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Mental Health Thread • Page 279

Discussion in 'General Forum' started by AelNire, Mar 9, 2016.

  1. Kiana

    Anyway, don't be a stranger Prestigious

    I hate when my brain is unreasonable. Sometimes I yearn to be the center of attention and have people make a fuss for me, but then if they do I get all embarrassed and withdrawn and introverted and can't accept the attention or praise or whatever it is. Like I don't want the attn but at the same time I get disappointed being looked over so I'm never happy. Idk how to reconcile that.


    Also my sleep has been terrible. My dreams have been silly anxious ones. Like I'll be late to class WHEN I HAVE BEEN OUT OF SCHOOL FOR YEARS or I'll double book myself and feel super guilty or make everyone late for a trip. I used to be prescribed trazadone but it made me feel super drowsy all day so idk idk. I don't have trouble falling asleep but struggle to stay asleep
     
  2. CarpetElf

    kill all birds Prestigious

    I don't know how to reconcile that either, I feel like that pretty often. It's difficult. I think it's my mind (maybe yours too, idk your life) trying to tell me to be more outgoing but at the same time being too afraid to be. It sucks.

    yup. all of this is 100 percent me as well. I have that late to class one occasionally. Usually though it's more like I forgot to do a paper or something.
     
  3. Kiana

    Anyway, don't be a stranger Prestigious

    I think part of it is my middle child syndrome. I'm used to always feeling overlooked and I can get resentful about it, but then if someone tried to make a fuss over me I'm not used to it and would be super uncomfortable. I do think sometimes I'm like a wannabe outgoing person but then in reality it's just not me and then I get all angsty lol
     
  4. Kiana

    Anyway, don't be a stranger Prestigious

    This is from one of my books on working with kids but has helped me in other areas of life, including mental health wise

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  5. xapplexpiex

    the past is a grotesque animal Supporter

    I’ve realized I need to work on two things to improve my mental health immensely: stop being on my phone all day and stop comparing myself to other people.
     
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  6. Kiana

    Anyway, don't be a stranger Prestigious

    I would rather get emo in my car and blast Matchbox Twenty than hang around others on a Friday night. And I feel like those introverted "tee hee I'm a recluse" posts can come off like cute and quirky and a badge of honor on Tumblr or online or something, but irl it's upsetting to me. On the one hand I know this is me and I'm just not the kinda person who goes out and has lots of friends, but it's also debilitating to feel so anxious and uptight and uncomfortable all the time. I am content being alone but I feel like that's not normal or something and people have been starting to point it out more and I'm like idk I'd legit rather listen to music or watch a movie by myself than go out. And again like in memes or whatever it can seem relatable or something but it's actually a bit distressing. Idk if it's content with being alone or if it's withdrawing from others. My friends all do the tee hee I'm such a loser who sits at home all day thing, but in reality they're not. It almost feels like... Appropriation of anxiety?? Idek if that makes sense but I feel like it's trendy to claim anxiety or introversion sometimes when the actual real life thing isn't fun
     
  7. iCarly Rae Jepsen

    Oh goose Supporter

    it's hard to know how much my brain is lying to me about wanting to be alone all the time, but I def alternate between being envious and being mad of people living their best life
     
  8. Nyquist

    I must now go to the source Supporter

    This is how I feel whenever I see those memes passed around on Facebook and I never know if I’m right to feel that way. Then I start feeling guilty about judging people I don’t know which makes me feel even more anxious. Over the last couple years I have begun pulling away and posting less and less on social media and this is one of the many reasons why.
     
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  9. Kiana

    Anyway, don't be a stranger Prestigious

    I don't have a big social media presence but like my old rm used to say stuff like that and I barely ever saw her because she was out so much lmao. I think some of it is perception. We compare ourselves to others on social media or like tv shows where they're always doing something, so it feels like less in comparison. Which is a legit thing too, but idk. I feel like legit anxiety is getting conflated with basic nerves sometimes too? Idk my anxiety can feel really isolating and dark so it's hard when I see ppl sort of adopting the label flippantly. And I'm glad there's the visibility around it and if ppl are taking their anxiety and turning it into a positive that's a good thing, but I guess it's hard on a personal level because when I try to discuss my anxiety and how it manifests with other ppl they don't seem to get it despite sharing the memes and stuff. Which feels even more isolating. It's why I like working with kids tho. They're so genuine and earnest about those emotions that I relate to them rly well, more so than adults usually
     
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  10. Nyquist

    I must now go to the source Supporter

    Yes. I’ve had friends and relatives say things on social media as well as in person about “having a panic attack” that comes across very flippantly. Often some variation of “Swear I was about to have a panic attack!”

    I just never know how to approach it. When I’ve had panic attacks it has typically involved the paramedics showing up and either putting me on a stretcher and carting me away to a hospital or laying me on the floor, stripping my clothing, and doing their best to bring me back while I cry and try my hardest to speak clearly through clenched jaws as as my muscles are spasming. Either way, no matter how it plays out, my loved ones always end up standing there, helplessly watching the whole thing in horror. When it’s over I am filled with deep shame that it happened again and I cover my face with my hands because I feel like it’s the only place I can hide while I cry because this will never be over.

    I don’t know. I know it’s a spectrum and everyone’s experience is different so how can I judge, but I still can’t help but be bothered by it when, yeah, it sometimes does feel like nerves get conflated with anxiety. It’s great that mental health awareness is growing, but sometimes...I don’t know. I feel bad even saying any of this.
     
  11. Carmen SD

    Regular

    Struggling pretty bad today. Feeling like I'll never be enough. All my life I felt so repulsive. Didn't help that no one wanted to be near me, and I constantly got called ugly and other names. i can't stand looking at myself and i avoid mirrors. Feeling too ugly to love
     
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  12. Kiana

    Anyway, don't be a stranger Prestigious

    Yeah I struggle to articulate it. I know mental health issues present in a variety of different ways. Most people are surprised when I say I have anxiety so I guess I can "pass" pretty well, altho ppl who are perceptive tend to notice. I think in the end it would just be nice to feel validated or normal in that sense, since many ppl I try to discuss it with irl can't relate to how debilitating and frustrating anxiety can be in daily life
     
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  13. Vase Full Of Rocks

    Trusted Supporter

    My work is super fucked up.
    I'm always stressed.
    I'm always restless and exhausted.
    My grandfather died and I couldn't go to the funeral because someone had to stay behind with my brother in case something happens to him because his health is really bad now and it's not looking good.
    My aunt fucking snubbed and insulted my mom and my dad at my grandfather's funeral. (Grandfather on my dad's side.)
    Two family friends died in the past two months.

    It's a depression I've never experienced before. I feel like I'm just a cassette that's playing but being constantly unspooled. I don't know if I have another run in me.
     
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  14. PureBlueSF

    It's out of my hands Supporter

    I'm at the point where I'm regretting waking up every morning. The only thing I look forward to is going to work. Which I guess is good because I genuinely love my job, but everything else tends to stress me out and makes me feel miserable.
     
  15. scroopy.noopers

    : (

    for anyone who has been on and/or off zoloft: i wasn't really taking it regularly for the past couple months and was wondering how the side effects might be when i take it regularly again. i've been so shitty with taking my meds idek if they're working. its so hard for me to judge how i'm really doing.
     
  16. K0ta

    Trusted Supporter

    As somebody with experience with a vast amount of meds - if you're not taking it regularly, it's not going to work its most efficiently. Can't tell you how many people I saw in treatments I was attending over the years who were there because they stopped meds/didn't manage them properly (myself included). It takes time to build up in your body and work. I can't speak to side effects because those are different for everybody, but you'll never actually know if the meds work if you don't take them consistently as prescribed for (usually) at least a month.

    I'm not a doctor though and I really urge you to talk to your psychiatrist about this, because meds aren't something to mess around with.
     
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  17. scroopy.noopers

    : (

    Yeah, I'm seeing my doc tomorrow.
     
  18. ChaseTx

    Nuke the site from orbit. The only way to be sure Prestigious

    I think I am maybe having an anxiety attack
     
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  19. xapplexpiex

    the past is a grotesque animal Supporter

    How are you doing now?
     
  20. ChaseTx

    Nuke the site from orbit. The only way to be sure Prestigious

    Better now, thanks! A big part of it was work which I really need to work on changing. Was starting to feel a little helpless. @K0ta messaged me bc she's the best and that helped
     
  21. Jacob

    The sum of n from 1 to 36 is pretty metal Prestigious

    my whole body hurts. I want out i'm over this.
     
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  22. Jacob

    The sum of n from 1 to 36 is pretty metal Prestigious

    dark night of the soul my ass I want fucking sun
     
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  23. xapplexpiex

    the past is a grotesque animal Supporter

    The original phrase is shit. I like this better.

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  24. Kiana

    Anyway, don't be a stranger Prestigious

    I fear this is going to sound so privileged and ridiculous idek. But there is a part of me that legit sometimes wishes I could have all choices and sense of responsibility taken away from me. Which having Independence and free will is a huge deal. I get that. But ngl sometimes just for like a week I want to be committed so all I have to do is get up, eat, sleep, etc and have nobody rely on me for anything. I'm just so exhausted. I give all of my time, energy, and emotion towards others and don't often have much left for myself. Which is fine. They need it. But I'm tired and run down and I'm getting sick and all I've had today is two muffins and three large cups of black tea and im just going thru the motions of being a person rn. Of course I'm getting sick because I'm tired and stressed and lacking proper nutrition. I open my apartment door and am greeted with piles of laundry and dirty dishes. I open the fridge and it's full of moldy food which just reminds me of the high hopes I had to like cook and eat and be a functioning person that didn't pan out. It's all overwhelming and defeating.


    This weekend will be a good one so I'm looking forward to that, but it is going to be a struggle to get there, espesh knowing I'm going to come back to it.
     
  25. Kiana

    Anyway, don't be a stranger Prestigious

    As a follow up, anytime one of the Kardashians try to brag about how hard they work or when those lil nepotism celebs say they had to work tirelessly and twice as hard as everyone else, I want to laugh maniacally. I will create a reality show where they actually have to be in the trenches and we'll see how they fair!!! They'll see! They'll all see!
     
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