Mental Health Thread • Page 315

Discussion in 'General Forum' started by AelNire, Mar 9, 2016.

  1. Carmen SD

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    Not like anyone cares or remembers me, but I haven't been well. Still can't sleep and still a mess. After being unemployed for a month during the holidays, I found a job...that I was lied to and fucked over again within a month. At the same time as I started that job, I took an "on-call" job because I have no trust anymore, and glad I did. Eventually I found something else, but now I just started that and now coronavirus shutting everything down, so I have to pick up shifts at my on-call job where I'm at risk with no hazard pay. Aside from the jobs thing, my ex took no time to move on, making me feel like I meant nothing, and everything was a lie-this also eating me alive. And because I had gotten fucked over by that one job during the holidays, I was no longer qualified for these low income apartments I was waitlisted for (actually called me and said I was next on the list). It literally seemed to have everything I needed, I guess I have to wait another year and get back on the list. Anyway, because I've been trying to get a place so I can take my cat from my ex (he wanted to keep the cat, will not let it!), I have to spend out the ass on rent- just got approved for an apartment. I needed this so I can take my cat and never speak to him again. He became someone I didn't think he'd be. I'm still damaged, but trying. I know I'll be alone for the rest of my life, and trying to live with it. The choice of guys in my town are still terrible and no one is serious about dating. Nothing I can do about that. So this is everything thats been going on lately.
     
  2. Ben

    BLEDSOE CUZ I SAID SO Prestigious

    existential dread is real today
     
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  3. I feel like I need to be in therapy again but doubtful anyone can ease the pit of anxiety in my stomach
     
  4. Petit nain des Îles

    Stream Future Nostalgia for clear skin ♡ Supporter

    Well, being confined with noisy neighbors means I'm probably going to be awake all night and sleep during the afternoon for the next few weeks. I hope I won't feel like shit at the end. Wish me luck.
     
  5. BirdPerson

    fuck tammy! Prestigious

    I remember you. I see you. I will help you steal that cat.
     
  6. Signifire

    Headphones blaring three stacks Supporter

    I wish hibernation was a thing that humans did
     
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  7. waking season

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    One thing that is helping me out a lot is listening to birds chirping outside. It’s such a simple thing but it’s weirdly comforting to think of animals completely unaware of what is happening just going about their business. It’s lightly raining outside right now and the sound of the rain and the birds is really therapeutic.
     
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  8. Scarecrow Boat

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    Got the order to pack up our office and start working from home. Very eerie feeling in the office no one knows when we will see each other again. Very scary and sad feeling
     
  9. CobraKidJon

    Fun must be always. Prestigious

    I was stressed out because I thought my work would get shutdown but according to California we are considered an essential even if we are a warehouse to a clothing company.

    the problem is no work is coming in because of course people are not spending their money so now I am like what is going to happen next
     
  10. a nice person

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    True, I’m in California as well and my company is considered essential because we manufacture equipment for first responders. I’m working remotely since Tuesday. Might get my hours cut if sales continue to decline.
     
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  11. waking season

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    I’m also lucky to be able to work fully remote but I work in a college admissions office and it’s been very slow since people are understandably not thinking about going to school right now. Really anxious about having my hours cut if it continues to be slow despite the university saying that’s not something they’re considering.
     
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  12. waking season

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    I was also able to get through to my roommate so that’s been a huge relief today
     
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  13. CobraKidJon

    Fun must be always. Prestigious

    they laid out their policy which was 2 weeks paid off if shutdown and I barely have like 35 hours of pto so now I’m like oh god what will happen.

    they also said they’ll allow negative pto but nah that’s just wrong.
     
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  14. waking season

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    I really need to stop reading the politics thread. Today was going fairly well all things considered and now I’m on the verge of an anxiety attack.
     
  15. shogunTORTOISE

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    Took a mental health day to try and level out my anxiety. It helped a little but I'm going to officially put in for self quarantine. They said my job won't be in jeopardy and I can take as long as I need. But I'm going to rethink about going back completely if higher ups insist profiting from books is more essential than the health and safety of actual humans.
     
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  16. Kiana

    Goddamn, man child Prestigious

    @mad I got your card. Was great timing even if it's not xmas :heart:
     
  17. Carmen SD

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    More triggering my anxiety. Because my main job is "shut down", I picked up shifts at my on call job because they need people and I feel like I'll make a little more than unemployment benefits. Plus I'm not sure how it works, I didn't want to apply and get denied because I technically have a job that I can get hours at. Anyway, my fear is that the government will order "shelter in place" and I can't leave my workplace. They made everyone sign something stating that could happen and to keep a bag with a change of clothes for few days and toiletries in case. I asked one of the workers about it and they said they're talking about getting a room prepared (I also said the company better pay us over or double time for 24 hours+)... and let me tell you-no offense to my work, but the building is very dated, gives the appearance of things looking dirty despite housekeeping cleaning, and I am most definitely uncomfortable sleeping there, and showering (I'll refuse to shower and will stink, and give myself a sponge bath- I'll bring my own towels). I also refuse to wash my clothes in the industrial washer because I've seen what goes thru there, plus I have to use "special" laundry soap or I get skin irritation. Also the food they serve isn't the best of quality (looks dirt cheap) and I will refuse to eat it.
     
  18. xapplexpiex

    the past is a grotesque animal Supporter

    I feel numb inside.
     
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  19. waking season

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    I’m trying to get there
     
  20. jkauf

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    I feel so hopeless.
     
  21. EASheartsVinyl

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    I’m starting to think that my personal mental health risk in this crisis won’t be from handling cabin fever but being afraid to go back out once it’s over.
     
  22. waking season

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    This is where I’m at right now
     
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  23. PureBlueSF

    Let's hold our breath until we disappear Supporter

    I've been on the verge of having a panic attack for like the last couple of days and i'm trying my absolute hardest to stay calm but it's hard and i really don't want to be hospitalized for having one when a panic attack is comparatively minor compared to the crisis we're dealing with, like i don't want to screw someone out of a hospital bed when they need it more than i do

    Sorry if that was a bit rambly, i'm having trouble keeping my thoughts organized
     
  24. Carmen SD

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    I'm half way having an anxiety attack. I got an email saying my rental app was denied due to "insufficient income to support rent", yet they called me and said I was approved? and I have a cosigner because I wouldn't qualify on my own (my cosigner makes enough to qualify as a cosigner). It appears its a third party company that sent it because on the apt web site it was application approved. I'm just freaking out. There has to be a supervisor that approves it once they sent everything in. Tomorrow only temps are working so I can't call and ask if I should be worried.
     
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  25. shogunTORTOISE

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    I submitted for self quarantine today. My mother did as well, money will be the big issue. We're hoping this will just go to 2-3 weeks but I'm not getting my hopes up. Would love to play Animal Crossing right now to unwind but I'm sure that's money I'll be needing down the line.
     
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