I'm 30 days away from my phalloplasty date and I still don't have insurance approval and this has been nearly 18 months of my life leading up to it and if it falls thru I'm probably going to walk into the ocean so that's cool
I’ve been pretty okay at distracting myself the last month or two but sometimes you’re just heavily reminded how alone you are
I can't really trust this work friend of mine. She has a loud blabber mouth, gossips, talks shit, constant complainer, and exaggerates/fabricates situations. Everyone knows she's loud and complains all the time. I try to help her out as a friend, but she doesn't listen. Whats kinda funny is the things she complains about other people doing, are things she does all the time. Anything that she tells me is hard to believe. Plus I feel like she's hiding stuff from me for whatever reason because Ive heard some things from other people (things she told them) and she has yet to tell me? Idk. It just gets stressful
Feeling really low tonight and super anxious for no reasons I can discern. This work week is also going to be miserable. Sigh.
My dad was doing so well and then today he texted me to ask me if I thought my sexual assault made me a better person and and and then said "no knee jerk answers" and I am cringing now for him as I type this jesus christ dad you outdid yourself on this one
Omg does anyone get heartburn after taking meds? It doesn't happen every time, but a good chunk of the time after I take my Prozac lately I've been getting what I assume is massive heartburn and it's hard to focus cause I feel like I need to throw up but I never do. The heartburn causes my body to tense which makes my sucky shoulders/back even more tense and suckier and then I just want to die.
So hollow. I can distract myself from the anxiety and the misery for a while, even convince myself that it's possible that things will get better eventually. But the emptiness is always humming away in the background. I Just have no energy or will to do anything when it comes down to it.
Not heartburn but nausea if I take them on a very empty stomach/coffee only Still no word on the insurance approval, but I set up my pre/post op appointments today. All I can do is keep moving forward but the lack of control is very very hard
you matter a lot to me so don’t ever think that. we all have that voice in our head that tells us things like that. don’t listen to it tho, it’s wrong about you
Joe, you’re one of the cooler people I know. I don’t we don’t talk much but you’re a great guy and hopefully we can hang and shoot the shit one day. Stay strong, man.
Joey Chorus, you absolutely matter, as many have pointed out. Hit me up if you need anything! Also: you going to NFG or TBS this summer? We should hanggggg
I might end up at one of those, I’m not sure yet but if I do end up going I’ll let you know! And even if I don’t go we definitely need to get together soon
Ugh, was up real late last night worrying because I couldn't remember if I took my lamictal. Now I am feeling anxious and kind of weird but I'm unsure if I'm just still worrying or if I really did miss my dose. I've never really missed a dose before, so I'm not really sure how to gauge myself. Currently wondering how bad an idea it would be to just take a half my regular dose since my prescription is only half the max dose recommended for people and I've been taking it for a few years now, but maybe not the greatest idea.
Oh wait.. I can just look up the date I filled it and do some math to see how many I have taken vs should've taken lol. Yay math