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Mental Health Thread • Page 256

Discussion in 'General Forum' started by AelNire, Mar 9, 2016.

  1. rebecca


    Another reason I hate almost being 26 is that there are so many ways I'm "behind" compared to my peers and I just constantly feel like people would judge me even though it's not my fault I have so many psychiatric/chronic illness diagnoses that make existing even harder than it should be.
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  2. angrycandy

    I will always be nicer to the cat than I am to you Prestigious

    I hope I never cry over you again after today

    I hope I never feel this way again
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  3. Zoshchenko

    Trusted Supporter

    nothing fits and i am deeply unhappy with my body but clearly not enough to do anything about it
  4. Shakriel

    In these hands I'll hide, in these hands I'll hide Prestigious

    Made an appointment to see a doctor. Hopefully they can tell me what my issue is and whether I didn't take care of myself smartly enough and now it's come back to bite me in the ass.

    During this whole extremely stressful and anxiety-ridden ordeal and past week, I've realized just how few people I have to reach out to in a situation like this that I feel comfortable talking to or even just to hang out. I'm supremely lonely; in fact the most I've ever been. I don't usually mind being along but being stuck with just my thoughts is destroying me right now.
  5. RyanPm40

    The best goddamn bird lawyer in the world. Supporter

    Really have not been happy at my job lately. Really depressed, stressed and anxious these days.

    That moment when you start to fantasize of different career paths but you can't because you're already $110k in student loan debt.

    So scared of anything happening to this job, and I don't even enjoy it. I have no idea how I'd afford bills when I'm already spending $2200 a month on rent and minimum payment on student loans alone, nevermind utils, food, insurance, etc.
  6. supernovagirl

    Poetic and noble land mermaid

    I’m at the point where even when I’m not at a resting sad state about my personal life, I’m overwhelmed and exhausted by the sheer fact of being a woman. Like. Literally what is the point in putting in effort into a world that is dedicated and bred to oppress me on every level. Its like being gaslit by the universe because it makes you feel crazy because I have so few (feminists? Woke type? Whatever tf you want to call them) in my life, so I don’t typically feel very heard/understood/validated

    Anyway tldr I can’t see a reason to keep on living in a world that treats women like such shit
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  7. I feel this hard
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  8. Shakriel

    In these hands I'll hide, in these hands I'll hide Prestigious

    Every day I keep getting lower somehow and I'm just so exhausted, so fucking tired of waking up in the morning and continuing this.
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  9. leereidy


    Every time I get sad from now on, I'll watch this video.

    Life's odd...

    Hi btw, I'm new to this place! :alien:
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  10. xapplexpiex

    I am nobody Supporter

    My mental health is affecting my physical health and my head hurts too much to get out of bed.
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  11. rebecca


    I had to drop classes last semester due to my health. My adviser said this shouldn't affect my scholarship yet nor should signing up for only 3 classes (instead of 4 or 5) affect it because they don't check until the end of the year, and then I can appeal. I received an e-mail yesterday saying if I don't sign up for a 4th class, not only will I lose my scholarship but I will also have outstanding charges on my account. My psychiatrist actually strongly discouraged me from taking 4 classes since I just had an episode in December and had to be put on a brand new medication, and also I have been having poor physical health lately. Oh, and it wouldn't even be 4 classes - it would be more like 5 because I still have an incomplete in another from last semester, so this would be ridiculous.

    I don't know what to do. I feel like I either have to do a medical withdrawal, in which case I don't think I could be penalized financially and honestly maybe it would be better for my health right now so I was considering it anyway, or see if I can get some sort of note from a doctor explaining that I can't do 4 classes right now.

    Why do they have to make school so hard for people with mental illnesses/disabilities? I'm freaking out and I don't know what to do. I feel like the odds are stacked against me right now.
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  12. Shakriel

    In these hands I'll hide, in these hands I'll hide Prestigious

    Does it matter what the fourth class is? Maybe take like a super simple course just to satisfy the scholarship reqs? Like maybe even a class that could potentially be helpful like yoga? I know that's offered at some schools.

    Sucks that you might have to have four classes, so I just wanted to offer one possibility that popped into my head.

    I wish you luck. :)
  13. Kiana

    You look like bad news, I gotta have you Prestigious

    This feeling is always so awful. The heaviness. I heard a radio commercial today saying your life is worth it and I was like ...eh is it really? I don't think my life is worthless but I don't think it's that valuable either. Like in the grand scheme my life is a blip of nothing. People move on and forget and the world keeps turning and they deal.

    I just got switched to Prozac so idk we'll see if it helps
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  14. Kiana

    You look like bad news, I gotta have you Prestigious

    Just downloaded a med management app and it's already a lifechanger. I went from just taking bc so one pill for years, to doing a trial and error with various depression/anxiety meds and then supplements and I am the worst at remembering. Sets an alarm to remind me and I can check off if I've taken it already, which is the hardest part for me. My days blur so I get super confused with what I've already taken. But I don't rly feel I have enough pills for one of those days of the week things.

    Still feel like depressed garbage all the time so thats fun. Then all the guilt and shame for not going to the gym or eating enough or even like practicing basic hygiene and showering. I know this is like way tmi and disgusting but I went to the gym and was on my period and still didn't shower for like a week. I used baby wipes and deodorant and lotion and stuff but every day I woke up with so much shame and guilt and embarrassment and that just made my depression worse. My house is a mess and I'm just so miserable. Then I feel extra guilt cause it's like my job to judge people who do these things when I'm no better myself in some ways.
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  15. BirdPerson

    fuck tammy! Prestigious

    Update: I have refills for all my meds. This doctor, so good, love her

    Can't decide what to do about work and surgery. I need to cut my hours by a lot, like 11 hours a week, or I'm gonna make too much money to stay on Medi-cal. I need to stay on Medi-cal until May 7. After that whatever
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  16. Kiana

    You look like bad news, I gotta have you Prestigious

    Do people have things that make them feel better with depression? Like random little things?

    Lately mine are BuzzFeed Unsolved and Shane Madej in general like idek honestly lol but he's been such a good distraction, tea, and Better Oblivion Community Center. Rly hope they figure out the tour/ticket situation. Those are kinda the only things eliciting any emotion or any shred of happiness lately.
  17. Shakriel

    In these hands I'll hide, in these hands I'll hide Prestigious

    Right now, I manage to distract myself and amuse myself with this silly Netflix show called Instant Hotel.

    However, it won't work forever (in addition to running out of episodes) and I'll have to find something else to fixate on to keep my mind of things.
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  18. iCarly Rae Jepsen

    Oh goose Prestigious

    I'm not sure if there are any particular shows or stuff because even with something like The Good Place which I love and makes me happy I get distracted sometimes

    for me it's thinking of things I have to look forward to and kinda forcing myself to always have at least one thing on the calendar
  19. Kiana

    You look like bad news, I gotta have you Prestigious

    Yeah that's a good idea. I have some concerts lined up which is exciting but it always feels so far away! I think I need to start doing one thing a month, even if it's just something small to look forward to.
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  20. theagentcoma

    nobody look Supporter

    I pour myself into creativity. Writing or playing music. Going to shows is always good, as is reading. I'm an escapist junkie, basically.
  21. RyanPm40 Feb 4, 2019
    (Last edited: Feb 4, 2019)

    The best goddamn bird lawyer in the world. Supporter

    Have a meeting w my boss today to tell him how the new office buillding is making me sick, hoping to request to work from home. Really scared, anxious and depressed. I really don't want to and can't lose this job.
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  22. RyanPm40

    The best goddamn bird lawyer in the world. Supporter

    Update - that meeting went really well. Huge relief, I'm so glad to finally have it over with.

    The "new" building (aka we moved to a smaller, older place) just straight up makes my lungs hurt and makes me dizzy, confused, and exhausted. It just wasn't working for me. I hate to not be "normal" and have such a weird autoimmune disorder that nobody tends to understand. I'm so grateful my boss seemed to get it.

    He said I can work from home full time now. Even said he selfishly wants to keep me on our project because the team loves having me but that he fully understands if it becomes depressing for me to work alone without in-person, human interaction, and would be open to helping me find a different job in another group at one of our other offices after a few months of trying this out.

    I wish I addressed this a lot sooner. I was in a really dark place. I wasn't full-on suicidal or anything.. but there were nights in bed where I felt so short of breath that I'd think "If I just drifted off to sleep right now, stopped breathing, and never woke up, I would be totally ok with it." It was a really scary thought to have for so long.. never told anyone about it. But I'm feeling like I'm in a much better place now. I really need to find a new therapist that my new insurance will cover.
  23. oldjersey

    Luigipeppercorn is a hack geek Supporter

    That must be a HUGE relief, happy it worked out for you Ryan, that's some massively important stuff to address.
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  24. RyanPm40

    The best goddamn bird lawyer in the world. Supporter

    Thank you SO much, it really means the world to me to even have other people excited for me. I've felt really alone for awhile now, and it feels like the biggest weight has been lifted off my shoulders :).

    Still feeling nervous for when my coworkers ask me where I am, or what will happen as word makes its way up to my director and other upper management (I work for a very large company), but I made the biggest step in the right direction and I'll take things one step at a time from here
  25. oldjersey

    Luigipeppercorn is a hack geek Supporter

    I mean one option if your co-workers ask is to be transparent with them. It sounds like you suffer from something that can be detrimental to your health, they will understand and support your decision, you seem to be valued at your work.
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