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Mental Health Thread • Page 281

Discussion in 'General Forum' started by AelNire, Mar 9, 2016.

  1. Kiana

    Goddamn, man child Prestigious

    I hope you're doing okay bb. I used to feel this way a lot, and often still do. I truly wish I had an answer for it. Some days I think I've improved my self esteem and it only takes like one unflattering pic of me or catching myself in bad lighting to have it all come tumbling down. Feels like every time I finally make peace with one "flaw" I find another to fixate on. I wish you well. It's easy to tell someone to be kind to themselves, but that's so difficult to actually do in practice
     
  2. Shakriel

    Cause I'm running low on these hours of mine Prestigious

    I feel this all the time (both the body image and feeling lonely) and you can hit me up if you ever want someone to talk to. No one should feel alone.

    I pulled this off a couple weeks ago, now it's time for my towels haha.
     
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  3. iCarly Rae Jepsen

    run away with me Platinum

    I change my sheets once a month at most if I remember, to be fair it takes me like 20 minutes to put on a fitted sheet and it still falls off immediately in my sleep haha
     
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  4. Shakriel

    Cause I'm running low on these hours of mine Prestigious

    Oh god, that would drive me nuts. I can't sleep if my sheets aren't on my bed perfectly.
     
  5. PureBlueSF

    Regular Supporter

    I blocked pretty much everyone in my family except for my mom and my youngest sister on everything possible and I feel like things are finally starting to get a little better for once. I should have done this a long time ago instead of wasting so much time letting all of these people poison my life.
     
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  6. So I've been very depressed for a few weeks and trying to sound like I'm OK when I'm really just not. Unsure if I want to be alive anymore and everything seems fucking pointless. I can't get a job and recording a radio show every week is the only reason I leave my apartment. I find it so hard to get out of bed when I wake up and I can't find pleasure in anything. Tonight I've been considering self-harming and I'm just gonna stay out drinking for want of something to do. Life seems bleak and empty & I don't know how much longer I can keep going or if I even want to.
     
  7. GBlades

    Trusted

    I've never really been very vocal, either online or irl, about how down I'm feeling due to my personal circumstances. Sometimes I've found it had to get around anywhere that isn't my kitchen and then its straight back to bed. I've always put on a face of a confident young guy who is outspoken and funny but, as you've probably guessed, that's a wall that needed a hammer taken to it.

    Recently, my family and girlfriend gave me a bit of tough love. Just in regards to my behaviour and attitude to life and it really hit home. There was no malice or bad intent but it genuinely has given me a new outlook. I'm 30 on the 10th of September and really need my life in order. I've managed to just get out of bed and go and do things without worrying where some form of depression or anxiety is taking me and, if I stick to it, it's a start.

    Guess I just wanted to post a positive result recently.
     
  8. Lastsliceofpizza

    Newbie

    I wish I had someone I could talk to. I'm 30 and still dealing with self harm (which I feel is for teens) and I have other things that make me feel shitty.
     
  9. Lastsliceofpizza

    Newbie


    I've been there and I'm still there.

    The only advice I have is to exercise if you don't all ready. I'm sure you have heard that a million times and it may not be helpful but it's all I got.
     
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  10. xapplexpiex

    sup? Supporter

    Yep
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  11. Kiana

    Goddamn, man child Prestigious

    Idk how to articulate it but I feel like I'm on the cusp of something. Like I've been doing a lot of listening and learning and self reflection and maybe my mindset is finally changing and maybe that will finally give me the motivation to change something for the better. Most of my problems are self inflicted. Nobody else puts me in this box except for me. I am the only one limiting myself and my life at this point. Like I'm getting the thought process down and now I need to learn how to direct that into positive change.
     
  12. Carmen SD

    Trusted

    Its really hard to function daily when you don't have a life worth living. I wake up and cry for how ugly I am, how lonely I am, how unwanted I am. How I'll never be happy again. For many years I always wonder why I got put on this earth to suffer. I don't want to suffer anymore.
     
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  13. Kiana

    Goddamn, man child Prestigious

    The book I'm reading posed the question: "would you rather be right all the time or happy?" At first I was like psssh I can be both!! But the more I dwell the more I realize the accuracy. I like to think I can acknowledge when I make a mistake or am wrong, but for situations where someone is yelling at me for something that isn't my fault I get so heated because I need them to know they're wrong. I overthink it to death and it leads to nothing but anxiety and misery. I need to learn how to let that go or figure out how to cope with it. I admit that the need to be right interferes with my happiness sometimes but idk how to transform that into action or meaningful change.
     
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  14. iCarly Rae Jepsen

    run away with me Platinum

     
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  15. Shakriel Sep 4, 2019
    (Last edited: Sep 4, 2019)
    Shakriel

    Cause I'm running low on these hours of mine Prestigious

    It's really fun how seeing a picture of myself just really ruins my mood. I fucking hate looking at myself and it embarrasses me that that's how i look to people.
     
  16. Kiana Sep 4, 2019
    (Last edited: Sep 4, 2019)
    Kiana

    Goddamn, man child Prestigious

    Ugh saaaame. Sometimes I look in the mirror and I'm like "wait.... Is this what I look like?? Omg I'm gonna look like this forever like this is just my appearance?!" Like I'm in denial but something will remind me what I look like and I'm like nooooo I want to have the face of a beautiful model or celeb why do I have to look this way?? And then I feel shallow and then guilty for feeling shallow. And then I feel like I'm being a sketch feminist or something. It's a harmful cycle for sure.
     
  17. SlappinCups

    Hurley apologist Prestigious

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  18. Shakriel

    Cause I'm running low on these hours of mine Prestigious

  19. iCarly Rae Jepsen

    run away with me Platinum

    same but realize that probably no one else sees you that way and your mental image is way worse than what you present
     
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  20. Shakriel

    Cause I'm running low on these hours of mine Prestigious

    Yeah, I'd like to believe that but I just have never been able to sway my brain, lol. So I see myself and it's just like a kick in the junk.

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  21. Kiana

    Goddamn, man child Prestigious

    Quoting myself lol to say the opposite of this is nice tho. When I look in the mirror and do feel like myself. Not necessarily "beautiful" but just like myself. Tends to happen when I'm wearing an outfit I like and had time to do my makeup like I want and feel like myself as a result of self expression. Growing up I hid a lot of myself by hiding under baggy clothes or hoodies in summer and coming into myself and my style makes me feel v happy. I'm shy and introverted so it's a way for me to express my personality without having to talk haha
     
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  22. Jason

    Regular

    I think eventually I'll just give up. I'm still a nobody who isn't good at anything. My life hasn't had any progression and I'm tired of suffering.
     
  23. GBlades

    Trusted

    Please don't give up. It's hard now and I get that. There is support if you need it, you just need to take that next step.
     
  24. Carmen SD

    Trusted

    I always find myself struggling with money. Rent is so expensive where I live it's hard to organize moving out. I'm home by myself most of the time but for whatever reason I feel much more lonely by myself in a small apartment. There is one apartment that is "perfect" for what I'm looking. It's in no way "fancy" or in a super nice area, but the price is reasonable (still not cheap) for what they offer. The plan I looked at seems like it can fit all my stuff. It didn't appear to have bad reviews and all the reviews I saw were pretty positive. I am working towards a better paying job, but starting wage isn't much more than min wage (depending on where you go). Not many places offer medical insurance, which is crucial for me because of my health problems. Even with insurance procedures are still in the thousands or not covered at all. I always wonder why I had to be born with the worst genetics. The hardest part about this all is I have to go thru all of this alone. I have no one. I can't stand when people say "theres someone for everyone" or "you'll find someone" because thats far from the truth. Hideous people like me were meant to be alone. Eventually everyone leaves because they can't deal with me. I want to suffering to end
     
  25. Jason

    Regular

    I don't know. It's been hard for too long and there's not much hope. I work a close to minimum wage and barely get by. I've tried medication to help with depression and anxiety and nothing helps. I just started seeing a new therapist but I'm not too optimistic because past therapy has never really helped.