Winter depression is kicking my butt. Been working a lot and still drowning which is tough. When I was chatting with some ppl on tinder like it isn't like I expected to marry any of them but it was nice having conversation about something that isn't work. Like little messages to look forward to throughout the day that made me smile. Deleted it tho. Then my nephew just isn't around as much with my BIL in the hospital, and he's been having a lot of fevers and not doing well. Idk. Feels like things were going okay and then it all just toppled at once.
This sounds a lot like me. Always convinced I’m going to have a heart attack or stroke and now my leg is kind of aching dully and I’m convinced I have bone cancer. I definitely have undiagnosed anxiety and am in the process of finding a doctor to get some help but no one in my area is seeing new patients for a few months it seems. Hopefully finding someone will help put my mind at ease and get me on the right track.
I go through the heart attack/stroke all the time,which its always just the panic attack. Its too bad you have to wait awhile to talk with a doctor,because It helped me a lot. When you do finally meet with a doctor, I highly recommend writing down all the symptoms you think you have so that the doctor can check and help put your mind at ease.
I’m struggling through something and I can’t pinpoint what it is. I keep ruining whole trips and weekends with my girlfriend and tonight she said “we can’t keep doing this,” regarding the up and downs and not actually figuring out the root of it. But hearing “we can’t keep doing this,” makes me incredibly afraid i am going to ruin this relationship.
I'm at the point where I'm having suicidal thoughts again. The instant things look like they're about to get better, they get a thousand times worse. I do have an appointment with my psychiatric nurse practitioner on the 18th and I'm just gonna be 100% real and say that I'm not fucking doing well at all. I don't care if it gets me admitted to a hospital. I'm just so tired of feeling like this.
This is a good idea, definitely will help to make sure it’s a productive first meeting. It’s getting really frustrating that everyone in my area isn’t seeing people for a while if at all. I’ve convinced myself I have bone cancer now when I’m sure I don’t. Just need someone to look and tell me what’s going on.
I found a doctor. He can’t see me until January 20th but I have an appointment and they’re mailing me paperwork to get my medical history. This is a huge step, hopefully having someone look at the most likely minor health things I have going on and finding a therapist will help alleviate some anxiety.
Im happy you were finally able to find a doctor. I cant believe you still have to wait til the 20th but better than nothing.
Be honest with her about how you're feeling and don't know what's going on. Keep that communication open. I'm sure she'd be understanding.
How do y'all cope without regular therapy/meds? I had to stop therapy back in July (scheduling conflict) and was doing somewhat ok since I still had my medication. I've been out of meds for over a month now since I can no longer see the nurse practitioner from the school I went to. Now that its all out of my system, I'm not doing well, and its going to take some time to transition to a new therapist and doctor.
I hope your evening gets better. You’re a very good source of positivity and support in the forums so you deserve to feel good.
Myself and five friends went to this big beer event last weekend and I ended up ruining it by having just a terrible couple of days then this morning see a picture taken of all of us and I was completely cropped out of the picture my friend posted. I feel so childish that it’s bothering me at all.
I'm sure you didn't actually ruin the event. and I totally get being bothered by the picture thing, that's something that would get to me too. easier said than done, but try not to beat yourself up about it. it's not childish to be bothered by these sorts of things. your emotions are valid, so rather than thinking "oh this is childish" try to reframe it as "I notice I'm feeling hurt/upset by this - how can I best honour these feelings and/or learn from them?"