It would be so fucking cool if I could just stop overthinking everything in my life and just enjoy what I have going on for once.
It's really bad when my frustrations from this site carry over into my personal life. I got home yesterday and flipped out for no reason and took my anger out on my poor fiance. Once I calmed down and told him the real reason I was so irritated he laughed and said "Grown ups acting like fucking children. typical" and all was right in the world again.
I'm sorry to hear that :/ I'm bipolar 2 and don't have an OCD diagnosis, but I can definitely sympathize with feeling restless and unable to sit still. Coworkers at my work used to wedge big Clorox wipe containers under their monitors so they'd stop shaking so much and I'd always shake the dishes in the china cabinet growing up while eating in the kitchen. I wish I was better at catching myself doing it, but really can't seem to control it
Having to remove former friends from PlayStation just so I don’t see their name and get upset every time I try to distract myself with games is such a depressing thing, but I finally brought myself to do it today.
I just buried my great grandma and I'm glad she's not in pain anymore but it still hurts to know I'll never get to see her again and the day of the funeral I get a text that a good friend's father committed suicide and I just don't know...it's been a hard week
Holy fuck so relatable. My bf is always putting his hand on top of my leg to gently remind me what I am doing but I do it because it relieves the anxiety I feel 24/7 let me have a little bit of peace please
Hey, I don’t have anything I can do or say that’ll make it better but know that I’m thinking about you. All the love in the world being sent your direction.
I saw this when I got into the office this morning, but I didn't know what to say without making us both cry. So I'm going to send you hugs. Lots and lots of hugs.
It’s okay to slip up. Thats the hardest thing for me to remember. As long as the steps forward are bigger than the missteps.
I deactivated my FB, probably not going to log back in for a while. I just want to stay away from people
Wow, I am incredibly shocked by how they treated you. I seriously feel bad just reading that, that is absolutely not the way you treat someone who's feeling depressed/suicidal. If that was me, I would be in a much, MUCH worse state after going through that whole ordeal. I think people just don't know how to handle situations like this, and they often overreact and make things worse. Mental health is so tricky because it doesn't show itself like a bleeding cut on your arm, where it's obvious that there's a problem and that it needs fixing. It's like, you have no idea what that person needs or what's going to make things better. In that case, you just gotta listen to the person, and be there to support them with whatever they need.
How do you enjoy things when your mind just wanders all the time Any time you start doing something you wish you were doing something else And most of the time that something else is just nothing I think I need a hobby to give me some sort of purpose but I can’t stay interested in anything at the moment
Last month I felt depressed and lonely because I thought nobody cared about me, now I have three people who want to hang out with me and I keep procrastinating messaging them to make plans and they probably think I don't want to hang out but actually I am just very socially anxious and don't feel like talking to anyone because of it.
I can relate. Sometimes it just takes digging down through that anxiety and taking the plunge because it can really help to just get you out of that funk even when you are forcing yourself to do it. Explaining how you're feeling to these friends (if you're comfortable doing that) can also help them to understand better why you may go off of the grid and maybe allow them to help you better when this stuff happens. We are often our own worst enemies and create entire scenarios in our head that don't match reality so these friends may be more receptive than you think if you are just a little honest with them. :)
I drove 2 hours to a Round1 yesterday as a form of self-care and had a really good time, but of course, as soon as today rolls around, certain members of my family are stressing me the fuck out with their demands. I can't seem to catch a break, ever.
Round 1 is amazing, win yourself a bunch of plushies and get that self care on :) And maybe some DDR too!