kind of thing feels more and more isolating. Everyone else is just back to their lives and I’m still totally petrified and I think more and more they’ll invite me out or want to come over and each time I say no it will feel horrible. I’m just sitting here crying because I’m saying no to one of the few things that might help me feel better but also puts me at risk.
sorry to hear that. would you be comfortable hanging out if you two had a bit of distance between you? or would that be untenable?
It wouldn’t work for this scenario because other people have touched the dogs specifically so we don’t know if they’re totally safe to touch. If it was just her yeah I think we could be distanced in the backyard for a while. But then not being able to hug her would also really be hard.
go, stay outside, wear a mask, play with puppies, keep physical distance from friend while explaining why.
that's an option.
It sucks how many people are just moving on now...
I figured as much. that really sucks
I think doggies are unlikely carriers if that helps
It sucks how life has been disrupted even if it's necessary
My sleep schedule is mess up and my medication is making it worse.
My antidepressants have to be taken nearly exactly 24 hours apart from each other otherwise I start to see side effects. I was sleeping and hadn't taken them and I had another nightmare. This time my now deceased brother was strangling me and kept me handcuffed to a railing and I screamed for my parents and they didn't come to help me until my voice was almost gone and then they took his side and I threatened to leave the house.
When I woke up, which was just a few moments ago, I panicked and had to take my medication because I could start to feel my mind wandering toward darker places, and I started to feel disoriented.
These meds help keep me sane, but they also almost kill me every time I almost miss a dose. I have no idea what to do.
Idk how every day feels harder than the last but it does
and I’m also scared af that it’s about to get so much worse with covid skyrocketing
I'm just so exhausted. Both mentally and physically. I couldn't sleep last night now my eyes feel so heavy and I just want to pass out but I can't because my thoughts won't let me. The I go to stand up to do something to take my mind off it and my shoulders, arms, legs etc just ache and I give up.
Feeling some of the side effects now from starting Prozac (or at least I assume it’s from it). Mostly causing a little more anxiety than I would normally feel which exacerbated my physical issue a little.
put together a list of potential therapists and plan to start doing outreach later this week.
something I’ve done recently that has had a positive effect on my mental health: I unfollowed a bunch of irrelevant people from my past that turns out I don’t actually care about what they’re doing with their lives, and replaced them with artists and activists. my insta feed is a much better place now
I’ve been trying to say this for so long. The survivors who have come forward about Chris D’Elia are incredible. However, the news still hits so close to home. I wish it was actually safe and healthy to voice our truth.
I feel like I’ll never feel happiness again
Every day is just waiting for the day to be over
I don’t know how people just get over things and move on
You will. It just sucks there's no clear timeline.
*gestures at world* isnt helping either
So, I started a search for a therapist, first time ever. reached out to one Thursday, said she'd have time for an intro call on Thursday and then I spent all day anxious and waiting to hear from her. then she emails and apologizes and says 9:30am today and i spend the morning anxious and waiting and here we are 40 mins later and still nothing.
well, crossing them off the list. brilliant start, but whatever. Have a list of 5 other possible therapists so I'm just moving on to the next name.
One of those nights where absolutely nothing is working to distract me from the loneliness and emptiness. I just want to sleep and want this day to be over.
The only problem was that even 20 mg in the morning was enough to give me insomnia the following night.
Just very low today.
I feel you, I’ve been in a big funk the last few days.
I just spend my days online shopping for useless material items I don't need using money I should be saving up in order to fill this weird emotional void of depression and lack of control during Covid
I understand this too well
I'm staying off of social media as much as possible today because seeing everyone post about father's day is just making me really upset