Mental Health Thread • Page 15

@Kiana that's such a nice feeling. Although I can do it consistently now (thanks to alcohol and college) so it makes things a bit easier to handle I guess

 

I was diagnosed with severe anxiety and severe depression last Thursday. I have resisted taking the Zoloft prescribed to me because my father was a pill addict. I cracked and took the first dose today after having a panic attack last night. It's making me feel awful. Slurred speech, lightheaded, delayed. Awful day.

 

Just be careful. Those were my initial responses to Zoloft and then it made my life hell. I was dealing with undiagnosed bipolar disorder but that stuff made my symptoms SO bad. I hope you start feeling better though. That's an awful way for your 1st dose to be when it was so hard for you to make the decision to take it in the 1st place!

 

Currently on prozac but not a huge fan of some of the side effects (plays games with my penis) ....But my anxiety is so bad I took the move and reached out to my health insurances plan and can book an appointment for mental health. Now my anxiety is getting in the way of actually scheduling something.

 

Is it weird I always reply to myself? Anyway, I'm doing it! Went to the dmv today and got that taken care of, did my coaching session with my teacher, and am waiting as my oil gets changed! I was a total awkward dweeb during all the social interactions surrounding these activities but I'm doing it. Plumber cancelled tho so I get out of that one. Take that, anxiety!

 

Great job! It's awesome how the most mundane tasks make some feel so accomplished. These "normal" social interactions are always a hurdle for me

 

yeah those interactions are super difficult. Like I did all these things I wanted to do but felt anxious about, only now I'm kind of cringing over how awkward I was the whole time, which is silly. I'm sure they noticed I was awkward/uneasy but it was prob a passing thought and they forgot about it two minutes later. But I stay obsessing over it like a weirdo.

 

After the 1st achievement did you feel a little less anxious or not really? I'm always curious bc after the 1st hurdle I'm totally fine but I have a friend who it never gets easier for.

 

I have started to slowly come off of zoloft. Went from 100mg a week ago and been taking 50mg a day for the past 6 days. I am so fucking emotional its driving me nuts. I forgot what it was like to feel like this, but I don't want to be on the Zoloft forever. Jessu take the wheel

 

Good luck with that! I had to get off 200mg back in November, and the withdrawals can get kind of bad, but when they're over it feels kind of worth it. While Zoloft numbed the depression, it also numbed every happy feeling I had. I remember seeing my girlfriend for the first time after a year on it and feeling like I was going to cry from happiness. haha

 

I have had like zero emotions other than "yeah whatever" for months. I have been crying on and off non stop all week since I went down to 50mg. Lots of built up emotions I needed to let out. Also, Today is a year since I lost my baby so I'm kind of a mess right now but I'll deal. My poor boyfriend has been dealing with a useless, zero sex drive woman for months. I hope things change quickly because I feel like I have been neglecting his needs. Thank god he's super understanding.

 

For me, it took about a month for physical symptoms of withdrawal to go away, and closer to three for the mental symptoms. I hope all of that goes better for you than it did me. If you get nausea and can't sleep like I did, dramamine helped a ton. (kills nausea, and then knocks you out) I hope it all works out for you.

 

Thanks Bro. I haven't felt any physical symptoms other than my leg was killing me the other day and I felt like I was detoxing from cigarettes again, which was odd. I quit smoking in August so that was an unwelcome feeling.

 

For me, the physical symptoms started a little over a week after getting off. If you miss 'em all together though, that'd be really good. Good job on quitting smoking too!

 

I still have no idea why I even started smoking. I smell one now and want to vomit. I had one like 2 months ago and go so sick I was like "Nope, never again."

 

I smoked for almost as long as @JulieLynn and I want to die whenever I smell cig smoke now.

 

I smoked for 16 years. I wish I could tell my 17 year old self to not be an idiot, would have saved sooooo much money.

 

I generally still feel anxious cause my anxiety comes from not knowing how like processes of things work and when I move on to the next thing I still don't know how that next thing works and what I'm supposed to do. If that makes sense lol

 

progress has been made. in the last few weeks i've been downtown for a long while, and outside for most of those days three times. before this i hadn't gone that far since december. and i've been better at interacting with other people instead of hiding and freezing up whenever someone tried to talk to me. this social anxiety is slowly turning round. i know this is good for me, to challenge this all. i just thought i'd share this bit of accomplishment.

 

I'm having one of those nights again where I'm dreading facing my extended family next month and being the only adult daughter who doesn't have a decent job or isn't married with children. I feel like I'm the biggest disappointment to everyone because I don't have a career and I'm not married with babies.

 

Hung out with my sister and her boyfriend today. At one point she mentioned how it's good to "get out of your cave." So the rest of the time we were out I had that lingering thought of, "Yeah, see, something must be wrong with me and this is done out of pity." I know she didn't mean anything by it but I can't help going into that spiral of bad thoughts that I have nothing going for me and whatever's there is crumbling in front of me. I don't know what happens when my family takes a dive because I have nothing else outside of that. Not the way I wanted this day to go.

 

I have been dealing with panic and anxiety attacks since November. I am on meds for them and seeing a therapist, which has been super beneficial. Recently though the antidepressants I have been on have been making me feel mentally numb and zombie like. Gonna try to get on a different kind because as much good as it is doing, I really hate the way I feel right now on them.

 

I'm having health problems (not mental but I'm not sure where else to put this for some kind of support). My mom or dad come down everyday to sit with me bc they don't want me to be by myself (I tell them not to but..parents). It's my mom's turn and she told me I look big when I have gone down a whole pants size. I try to act like it doesn't bother me but it does. Everytime I talk about my mom to my therapist I say but I guess that's normal, right? She always says no that's not normal at all.

I am a good person and I totally know that. I give almost all of my free time to helping others but it's hard not to feel like a piece of shit when it seems like your mom, who you love no matter how mean she is, hates your existence.

I'm so sorry for fucking whining but I'm tired of life, atm.

 

Election season is taking a toll on my sanity. I just want to vanish.

 

My girlfriend and I broke up last week (incidentally, she's in her last semester of grad school to be a therapist). I'm so much happier now, yet still depressed. Sigh. Life is so exhausting. At least I have cats.

(Yay, first post on the new site. )