Mental Health Thread • Page 237

I will never be safe anywhere, maybe I shoud kill myself for good. About time

 

Do you have somewhere safe you can stay?

 

Yes, I'm at my aunt with a cousin since the afternoon. I'm feeling a bit better and together we've been looking for legal ways to get out of my situation. Thanks to everyone for reaching out, I'll be busy for the upcoming weeks due to the amount of paperwork and legal stuff I need to get done, on top of job searching, but I'm staying motivated. I got this, and I'll be careful about protecting my mom and myself. I'm reminded that I'm not alone and people care for me, and it means everything to me. Thanks again.

 

I totally understand this. To put it simple, my girlfriend has really bad depression and I have bipolar as well. Things don’t go too well at times, to put it lightly, without saying too much on here.

 

I am Peace Lover

 

I feel u on this 100%. My wife has severe depression and anxiety and I'm not much better. We've been married for 5 years, together almost 10 and it's still a struggle. Some days we wonder if we made a mistake. It's exhausting. We both need someone who can take care of us at our worst, but if we're both down there it makes things extremely difficult and we just end up lashing out at each other over the dumbest shit. Anyways if you ever wanna talk more about this my inbox is always open.

 

I hope someday I can think about how much I miss my grandma....without crying....

 

I like this

 

This is not working out. I need to do like an overhaul on everything idek but this isn't working

 

got an email from the microsurgeon's office today, a paraphrasing:

hey silas still want to book surgery for phalloplasty?
why hell yes i do! i take it that means the office got my mental health assessment letters, finally! (i had the assessments done in fucking AUGUST)
nope just following up, since we knew you were trying to get your letters.
hmm okay, that's interesting, so can you book a date or no?
yes i can. where are you with hair removal?
um, just focusing on the one main crucial area because they said like 18 months total. and that's kind of not important, getting the dick itself is the important thing, when can i have surgery?
yeah okay well if you go religiously for hair removal you can have surgery on may 6

*my head explodes at this point*

i have IN WRITING FROM THE UROLOGIST'S OFFICE that i needed all three mental health assessment letters done before they could book surgery. now this guy on the microsurgeon's side says he knows my letters aren't done but yes he can book me a date?

so could i have booked this back in fucking july??? or AUGUST... WHEN THEY TOLD ME IN WRITING I NEEDED THE LETTERS TO BOOK? because the letters weren't done either way, at either time....and now instead of book in july for surgery in january, it's book in october for surgery in may? of course now there are extra months added into the wait.

i have now sent three sad emails back to this guy, who managed to ruin my day by giving me a surgery date. lol.

 

Oh gosh the "there are others that are worse off" mantra is the worst. People who are in denial are always the first to say this.

 

He’s always seemed like a great guy and I really like this quote. I’ve been with my SO for 7 years and can’t even imagine how I would live being single. I think about this sometimes. If something were to happen to her, I’d be so lost. I guess this does apply to me though, since we don’t have friends outside of each other, but we’re fine like that.

 

My lack of motivation is getting ridic. My house is a disaster. Dirty dishes overflowing in the sink, clothes everywhere on the floor. It stresses me out to walk into. I've had less motivation taking care of myself too like usually I love putting on makeup in the morning but these days I get out of bed 30 min before work. I'm not showering as often. Last night I went to the gym which is great but then I got home and fell asleep without showering or brushing my teeth and left the lights on and I just feel like a gross mess. I was eating healthy but now I'm either tired or don't have time or don't wanna shop so I eat like cereal or junk. I need to figure something out.

 

Worried this might be a dumb question, I don't really have a history of mental health problems but have been having spells of feeling really low the last couple of months... How can I tell if I genuinely am circling the drain of depression or if it's just self-pity?

 

I’m not really sure where else to ask this. My girlfriend has been really struggling with her depression the last few weeks. Music is one thing that always seems to help and I’m trying to make her a playlist. Do any of you have song recommendations or some favorites you listen to when you’re down?

 

What are her favourite artists/genres?

 

What kind of music is she into? I don't wanna rec what got me through some shit the last 2 years if its not her thing.

 

She honestly listens to a wide variety, except very little country. Acoustic stuff like City & Colour, pop punk, and pop stuff like The Mowglis immediately come to mind.

 

I might be a weirdo, but listening to John Mayer, The 1975 and a lot of mid 90's music always helps me.

 

She loves the 1975, so that’s spot on!

 

OK ok I am biased but srsly christina aguilera is queen of empowerment feel better songs. Yesterday I was really down and bad and it helped a lot. If I wanna feel petty and like screw you it's def Circles or Make Over. Empowered and unstoppable it's Fighter, Can't Hold Us Down, Best of Me, Army of Me. Kelly Clarkson is also A+ for this topic.

 

How old is she? trying to figure out if I should rec anything else that personally gets me through the hard days.

 

Oh hell yeah Kelly Clarkson!

 

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