Man its been over a week since the break up and my best friends here have literally made no effort to hang with me. Trying not to let it bother me but fuck, its just shitty.
I keep thinking back to my interview this week. I had to psych myself up before the interview and I just wasn't feeling it during. I thought it was because maybe the job isn't for me, but now I'm wondering if it's my depression. It's hard not being able to trust my own feelings. Idk if I'm not enthused because a legitimate lack of passion or because of depression. I feel like I can't trust my own judgment. It also sucks that if it is depression I'm sabotaging my chances of success by not feeling into it. I think my therapist wants to potentially discuss medication next week but I guess we'll see.
If you have sick time I don’t think they can fire you for calling in sick (and if someone was fired for that they can sue for wrongful terminated even at will states), and writing someone up for that is ridiculous unless they’re a frequent call offer or didn’t call within the time stated in the company policy. Also you don’t legally have to have a doctor note until after two days off sick calls offs- at least to my knowledge when asked a manager about that type of situation
They denied my unemployment because I left without good cause. Because the hostile work environment driving u back into therapy isn't good cause I guess. It just makes me jaded towards workplaces. The system is in place to protect businesses and not people and it's disheartening.
I really need to go back to a therapist but I can’t afford it even with the hardship discount. So I try to just sleep it off right now. It kind works.
I'm just one big ball of anxiety right now, terrified of everything collapsing around me. Flashing forward a month, or two, would just be awesome.
Just found out this weekend that I'll be losing my insurance I've had through the state this week because I can't afford it. I had it for free through the state, and now I'd have to pay $800 a month for the lowest bare bones insurance. So now, I'll have no way of getting depression meds, therapy, etc. without paying ridiculous prices out of pocket. I'm insanely nervous on what this will do to my depression, which is already severe with those things.
Got an interview at Sam ash and put in an application at a record store that's been hiring for a month now and I asked and they're still hiring so hopefully I get one of these jobs
Someone else at my old job put in their two weeks today. That's the third person to do it just weeks before the school year is over. You think this would be a sign to someone in upper management how awful of a work environment it is there but they'll just find someone lower qualified to fill the position since there's no incentive to attractive highly skilled employees
Depressed beyond words today. Going to listen to Julien Baker all day, and remind myself of the people in my life that I would not want to leave behind.
I was doing okay today until I got my stupid fucking grad tickets in the mail like ha ha thanks for the reminder that I'm not graduating universe I also need a new job, and now is the time that lots of restaurants are hiring but I do not have nearly enough spoons to do the whole job hunt/interview thing right now
Hey brother, I know it sounds kind of dumb but listening to stand up comedy lifts my spirits pretty quickly when I feel like that. Also you can make fun of me alllllll you want!
@Larry David hey! We care about you! Also make fun of dan because it’s rly fun for the rest of us ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
Yeah I would never advocate for it if I didn’t think he was getting some strange pleasure out of it (also he offered first) (also he knows we all love him)