Mental Health Thread • Page 11

I sure do! It's mainly sun salutations and not as difficult as power yoga.

 

wow thank you for sharing this. right now it's 100 foot waves every other hour but on sunday it was every other minute. i needed to read this today.

 

I just had a random suicidal thought. That's never happened before.

 

It's a strange feeling, isn't it? That small thought in the back.

 

It's a wild feeling for sure. I don't like it.

 

I know, it's the worst feeling.

 

I posted this in another thread, but I volunteer on and off for a non profit in NJ focused on addiction. If anyone is struggling with that please feel free to reach out to me.

It's also safe to say that this has been one of the worst /best years of my life as I've struggled with Depression / Bipolar disorder (truth be told I've always had a mini stigma against it, I thought that was the kind of stuff kids just said they had in high school and I was above it.... I'm 25 now and it never got better because I was so wrong) officially had it diagnosed in August. I haven't been in as much of a mindful place in a very long time to the point where I could try to help somebody else, but I'm getting there so if anyone needs anything, please reach out to me or someone else. don't feel like you have to go through it alone.

 

Sorry I missed this one man - I think the capsules I ordered will be arriving today so I'm excited to try them. Mostly because I saw that more serotonin helps with more melatonin (or something?) that helps a lot with getting better sleep - did you find that when you used them?

 

Depression is hitting hard today and making me want to hide. Considering missing classes after work and going home just to not be surrounded by people while feeling this way. I shouldn't do it but I just feel like garbage, idk.

 

Its really tough today, I just want to vent to someone. I was really sad this morning and that feeling just hasn't went away. I would love to talk to the girl I've been basically dating for awhile but she's going through a time where she needs to get mentally stronger for us. I need to be respectful and not force her to talk to me but I know she would be my best option. I guess ill just have to suck it up for now but ill keep pursuing some other friends and maybe they'll talk it out with me.

 

Feeling great today so I'm just going to use this opportunity to tell anyone who's tentative about going on antidepressants to please, please, please talk to a doctor and at least give it a shot. I suffered through years of intense depression and of drug and alcohol abuse in high school and college after finding out I was on the spectrum, knowing I should get help. Was too stubborn to do it. Ended up having a xanax and vodka induced meltdown in January of this year and after being blacked out for two days, finally caved in. I've been on generic Zoloft and Klonopin ever since and it has dramatically improved every aspect of my life and career. I moved cities, started a new job, and started hiking outdoors as an outlet, which in turn led me to losing a lot of weight (and getting Tinder Plus, what uuuuuppp.) Like everyone non-neuro-typical and battling mental health issues, I still have some pretty fucking awful days. But things are a lot more manageable now. Just wanted to put that out there. After 8 or so years of self-abuse, I turned a corner. It is possible. And I'm always willing to talk to anyone about my experiences. Especially spectrum disorder/asperger-related.

 

I wish I could tell you as it's been ages since I took the supplement and I wasn't looking for changes in my sleep when I was taking them. I hope it helps you that way too though. Lord knows I could use the sleep too.

In other news, my anxiety has been in full force all day and I can't get a hold of it. The emotional turmoil of the past few months is just too much.

 

I don't think it's cliche at all! :) It's the only kind of stuff I do and it works. I also have this awesome Lavender / vanilla aromatherapy spray from bath and body works. It's relaxing.

 

I should check out aromatherapy, my apartment smells like shit cause my roommates are slobs and I think it stresses me out

 

I feel increasingly angry with myself for so many things that I feel like I'm going to lash out at everyone when I fly to San Francisco in June for my grandmother's 90th.

 

Feeling a whole lot of self-loathing today

 

Today has been really awful. A coworker was getting a divorce from her husband and killed her then shot himself. She died instantly but he lived for a few hours and then passed away as we were going to send him to surgery.

A 17 year old girl was driving and texting and hit a car with a family in it. I held the 11 year old girls hand until we sent her to surgery and she didn't make it. The 17 year old was inconsolable. She was screaming I killed someone, I killed someone.

I know this happens everyday but i am scared of how hard this is going to hit me later. Am I going to have an episode? I'm I mentally tough enough? I just don't know. Thanks for letting me share.

 

I have those once in a while and then instantly think about how heartbroken my family would be. I don't think I would ever have the balls to do it though.

 

Holy shit Erin. Are you ok?

 

I don't think we can ever be mentally tough enough for something like that, but I guess it's easier to talk about it.

 

Hope your day gets better

 

Cried for a little bit on break and I feel pretty stable. There is a really somber feeling over the entire hospital and that's what makes it so bad. I wasn't close to the coworker who was shot. We only spoke in passing but you don't think you'll know someone who will ever be in that situation. It's hard trying to help people who have done something truly evil. Everyone lost today and everyone is trying to cope in their own way. This is the most heartbreaking thing any of us have ever dealt with.
It's so quiet.

 

I'm so sorry hun. :hugs:

 

I hope you're OK! I can't even begin to think how tough that is.

 

didn't want to start a new thread, and not sure where else to post this so i hope it's okay in here:

friend / ex-gf who kept hounding her friend / ex-bf to kill himself had charges dismissed. the story below doesn't talk about all the texts she sent him like other articles do. i remember hearing about this last year and reading some of the text she sent. cold-hearted to say the least.

Court hears case of teen who sent beau texts urging suicide