I have always had ridic high anxiety about anything happening to my dad, and he's always been perfectly healthy. But I know if anything were to ever happen to him I'd lose it. I stress about getting a call that he was in an accident on his commute or an altercation gone wrong at his work or the victim of some white supremacist bs. Which like.... Isn't reasonable or productive. Recently he hurt his back and went to the ER and nobody told me and I've been a mess and a half. My dad doesn't go to the doctor for anything and the thought of him going to the ER is super upsetting. Yesterday I was in and out of his house and he was on the couch in the same spot every time and looked a lil stiff and I basically went off asking if his back was okay and he was like wtf back off. I need to chill. I feel like such an emotional and irrational mess lately and not like myself.