Mental Health Thread • Page 153

Thanks bb! I think I just need one day to catch up on life but being stretched so thin it's just not happening for me. I haven't been able to appreciate that it's almost the weekend. I didn't even begin to snap outta my cranky mood until I remembered that there's a new episode of the exorcist tomorrow lmao. I just rarely get so stressed that I'm this disorganized and jumbled. I def know my brain is in like "help me, help me, I'm stressed!" mode but I haven't been able to shift it back to normal

 

I was just witness to a murder... In shock right now to say the least. The 12 year old was just minding his own business. Scary part is that I was sitting at the table the kid was sitting at just 15 minutes prior. It could have easily been me had I not needed to charge my laptop.

1 dead, 2 wounded, including 12-year-old boy, in shooting at Uptown Starbucks

 

Liked this at first and unlike since it didn't feel right - but meant it in a I'm soo sorry that happened and you had to see it. Glad you're okay though, if you need an ear we're all glad to listen.

Really wish things like this would stop, drug deal gone awry? Wtf better places to do that shit.

 

Wow, I'm so sorry you were witness to that, and for the victims. Take care of yourself, and def feel free to vent or anything if u need to.

 

Sometimes I don't realize that I made an asshole move until I'm reflecting on how my day went. I feel awful. I fully intend to apologize, but I know I'm going to overthink it to death and beat myself up about it tonight until I see them tomorrow. I srsly think it's another byproduct of my stress. I was so wrapped up in trying to manage that moment, that I wasn't being perceptive of other things around me. It's not okay and I rly need to figure my nonsense out.

 

Also I just realized that in my stressed out haze I approved the design of a sign that was made in comic sans. fml.

 

I feel like a danger to myself. I feel like it's getting to the point where it's not if I'm going to harm myself, but when. It's a really terrifying feeling

 

I have to work today and also figure out where I’m going to sleep. All of my friends have offered me a place to crash for as long as I want but some stupid function of my brain doesn’t want to let me accept that so I’m stressing pretty hard about it all right now.

 

Today my heart broke and my family was shattered simultaneously.....

Woke up to three shotguns & police shields in my face at 6am, search warrant.... They came for my brother for dealing/possession... I'm so angry at him yet so sad at the same.. Had our mother in cuffs, Why the fuck are you doing heroin? Fuck me man, I feel guilt as your big bro, like what could I have done better? And I know its not my fault, he did this but fuck.... I have no one in my family but him and who knows when I get to see him again. He just wanted to save up to bail out his girl, clearly this can be a blessing in disguise if he takes to it... but fuck has it destroyed everyone atm.

I really don't know how anyone is asked to deal with all the bullshit.

 

Sorry to hear you're going through this bud. I can't imagine the whirlwind of emotions

 

Thanks man, and yeah it's definitely a whirlwind that seems almost impossible to begin to process, and im all on my own to process it. I've had numerous other issues lately between family, "friends" and even disputes in my relationship, all which are so tangled up, stressful and etc that this really comes off as life is purposely tryna break me and my family. I'm not breaking, even when I tried to break myself off I never could, I know I can't and won't go anywhere but I am getting fed up with the bullshit and its incredibly soul & heart breaking.

 

I know this feeling really well. Earlier this year, I was struggling bad, and I just wasn't as productive at work as I knew I should be. And I'm always the one people can count on at work, so it felt horrible when people were like "Why isn't this done?" I and I just didn't have a good answer. Hang in there, keep your head up.

 

Thanks! It's frustrating cause I actually am trying to delegate some of it, but the work I delegate isn't being done or it's not done right so I have to do it myself anyway. Feeling like a losing battle but hopefully I'll catch up soon

 

I feel left out a lot lately. Like people I feel close to aren't really close to me

 

Sometimes I wonder why I even bother talking bc it seems like no one ever cares about what I have to say anyway.

 

Had a tough week and really struggled with anxiety today. Also, one of my closest friends is going through a lot and I can't do anything to help. I can be there for him, sure, but I can't fix his and his wife's relationship. Watching my friends hurt is much worse than whatever I go through.

 

So many good people feeling bad in here. I'm so sorry and I have love for every single one of you.

 

My mother ties everything into her desires and wants and if you say anything outside it, even (and especially) if it has nothing to do with her and her shit she manipulates and will literally try and destroy that drive, relationship, friendship, etc.
Told her she was a cancer last night. The scissors are to the tie, make it easier.... keep pushing.

 

Popping in to say I love all y’all and that you’re all incredibly strong and amazing people. I hope everything gets better for you all, and I wish I could help in some way.

 

Today is not a good mental health day. Sigh.

 

the past 2 days have been brutal. my daughter is with me today and it has been so hard to even be present and enjoy my time with her and it is making me feel worse. feeling more and more like I'm losing this battle.

 

im really lost lately with what to do, so much questions, discomforts, and stress.

 

I'm having difficulties at the weirdest times keeping it together. I'm staying at my sister's house and have been struggling in her basement so hard. My mom is crushed and that made tonight even worse.

 

Me too, it’s been a drag

 

Love you, Mike.