Mental Health Thread • Page 272

Discussion in 'General Forum' started by AelNire, Mar 9, 2016.

  1. Kiana

    God-uncle Charlie! Prestigious

    I haven't. It's typically a conflict of interest for me because I work in the child welfare system, but this particular child is one that I've known for a while and I think I could manage him. It's a whole hassle cause then they have to make the case sensitive so I can't read anything about the case anymore and blah blah. I filled out the paperwork just to be a child-specific foster parent for this one kid, but we'll see how it goes! I would love to foster regularly in the future when I'm not like a single woman living alone with little support lol
     
  2. well you're so wise and caring that I'm sure you'll make an awesome foster mama!
     
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  3. iCarly Rae Jepsen

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    @Kiana is gonna get every foster kid in Oregon to stan Britney and Christina
     
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  4. Kiana

    God-uncle Charlie! Prestigious

    Thanks! It'll be kinda weird cause I have court tomorrow on a different case, but after his hearing is when I'll find out for sure (and I won't be at his hearing) so it'll likely just be a coworker saying... You ready to mom it up? So tomorrow will be interesting!

    #goals

    If I do get this kid I'm bringing him with me to see the goo goo dolls this weekend lol
     
  5. ChaseTx

    Nuke the site from orbit. The only way to be sure Prestigious

    A feel like a lot of stuff is going bad right now and I can't think of anything to feel good about and I wish I didn't have to keep on. I don't know how much more weary I can get of everything
     
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  6. Kiana

    God-uncle Charlie! Prestigious

    It is SO weird to me that people describe me as happy and cheerful. I think of myself as having a dry sense of humor, monotone sarcastic Daria personality type, but others describe me as smiling and cheerful and it's just interesting how different that perspective is. I imagine that what I feel on the inside is more depressed and exhausted so I assume that's what reflects outwardly, but it does not appear so
     
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  7. Kiana

    God-uncle Charlie! Prestigious

    So I'm not getting the foster child and I'm totally cool with it but I realized that it was a good motivator for me to get my life together. I cleaned and felt motivated to clean. I was looking forward to something. like in the way that I dgaf when I'm just taking care of me and I'll be lazy and won't follow through, but if there's a bigger purpose I'll get it together. Like it was nice focusing on something that wasn't work or myself. So when I meet with my therapist this week I'm gonna see how I can channel that and be a productive citizen without taking on the responsibility of children
     
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  8. PeacefulOrca

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    I've been soooo drained lately

    Between a family member being super sick, a birthday, and other stuff going on in my life that is super shitty... it just fucking sucks. My life just isn't where I want it to be, I just have no energy and want to sleep. Nothing excites me right now. I can't find a good therapist either, all the ones who specialize in what I need are full.

    I saw that alexisonfire was playing this week, they're one of my favorite bands and haven't played here in like 7 years but the venue is in a super inconvenient far place and it's probably sold out anyway. Nothing is exciting, everything feels so heavy and meaningless.
     
  9. I suck with money, my credit card got declined yesterday so I finally had to force myself to look at my bank statements like a gd adult
    as I was looking at my shitty financial situation, I could feel myself teetering towards a spiral of self hatred, but for the first time in maybe ever I managed to not spiral? it’s like I was talking to myself, like “no actually you’re not gonna dunk on yourself. you’re gonna take some deep breaths, you’re gonna text your friend, and you’re gonna be okay.”
     
  10. PureBlueSF

    And all the while, Death smiles on.

    Nothing I do will ever be good enough for certain members of my family and it's really starting to wear me down. But they just don't care and would rather put words in my mouth and make assumptions like a bunch of petulant children. It's kind of ironic to me how I'm actually being the mature one
     
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  11. scroopy.noopers

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    my social anxiety has me wanting to change the coding bootcamp i'm in from classroom to online. its not a good thing since i am going to eventually have to work in similar environments. as of right now i don't know if the anxiety is going to keep me from getting the work done, and i want to wait it out. right now i just wanna bail though
     
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  12. Kiana

    God-uncle Charlie! Prestigious

    I struggle with communicating with others lately. To me, the way you communicate conflict is through give and take. You acknowledge the other person's perspective while still bringing forth your own. It isn't difficult to speak ur peace while still validating someone else's feelings and experience. I will never understand how some people make it so far in life without this basic skill. It's to the point where I'm so done with the human race. I want to go on a vacation by myself. I'm done navigating conflict and people just taking without giving anything back and people thinking I work pro bono and that it's ok to blur boundaries. Dooooone. I took two days off this month and they can't come fast enough. I just need a break.
     
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  13. jkauf

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    Having a really fucking hard time today/tonight.
     
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  14. Shakriel

    I've realized nothing I do feels right Prestigious

    I feel ya there today!
     
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  15. ChaseTx

    Nuke the site from orbit. The only way to be sure Prestigious

    I have this thing where I get bad anxiety after the fact. Like last night I went out to my friend's birthday get together and I didn't know anybody but her and I had a good time but now I feel like I might've annoyed her somehow and it's spiralled into feeling like nobody likes me at all!
     
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  16. Kiana

    God-uncle Charlie! Prestigious

    Ugh I'm like this too!! I'll leave an interaction or situation feeling confident and then by the end of the night I've managed to work myself up into anxiety that I've annoyed everyone and screwed something up. But I promise u nobody else is overthinking ur interactions! It's just ur anxiety trying to trick ur brain and take u down!
     
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  17. ChaseTx

    Nuke the site from orbit. The only way to be sure Prestigious

    I appreciate you saying so! I definitely overthink things especially after I actually try to be outgoing for once
     
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  18. PureBlueSF

    And all the while, Death smiles on.

    I started self harming again and I hate it. And I'm fucking tired of putting on the front that I'm okay when I'm seriously not at all.
     
  19. GBlades

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    This is such a great community to vent your frustration and rant your issues. Sometimes, talking about it helps. Message any one of us if you need anything at all but you have so much to give. Please, don't feel like you're alone here. You belong.
     
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  20. PureBlueSF

    And all the while, Death smiles on.

    Thank you.
     
  21. GBlades

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    No need to thank anyone. It's always good to be able to pick yourself up when you're down. It's okay if you need a little help, there's nothing wrong with that, but the fact you've admitted you're not ok is a great start. Now you can work on being happy for yourself.
     
  22. PeacefulOrca

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    Got some absolutely brutal news today, it's times like these where I wish I had friends irl. I'll probably listen to circa and cry myself to sleep.
     
  23. @PeacefulOrca sorry to hear, feel free to pm me if you want to talk
     
  24. SaveTheEarth

    Lucipurr Supporter

    Anyone else with bipolar and/or prone to panic attacks? Both for me here...on the verge of a panic attack at the office. Ughhh.
     
  25. Nyquist

    I must now go to the source Supporter

    I heard back from one of the companies I applied to at the job fair a couple weeks ago. I went in for an interview and it felt really good. First company to respond to me in months. I’ve applied to at least 80 jobs at this point. Interview went well and they said they’d call me to follow up. Got the call today. I didn’t get the job. I’m just sitting in a grocery store parking lot right now crying my eyes out and feeling so fucking lost.