Mental Health Thread • Page 143

I have OCD but it's hard to separate from my anxiety and clearly delineate what's what

 

yeah, I could see where that would be complicated. do you take medication for either/both that seems to help?

 

no medicine never helped and just made me gain weight unfortunately

 

I feel like everybody I know has somebody and I'm here alone, unable to find someone to be with. It picks at me so much, make me feel worthless, unattractive, unwanted.

 

damn . FWIW I have taken like 10g of fish oil a day for it/depression for a little while now and have noticed a difference in it helping a little if that's something you might want to try. May want to consult a doctor first although it doesn't sound very harmful from what i've read

 

i've been there, hang in there

 

I've also barely eaten today, I just can't make myself eat more than a few chips I forced myself to do so.

 

I been feeling better with myself lately; doing a lot of the little self expression things to break the chains of whatever ties that bind, but this is still something I struggle with greatly.
This and admittedly appropriately fitting drinking into said diet.... I don't wanna end up like my dad but I know I'm mirroring him too much atm, gotta do better. Need to eat better.

 

So sick of working at a job I hate. Lately I've been crying every day bc I hate this shit so much. Being flat out told you will never move up in the company and you will never receive a raise doesn't exactly make you want to work there either. Especially since I am already underpaid. This whole thing is a joke and I've been doing it for 6 years bc it is the only option for me and I'm over it. I'm sick of being paid on production but being expected to do things on top of it that I don't get paid for. I'm sick of everything being our fault even when it is clearly the fault of the client and we just did what we were told. I just want to make a fucking living wage and be able to move. But every time I get full time and get my hopes up they are crushed bc I still make fucking minimum wage if that (I'm not guaranteed minimum wage bc I'm a "statutory employee" ) and every time my hours get conveniently cut...again. I feel so stuck and I just want change but no matter what I try everything stays exactly the same.

 

i’ve become physically dependent on two different stimulants to function, and i feel awful about it but can’t wean myself off them until december without seriously jeopardizing my success in the program i'm enrolled in, which is something i absolutely cannot afford. i've done the weaning before and it takes a month to complete.

in fairness, i do have a daily/as-needed prescription for one of them, but that doesn't change the ways in which the daily usage is impacting me negatively. the most worrying part is that my original plan was to cycle between them, but i've reached the point where my functioning is impaired if i take just one of them, and some of their mechanisms of action overlap which may lead to long-term effects. i'm also worried because while one of them is known for having relatively little psychological dependence potential, the other one (the one i have a prescription for) is really easy to get full-on addicted to, and i really don't want that.

posting here primarily to vent but if anyone has been through something similar or has advice for what to do in this situation without jeopardizing professional activities, i'd be really grateful. even being able to cycle between them rather than taking both daily would help me manage the dependence, i think.

 

today is World Suicide Prevention Day
y'all

 

I don't know if I can go much longer without seeking professional help because, frankly, it does not bode well that my first week back to school nearly killed me. Especially since the first week will by far be the easiest as far as coursework is concerned. I'm kind of dreading getting through the next 4 days, which sucks, because I was genuinely excited to get back to school and start working more. I guess I just didn't consider how draining it'd actually be.

I might try to post in here more. Putting thoughts to "paper" is helpful, if only a little.

 

I had my first episode in a long time today. The kind of anxiety I can feel in my face. I'm looking at a couple of apartments today and I'm not ready for another life change of this magnitude. Gotten sick twice in the last couple of weeks just out of stress.

 

How are you doing today?

 

Much better, thanks friend

 

the hurricane provided a nice distraction from suicidal thoughts but now that its clear that we aren't all being swept away, they are back in full force

 

I'm a dumb.

But also I'm in a weird mental place because I'm starting a new job on Monday with a new company and I just...

 

Congrats on the job

 

Stay positive and message me if you want an unbiased venting recepticle, I read gud

 

I haven't been in a good place for awhile, but the stress of working while in school makes it so much worse. Last week, I left work almost as soon as I clocked in, because my anxiety was making it hard for me to breathe. The manager on duty told me it was fine, and that if I needed a few weeks off or something to take care of myself, just to let them know.

Well, I need to call them to let them know that is what I need, but I'm freaking out over making the call. I've been putting it off and its getting closer to my scheduled shift (tomorrow). Anyone have any tips on how to make an uncomfortable phone call?

We have a designated call out line as a way to leave messages to call out (like a voicemail thing) but I'm afraid if I use that to say I need time off, they'll be upset, so I'm trying to get myself to call and actually talk to someone.

 

Sorry the exam went poorly. :(

Is this the first time you've had this happen? Like you sit down to test and just blank on everything?

 

Is this your first semester of college?

Depending on your major, you might not need to, overall, stress about tests. The first year or so, perhaps, as you take intro courses. I did English and History and after the initial year, had almost no tests/exams to speak of, just a ton of papers to write. If you want Engineering or something, your experience will wildly differ of course.

Perhaps, maybe give the tutoring center a visit? Maybe someone there can help offer better suggestions about preparing for exams.

 

It sucks to miss a friend who prob doesn't care as much or miss you. Idk maybe she does, but I always feel like a last resort. To her credit she did try to reach out a few times but I was working. But when she reaches out it's usually because she doesn't have anyone else to hang out with, and it's rare that happens cause she has a ton of friends. We barely see each other but when we do we have lots to talk about and get on so well. We pick up right where we left off. I try to tell myself that it's okay and we can still be friends who care about each other but just hang out once every few months or so, but it makes me sad still. Sucks to feel like the one who puts in more effort or cares more.

 

feeling more and more like i've reached the end of my rope. living in a house i can't afford and that nobody wants to buy because the housing market isn't good here. my daughter is 2 hrs away and she's struggling. unexpected expenses. feeling overlooked by family and friends. spending too much time at work yet always feeling like im barely scraping by. it's just too fucking much

 

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