Mental Health Thread • Page 10

Your mother obviously didn't have a good relationship with her mother.

My mom was pretty mean to me as a child. Her mom and her dad really didn't parent her and my aunt. But once I moved out of the house at 18, things with my mom and I changed and we are very close. I remember telling her a long time ago that I didn't want us to end up like her and her mom who never talk or see each other.

I wish I could make things different for you and your mom, but someday you'll leave home and things will change.

 

I honestly don't know what I would call myself. I am on 100mg of Zoloft but that was because of the loss of my pregnancy last April. I guess I'm still on it because it keeps me from crying all the time. I want to go off it but not until I have my fertility test done in May. I'm afraid if they tell me I can't have children, I'm going to totally go off the deep end.

 

Sometimes I don't think I'll ever be able to succeed in a job unless someone I know, such as a family member, already works there.

I've been working a new job the last couple weeks/months and the anxiety/depression I get in the morning is incredibly debilitating and it's taking everything to not quit this job. The kicker? The job isn't bad and everyone is super nice.

Is that a way to live? To only be able to work somewhere where a family member? I feel like even typing that makes me sound weird.

I've been wanting to bring it up to a family member but I'm scared to they're going to think I'm just trying to get out of working, which is not the case at all.

I honestly don't know how much longer I can go on feeling like this every morning without something happening.

 

My self esteem is so laughably fragile. Some shit happened at work today where I had to refund some costumers from my own tips, so that ruined my good mood, then on top of that they made a comment about how they usually have "that blonde smiley server" instead of me. They probably didn't mean it as an insult but it made me feel shitty and ugly and now I'm at home trying not to cry.

 

General message to everyone, I want you all to feel comfortable and happy. Don't ever be afraid to PM me if there's something concerning you, regardless of the source - be it me or something else entirely. I never want anyone to feel like they can't express how something is affecting them cause that's not okay. Here's a group hug. And for those that like it - a lot of chocolate.

 

Thank you so much.

 

I obsess about similar things and I'm sorry I know it sucks

 

Yup, I'm 100% this way and it's awful. I'm so sorry.

 

This is probably a weird flaw but I have a hard time feeling loved because I feel like certain people "are required" to love me and therefore it's meaningless.

 

How much time do you have in the mornings? In the past when this has happened to me, I found that getting up earlier and taking my time to get ready - coffee, shower, some breakfast and maybe a tv show, etc - really helped alleviate the worst of my anxiety. Instead of just getting up, rushing to the shower, etc.

 

I just wanted to thank everyone involved who has made this thread such a positive, safe place for users. It makes me really happy to see the support everyone is extending to one another. Y'all are truly a special group and I'm proud to be a part along with you!

 

Feel this so bad

Anyone ever try the supplement 5-HTP at all? Supposedly boosts serotonin and can have a positive effect on S.A.D. and mild/moderate depression.

 

No but I did have a sun lamp for my SAD until I moved. Even just having that on in my living room helped.

 

I've used it and from what I can tell, it does have some benefit. I still had episodes and what not but it was more mellow. I probably should get more.

 

That's pretty cool. I have heard people talk about it but they never said whether it worked or not.

 

It's funny. For someone who is an isolator, I sure do need a lot of sun haha

 

This guy I worked with had a sun lamp and it used to infuriate me because the angle he had it at was directly into my eyes, I hate the fucking things
He used to infuriate me a lot because I believed at the time his depression was due to his shitty attitude towards women & the fact one girl wouldn't date him (she called it off after one date then he was of with stress for 3 weeks) but I later found out he lost his brother (suicide) a year or so back & I felt super shitty for being angry at him.

Probably the fact he had the balls to admit he was suffering with mental health issues is what I subconsciously was reacting against, and him then getting the sympathy while I was dismissed as the "angry guy" who "doesn't like anyone in the team" because I was too much of a coward to speak up...

 

I guess I fall under the isolator type as well, because I tend to not react well with people and stay home. Living in a suburban part of Florida doesn't help because there's jack to do.

 

this is laziness on my part for not reading the entire thread, BUT

I have been going to a weekly group session to learn mindfulness, and I have to say it is wonderful. I recommend it (great if you deal with any sort of anxiety)

 

mindfulness is life dawg! it took me so long to realize that it was more about a state of mind than a solution to my anxiety but that kinda comes as a result then.

 

it has taken me a really long time to realize I won't find a "solution", once I accepted that (which was hard) everything seemed lighter and brighter, and my outlook on life started improving. Mindfulness is really helping me a lot.

 

yah and realizing - it doesn't really get easier, you just learn how to manage things a little better. it's one of those things in life where you just eventually realize that all that cliche self-help shit actually has some context haha.

 

I do sunrise yoga 3 days a week and it helps with my anxiety big time.

 

i found this post a while ago on reddit, and it really helped me out a lot. It is within the context of dealing with the death of someone, but I found it useful for other situations. I was suffering from severe death anxiety that was causing breaks from reality (brought on by a friend's death) so this thought terrified me at first, but the more I thought about it the calmer I would become.

"As for grief, you'll find it comes in waves. When the ship is first wrecked, you're drowning, with wreckage all around you. Everything floating around you reminds you of the beauty and the magnificence of the ship that was, and is no more. And all you can do is float. You find some piece of the wreckage and you hang on for a while. Maybe it's some physical thing. Maybe it's a happy memory or a photograph. Maybe it's a person who is also floating. For a while, all you can do is float. Stay alive.

In the beginning, the waves are 100 feet tall and crash over you without mercy. They come 10 seconds apart and don't even give you time to catch your breath. All you can do is hang on and float. After a while, maybe weeks, maybe months, you'll find the waves are still 100 feet tall, but they come further apart. When they come, they still crash all over you and wipe you out. But in between, you can breathe, you can function. You never know what's going to trigger the grief. It might be a song, a picture, a street intersection, the smell of a cup of coffee. It can be just about anything...and the wave comes crashing. But in between waves, there is life.

Somewhere down the line, and it's different for everybody, you find that the waves are only 80 feet tall. Or 50 feet tall. And while they still come, they come further apart. You can see them coming. An anniversary, a birthday, or Christmas, or landing at O'Hare. You can see it coming, for the most part, and prepare yourself. And when it washes over you, you know that somehow you will, again, come out the other side. Soaking wet, sputtering, still hanging on to some tiny piece of the wreckage, but you'll come out. Take it from an old guy. The waves never stop coming, and somehow you don't really want them to. But you learn that you'll survive them. And other waves will come. And you'll survive them too. If you're lucky, you'll have lots of scars from lots of loves. And lots of shipwrecks."

 

this sounds wonderful. Do you have a video that you follow (aka youtube)? I'm too much of a novice to do it without instruction.